I would die for you even if I didn't have to

With red rivers on my wrists

I just want to be loved
To not be criticized for everything I do
I want to be loved
For who I am
Tear away perfection
Take away my mask
I just want to be loved
No strings attached
No "you are so mature I wouldn't have you any other way"
I just want to be loved
To feel safe and protected
And not be someone else
I just want to be loved
Not live up to the standards that have been set
Not to feel always pressured to stay being loved
I just want to be loved

Bored and lazy,
I lay my head down.
My eyes are closed,
Daydreaming.

I do not want
To do a thing,
A side effect
Of using.

I need a
Substance
Just to care,
Even when
I'm losing.

I'm thoughtless
When I'm sober,
Indifferent to
Refusing.

Learn from my
Mistakes;
Don't learn
By doing.

I wish I
Wasn't ruined.

Silence was a canvas
And no one could paint it like you could