Addiction. a scary thing really, if you ask me. because you never realize how much you rely on it, until it is no longer in possession. and letting go, feels as if your whole world is slowly falling apart. for me, itβs almost like i lost part of myself and i will never get it back. but thatβs the thing isnβt it. because this addiction, has become a part of me. and that is why i donβt want to let go.