A fraction folds
To hold
The mold of a former
Love affair in negative degrees

When we were young
The things that mattered
Were the present
The future non-existent to us
Meant nothing, though not pushed
Or brushed under the rug

No guilt was weighed upon us
No responsibility given
Our only task was to live, love, experience, grow

A turn in the mentors
DIrects the young minds
To a place thought of
Death to a spontaneous chaotic mind

The only
Kind
That makes
Differences are changes

When there was nothing to say
We moved the former sentences
To the front of the line
And there was magic in her eyes
The way she lied with her thighs
A voice like a sick angel with too many
Pills swimming around her intestines

Another night
Two days prior
The sire inhaled
And looked out onto
A golden field aflame

The same man
Whose daughter's plan
Was to escape to a land
Far from reach
From his violent hand

We are all escaping somewhere
All going someplace
A nerve twisted underneath a
Tangerine tinted skyline

It's late on the front near the water;
The old withered oak trees.
A cloud passes over the moon;
Darkness pours over this old house of mine.
In time I'll see love again,
But for now
I'll stop feeling lazy and have reason.

Falls coming soon.
So croon with the leaves that crawl
Over caked and cracked windowpanes
Forgetting a summer that was
Wasted away in a hazy heat to dumb
To press matters further than work and love

your status symbol
a thimble
Over whatever remains
Leave my corpse, my aches, my pains
On his threshold
He won't see it until there's mold
A gray of some shade
Identify me by the scars I've made
Dental records show
This girl should have been happy long ago

Years wear down
This body a rusty town
The cells fast shrink,
Yet somewhere deep within
A faintly throbbing green
Keeps us from the brink.
When it all seem to recur
Getting closer to departure
Past stories’ repeat,
Some things don’t grow stale
Their pleasures immeasurable
Memories bitter sweet.

Oblivion should be a disease
Water vapor and antifreeze
Pool on the inside of my chest.
Do what's best
Not what's healthy;
Around everyone, be stealthy;
Build a metal barricade:
Mantras like a blaring cannonade
Teach me what it smells like to never listen
The only thing I wish had stayed
Was your smile, a glimmering glisten

is suffering
with boulders on your eyelids;
splinters in your chest
and then finding perfect sight and a calm breath

that is samsara

"Tug, tug, tug" said the weights on my heart,
oh snug snug snug, with a smile and a hug,
did the chains gleefully entreaty,
On some days you'll feel the pain and self-hate,
But most of the time you will be empty,
Smug smug smug,
Me or these bands I breed?

Oh I wonder, I wonder, I wonder,
I think about it now and then, my sweet,
How it feels to love many,
Love so openly,
Looking in the hollow shells and finding the sick treat,
Nothing is fonder, fonder, fonder, on me
Than rejecting my own destiny.

I can go less and less as the years get colder, colder, colder,
The hot sun shines a little less,
And the snow makes me more than a little numb,
A white void, a sign post saying, darkness approaching,
I smile a little happy, depression now encompassing,
Au revoir, and the c'est la vie,
For je t'aime, and everything else,
Lies, lies, lies, and you can stick it up your hiney.

The truth is I am already dead,
Waiting for the sky to fall,
And we never know when we will stop breathing,
But we beg for it bleeding,
The breaking point, the line,
The end of all suffering,
The do or die, die, die,
All that and more my future does not lie,
No instead, my wretched soul,
Is already long gone,
Leaving now only a loud heart,
And the incessant sounds going,
"Tug, tug, tug."

sum or is or body fair?
the dawn which marks with crimson
the light which trills or hair

                                                 ?


loose or hangs by easily does
such clatter and or slop
(legs unmeet; a trollop)
or string that cherries pop


sum or is or *** wit lips?
lush with tearful smaking?


or is it honey that which drips?

I woke up one morning with my insides in a knot
I froze to death from icy sweat, my body getting hot
And an angel stood beside me and he whispered in my ear
"For every day you misbehave I'll take another year"

So I stumbled to get out, empty bottles on the floor
And was aiming for my city as I crashed out through the door
I hurried out only to find I was a single soul
Everything was silent but a hellish belling knoll

The angel stood before me and cackled in my face
"In all your wildest fantasies, this here is the place!"
But here were no burning rivers or pillars made of fire,
The pain that came and scarred the most was from my own desires

What I wanted most in life was nowhere to be found
And the landscape that surrounded me was empty all around
I knew I'd never die again and would dwell here endlessly,
No one to keep me company and no drugs to keep my sanity

I woke up the next morning with my insides in a knot
I froze to death from icy sweat, my body getting hot.
And an angel stood beside me and she whispered in my ear
"The only way to stay away is to give up all your fear"

I know little of the fury
And the misanthropic scurry
Of the little ones inside ourselves,
That we hide awashed away.
Of what I do know daunting,
Is the image left so haunting
In the visage of so wanting
And the love I lead astray.
She came and went so tragically
And took her perfect majesty
I think myself so callously,
That I could never her betray.
Were I spared a single gaze,
From eyes I could spend countless days,
I would dream of every way,
To have her not so far away.