i tell him, your the one who broke my heart, your the reason my world fell apart, your the one who made me cry, yet i still love you and i don't know why, you broke my heart but i still care for you with all the broken shards and pieces.
and when i get home i look at where my heart and feel it hurting... again

I realized i lost my heart to someone who doesn't care at all,
He hurts me so much but i still love him,
and nothing hurt more than realizing that he meant everything to me and i meant absolutely nothing to him.
and it hurts me even more to see him loving her when i have loved him for even longer.

i've lost someone who wasn't even mine,
True pain is when you look into the eyes of someone you love and they look away, it hurts.
and sometimes i tell myself i waste too much time to think about someone  that doesn't think about me for a second.

Crying tears of blood,
dripping everywhere,
the pain of heartbreak,
stronger than the pain of the wound
and the knife in my hand with drops of scarlet glinting in the moonlight

I am numb to the world,
I don't have feelings except the ones that i experience so often:
Sadness, heartbreak, and anger.
stone encasing around my heart cutting it off from everyone but one person.
Him...

nobody to cheer me up when i'm sad
nobody to dry my constant flow of tears
nobody to defend me when people bully me
i'm all alone in this world of hate and sadness

It's not always the tears that measure the pain.
Sometimes it's the happiness we fake.
Sometimes crying is the only way your eyes can speak
when your mouth can't explain how broken your heart is.
you shouldn't have to rip yourself to pieces to keep others whole
And i tell him, "you cannot possibly imagine how much i hate myself and love you..."