You're like a light at the end of a pitch black tunnel. and I'm sprinting towards you with wide-spread arms, even though it isn't guaranteed that you'll accept me the same way I'll accept you.
But I'm finally willing to take a chance.
   If I never try, then I'll never know, and I'm sick of beating myself up at the end of every day all due to the fact that I was too much of a coward to take a risk.

     I'm not grown; I'm growing.
         Part of growing is learning,
And I believe knowledge is a power locked deep within our heads and passion is the key to unlock it so we can let our minds run free.
     So that our ideas can become a vast landscape blooming and teeming with life!
     But, in order to learn, I have to take risks.
So I'll step into darkness with faith and hope.
Because if I never try, then I'll never know.

I'm pacing back n' forth in the recesses of my mind.
Thinking about tomorrow; as if I have the time.
I've got a book of regrets and a list of excuses.
Stitches for the cuts and ice for the bruises.
I've got the heart of a warrior but the guts of a coward.
And I'm always screaming inside my mind; as if silence could get any louder.

I'm trying to stay positive; I'm trying to learn.
But it's hard to move forward when your "success" is everyone else's concern.
They're always breathing down my neck and saying things like "you can do better!"
But I guess they don't know that my ambitions change with the weather.
I can't explain it or even begin to understand why.
It's something that's out of my control no matter how hard I try.

it has been four months
one week
one day
and five and half hours
since the last time
I saw you
I hugged you good bye
you tugged gently at my bright blue sweatshirt
I imagined that to be your plea for me to stay
You said "I'll talk to you"
I held back tears
as I climbed into a car filled with unapproving stares
I spent twelve hours on a bus
thinking that what went wrong was
disastrous
but that what went right was
magical
I spent the next
four months
one week
one day
and five and a half hours
trying not to.