If you choose to lose, lose your pride
If you choose to gain, gain in mind
Paint a picture, draw a sketch
Not of ignorance but the potential beauty we may have left
The ocean that is created of gold
The simplicity we find in the hearts we freely accept. Which is...

Free will.

The blockade that stops our force of habits to want, to control.
To make someone love you
To make someone become cold.
I can't explain a great idea...
I can't show you the road to glory..
I can lie and deceive an angel
I can kiss her goodnight and tell her the same fantasy stories.
Of a place of imagination
Where ya wildest dreams can run, they can develop their own creation...
As people.

It's free will...

We hold the pallet, we paint our own destination.

Probability hit me so my chances have shorten as I play life's game
It's all about taken each and every hit! Stop searching for a innocent person to blame
As I sit back and stare at the reflection of my potential.
I realized all life's situations are half pain half mental
Dre beats with the silent instrumentals
To ensure the heavy facts as I script the poetic verse
Maybe god gives sin? Maybe he enhances a potent curse.
Maybe I need to stop for a second and learn to appreciate...
It's easy to rush to the front, it's hard to understand how to patiently wait
As I follow my guardians faith
And block out envy and greed
Lord, I'm trying to get the difference of a want, to a need!
Can you finally hear my pleas?
Why must I scream for you to hear me!?
Why must I need to drink a couple shots, hop in the whip for you to help steer me!
Taking every bit of risk
While swallowing my pride and lowering my fist
I've been the star in every game
Stopped, and learned how to humbly miss.
I've taken poison out of a snake's kiss
Taken hatred out of a heart full of anger and turned it into bliss!
I've giving EVERY ******* THING! Whats the point of all this?
How you perfect? You put drugs on the land with the bites of a serpent...you made blacks forced servants, placed diseases that have no purpose...you've killed over a million and never had to give a reason! You rarely give help to the sick, crying! Internally bleeding!
You continue to stuff the obese, the skinny aren't feeding.
You tell us to pray for goodness! Ain't that ish so misleading.
I don't wanna say you misleading cause you our lord and savior
I'm just sayin look at yourself before you judge my behavior!*
(God)
You're issue Bland is you never been honest with yourself
You pray for the benefits of wealth and forget to be thankful for your health
I've brought you to this gate cause your mind has lied about your "learned" and understanding lessons
My son, I'm making you struggle for you to one day understand every bit of your life, make good on your bad lessons
I've given you gifts that you can unwrap and released you out of the devils grasps, I remember giving you more chances when you dropped on your knees, thinking it was your last.
Why is it I you bash?
Ironic how you preach "in life stop looking for others to blame"
This the same man who looks at his father for the reason he slashes his God given name
You and him arent the same.
You need to release every bit of this aggression
You need to come back to my house, Close your eyes and count your blessings.
I lead by example, I teach forgiveness
Your entry now, Bland, Cannot be guaranteed, not when live with envy, hatred, greed.
Stop cutting ya morality only for pity to gush out and bleed
Stop looking for the weak to prey on, and feed.
Next time we meet I want you to be a better man
Realize I'm not your punisher
I'm your guidance...I'm your support system...your biggest fan
Know every test I send you is all apart of your plan. So when I see you back...you'll be a better man. Follow what you believe, guide your heart with an honest hand.

Her parents told her to "grow up" so she put away her diary
Use to have stories of being queen, ones that were all blissfully inspiring.
But imagination grew tiring
And apparently so did she..
It's Job hunting, which heels? Which follows uncertainty.
With her heart that always peeks, and opens up that one page, that one that said she'll grow up but never truly act her age.
The page of "Never, Never Land", gum drops in Candyland, following the yellow brick road with toto and the tin man. Toes in the kingdoms sand
And Prince Charming as her ideal man.
Not one care in the world, living life joyest & open minded without any plan.

What happen? Why did she lose all she believed?
Did life take her imagination, walk away and just leave?
"Happy" was what she wrote down when asked what she wanted to achieve...
When women lose their innoncets
When little girls listen to reality and stop creating new ways too dream.
When her mind loses faith, when her heart starts to bleed
When love becomes a nightmare, pain suddenly is there, honesty becomes a lie and happiness becomes "I don't cares"

When girls become women
When simplicity becomes complex decisions
Take a moment to close your eyes
Women, see the honest little girl deep inside your distorted visions

Open up your diary now and write one more line
That girls have to grow up, but tht doesn't mean inside.
(Now open and smile)

Imma write her a lullaby
Like twinkle twinkle you ain't a star
Hit me to chill isn't that situation bizarre
Cause you broke it off
And you still struggle
How many dudes you call since me just to come over and "snuggle"
Bugga boo, I'm so far into
So far gone
The gambling man would bet that she ain't got a clue
Stuck to you like glue
I rather feel the pain than be attached
Rip it off slow just to be gone and detached
Imma make you realize what 3 years cost
A paycheck, a man...oh yeah and a boss
Undateable..you think that's a natural reaction?
Stop looking for others to blame for ya behavioral actions
Like "sorry ms Jackson" you ain't an outcast
A king need a queen not a piece of unloyal ***.
(nice)

If you allow yourself to learn as life grows with you
You learn that a flower starts off beautiful but dies over time,
the past should remain the past
It doesn't change over time
You can't expect everyone to love you, or think that you're great.
You need to be able too pick up all your down moments, and support your own weight.
A handshake doesn't mean a friend and an opinion doesn't mean a foe
Self respect is a key ingredient when you mix it into your *** of "new ways to grow"
Tears don't make you anyless of a man,
Fear is normal as you lay down and think to yourself at night,
It's the reality of things, it's what I have seen and experienced during this trip of life,
It is what it is, it's how you #Rise from your situations that allows you to continue to soar, that allows you to reach your destined height.