I still talk about you
Like you hold the world in your hands

Beauty                
Perfect hair falling beside perfect cheeks
Being skinny with the perfect physique       
Starving yourself till the hunger is seen in your eyes                                                             ­                 
But all of it is one messed up lie
We tear ourselves apart for this impossible thing only made in imagination                                              
Trying to become a copy of a bland production of insane addiction

There’s something not right
I can feel it in my heart
My head is fuzzy
I can’t think straight
What’s happening
Please help me
I’m scared

Every time I listen to them, I think of you

you look at me while my face is turned away
or at least that’s what my friends say

you watch me when I laugh till I cry
it’s as if you see beauty in me with those eyes

you smile as you watch me dance to sounds
as if I’m the one you finally found

you even laugh at my jokes
it gives my heart a love poke

we talked with love in our face, eyes, and even mind
when will we admit we can’t keep it behind

all of me wants you
i know you want me too

we are handed so much
without a cost
yet we take it all for granted
it’s unreal

I know it’s wrong
But you just feel so right

I waited for you
You were too busy for me
I cried over you
You were in some other girls sheets
I would do anything for you
You have done nothing but hurt me
I loved you
And all you did was use me

I feel like you don’t care
It shouldn’t be just about me
But it’s not only about you
I’m here too
And I miss you
But you’re long gone
Lost in a world of you

Someone stole your light didn’t they
Made you feel like you will never find your way
Please find your way back home.
I miss the flame in you that used to shine so bright
And now there is barely any warmth left in you at all
The shine you had in your eyes is one I will never forget  
You used to be so innocent without a care in the world
So happy and loving
And they way you used to smile,
One would never be able to tell now
Because you are in a state of constant pain.
It’s like the world is against you.
Did you do something wrong?
That doesn’t matter know does it
There’s things to help you forget right?
So as the liquid burns your throat, as smoke fills the air,
And you watch yourself slowly slip away.
Was it worth it?
Did it help you forget?
Or did it just make things worse.
I miss you, and who you used to be.
Because this person you’ve become is not you and never will be.

I have so much to say
So much to express
But how to put it all in words
Is something I can’t do