I never stop crying
I feel like I'm dying
Everything hurts
And I've given up trying

I was left crying and upset the day you broke my heart
I tried to move on and meet someone new
But when I was in their arms I wished it was you

Every night I wake up at midnight
All alone nobody cares
No sleep every night
Crying because of two people
Them. Seeing them happy and perfect
And me just a nobody
It hurts...

On a rainy day I walk outside
The sky reflects how I feel
And the thing I love the most about rain is that no one can see that I'm crying

I'm not pretty
I'm not smart
I'm not kind
And I'm not what he wanted

Like glass my heart is broken and shattered
Like stone is is cold
No one gets tired of loving they just get tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry, and hurting

The pain you feel when you see the one you love with someone else can break you beyond repair
Nothing can fix it
And if I treated her the way they both treat me they would feel the pain that I felt every day seeing them holding hands and being happy. They would know how broken I am. They would know why I never smile or laugh.
And what hurts the most is when what you expected is far from your reality

I only have one friend
My computer the reason why?
The computer doesn't break me
It doesn't hurt me
It doesn't have to love me back
The computer accepts me the way I am
But you don't
I really want to hit someone with a chair right now

People say that a broken heart can be fixed with love
Well then that mean I will have a broken heart forever then....

.... great

Fake smiling?
I'm a professional at that.
Wearing a blank mask everyday
Definition of angry, depressed, and insane. Me

Don't break someone's heart they only have one
Break their bones they have 206
I don't need help or anger management I need people to stop ******* me off
Sometimes I feel like giving people a high five
In the face
With a chair
I told her roses are red
Violets are blue
I have five fingers
The middle one is for you

Everybody thinks that I'm fine
But I'm just wearing a empty emotionless mask nobody sees the real me

I love him
He doesn't know, but it doesn't
Matter because he loves her
Not me

Tired of trying
Sick of crying
Yeah I'm smiling
But inside I'm dying

I loved him and all he ever did was hurt me. I try every day to be the person he wants.
How many more times are you going to hurt me?
"Oh here's my heart you can have it for free, you can break it as many times as you want, but who cares about it anyway?"

For some weird reason he is always going to mean something to me
And honestly I feel like an idiot because I love someone who has broken me and will never be mine to love.
I smile and people think I'm fine but  the people who know me really well will know that I'm not okay

I tried to be the person you actually wanted
I tried to make you happy
I tried to mend my heart but the damage is not able to be fixed

What I used to do until I realized it was pointless
One red rose on his desk
One red rose in his locker
One red rose on his bag
But he thought it was someone else who sent them.
Why does this happen to me?!

Gun on the side of my head
Knife near my neck
Dagger by my heart
None of these weapons have hurt me yet
The only one is the knife you stabbed my heart with and the hammer you smashed it to bits with

I feel like I'm waiting for something that is not going to happen
Its hard to forget someone whom you've imagined spending forever with
It only hurts when you try to pretend it doesn't
All he ever did was make me cry to sleep every night

People call me trash and that I was a mistake
My response?
I hopped into a trash can and stayed there for two days.
People tried to get me to come out but all I said was
"Leave me alone, this is my home now."

On the outside I'm calm and friendly
On the inside I have many dark secrets most of them you would rather not know. If you did you would be terrified of me.
If you knew what I can do you would avoid me
And if he knew how I feel he would love me also

What a cruel world I live in
I have no one who loves
Me or cares that I exist
"Just a waste of space." They say
I have one question to ask
What did I ever do to you?

I'm so in love with him
but i'm getting used to the fact
that i'm never going to  be good enough.
when i see her with him i wonder
what does she have that i don't.

i'm made fun of
i only have one friend
people think i'm confusing as **** and never listen to a word i say,
and everybody i love will never love me back
whats the point of life anyway?

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
and at the end of the year it tell him before he left forever that i will never forget him,

one message each day,
hinting something to him,
the sick feeling of anger when he thinks it was sent from someone else,
when all along it was sent from the one who had the strongest feelings

it's not the pain of the knife in my arm its the pain of the knife in my broken heart and the fact that you put it there

i tell him, your the one who broke my heart, your the reason my world fell apart, your the one who made me cry, yet i still love you and i don't know why, you broke my heart but i still care for you with all the broken shards and pieces.
and when i get home i look at where my heart and feel it hurting... again

I realized i lost my heart to someone who doesn't care at all,
He hurts me so much but i still love him,
and nothing hurt more than realizing that he meant everything to me and i meant absolutely nothing to him.
and it hurts me even more to see him loving her when i have loved him for even longer.

i've lost someone who wasn't even mine,
True pain is when you look into the eyes of someone you love and they look away, it hurts.
and sometimes i tell myself i waste too much time to think about someone  that doesn't think about me for a second.

Crying tears of blood,
dripping everywhere,
the pain of heartbreak,
stronger than the pain of the wound
and the knife in my hand with drops of scarlet glinting in the moonlight

I am numb to the world,
I don't have feelings except the ones that i experience so often:
Sadness, heartbreak, and anger.
stone encasing around my heart cutting it off from everyone but one person.
Him...

nobody to cheer me up when i'm sad
nobody to dry my constant flow of tears
nobody to defend me when people bully me
i'm all alone in this world of hate and sadness

It's not always the tears that measure the pain.
Sometimes it's the happiness we fake.
Sometimes crying is the only way your eyes can speak
when your mouth can't explain how broken your heart is.
you shouldn't have to rip yourself to pieces to keep others whole
And i tell him, "you cannot possibly imagine how much i hate myself and love you..."

Jealousy like strong poison running through your veins
A raging fire in your stomach to see him with her
The sick feeling of rage and jealousy targeted at one person,
the person who stole,
stole the only thing you didn't have.