daphne

daphne Aug 2024

nothing about this was romantic.

not in the way your hands cupped my waist,
or in the way we held a silent gaze.
i don't question that look in your eyes,
nor will i inquire about your thoughts to which i wasn't privy.
your warm breath tickles my ear when you whisper my name,
and the heat spreads to my cheeks like a wildfire.
i tried to not pull away my eyes from yours,
in fear i would stare at your parted lips for too long.

nothing about this was romantic.
nothing about this can ever be romantic.

daphne Jul 2024

to love is to be seen

i am a little stray cat,
far too small for you to see.

food is always uncertain,
even when i'm full, i think about hunger.

here lives a million humans,
but i found a lovely one who notices me.

and if i could be hers,
i am finally seen.

daphne Jul 2024

why do you cry?

when i cried as a little girl,
my mother used to tell me
that i had no reason to cry
if she had not laid her hands on me yet.

now as a big girl who feels so small,
i would let the tears burn my eyes,
for the only pain that is real and could be felt is physical.

daphne Jul 2024

two girls shouldn't

i know two girls shouldn't
but
we held hands
when i walked ahead of you
in a crowded room
as i pulled my gaze away from you
you squeezed my hand and
i believed we could be possible
for a moment

read it from top to bottom, then bottom to top

daphne Jul 2024

let me wear your skin

i worked so hard
just to be an 'almost' version of you.
i strive to be as wholesome,
but i can't fix something so broken.
i strive to be as lovely,
but i am filled to the brim with hatred.
you're everything i desire,
and everything i loathe about myself.

daphne Jul 2024

i am not sober

and i hate you but
alcohol impairs judgement
now i cannot lie

#haiku