I think I loved you out of my life.
Out of existence.

*The shadow stayed, though.

So... two more wishes?*

I want to see God
with my eyes open.

I want to see others
with my eyes closed.

Eternity is set inside of us
a cavern only filled with perfect love
you've always dreamed to live
for something greater

Ask and you will receive
Seek and you will find
Call upon the Lord
He is near and faithful

In the Joy of Endless peace
God fills me to tears
of beauty and blessing
In His presence I am filled

with wonder
this transformation
shining from within
the sun explodes inside
with perfect love

This... is what I live for

hahaha
laughing is good for you
hahaha
did you know your body
will not tell the difference
between fake laughter
and the real
hahaha
did you know your heart
will not tell the difference
between fake attraction
and the real
deal
hahaha

did you know -
crying is good for you
too
hahaha*

(what a relief)

the way things were
is not
the way things are

the way things are
is not
the way they should be

the way things should be
is where
our paths diverge...

*I'm taking roads
          less travelled now,
                                    My Dear

harder to say

harder to hear

harder to live.

Life does not consist
In the abundance of possessions.

Nor Love
In the abundance of words.

i looked out the window
and saw

a cow.

'but risks make me
uncomfortable'

well...
'uncomfortable'
is just a pessimistic word
for
exciting.

I am the girl
taught by autumn
entranced by leaves

as I wonder
how these dying
are so beautiful

I am the girl
taught by strangers
intrigued by eyes

as I wonder
how these beautiful
can be dying

underneath

she swept in the sea with a glance
stirred up the sand with a dance
and shells were her nails
bright hair, unfurled sails
to carry herself on the wind

petal frills and perfumed lace
roses vie for twirling space
each crimson face,
each quiet grace
does turn upon the silent stage
like a tide, an empty page
and sings in wordless ways

                               *"Beauty awaits, beauty awaits"

Veneer is peeling off these walls
Glossy facades unveil with time
Old surfaces exposed to light
Here we surprise ourselves
                      *with what we find

The heart sees in colours
That the mind can't comprehend

"I don't know, something amazing, I guess..."

my fluorescent lamp
quivers, trembles - uncertain
of her timid light

I beat myself up for hurting
Decide not to procrastinate
And decide to implement that
Wonderful decision later

Later
when my pen is dry
And my eyes
Fall out of my head
To watch my self-inflicted
Demise.

If life was a dream,
...
..
.
I'd be asleep.

Please select an answer:

Am I...

a) a complete contradiction

b) temporarily satisfied all because of
     cheap amusement

c) beautifully disillusioned

d) all of the above

You: are my greatest anticipation [you smile]

You: seem to make the sun shine brighter

                                    ..YOU.

You: are the frequent flyer through my thoughts

You: attend my words with care, and i feel heard by
  
                                    ..YOU.

You: will never know how i see this

You: may feel but not know how i feel but

                                    ..YOU.

You - are my greatest contradiction

                        *When I play deaf to Wisdom's ear

you know when the ground
is dry and cracked and hardened,
and the fields crunch underneath you and grass splinters
and cows group under shade
in the country towns you drive through
doing 50kms on the main road,
stopping for a pie and paying with cash?

yeah that ground. anyway,

you know when the rain's due
and the clouds bundle like sheets in the washing basket
and that smell of dirt and sky
and the thick drops fall on your neck,
and you squint your face up and wait for the next one to hit you?

yeah that rain. anyway,

you know how the water pools and the ground can't drink it fast enough
and it's drought signs to flood signs in sixty minutes
and the crops fail and the men cry,
all because the ground wasn't ready for what it needed to arrive so fast?

yeah that irony. anyway,

I feel that in my heart sometimes.

'bf'
no
longer
stands
for
best
friend
.
.
.

heart to mind
these conversations
hardest kind

head to heart
lost in translation
speaking blind

soul to God
these conversations
yours and mine

night night

         sleep tight

everything's going to be alright

dream until the morning's light
              
       adieu

                my friend

         good night