Everyones looking for wealth and always have they hand out for more
but what's a dollar to success if you morally poor?
what's the point of being a king without respect for the throne?
why say you independent, when you can barely hold your own...
ya called me out and said "He stopped writing with passion"
"He's writing for a deal, hasn't been the same since "They Keep Asking"
Mentally I'm basking...taking in the sun
closing my eyes at night, dreaming about what I might become.
I'm figuring out all my mistakes while drawing a few plans
strengthening up my posture, so I can be the model of a grown man.

Life's a ***** and I'm patiently waiting to met her, imma dress to the nine,
with pistol when I greet her!
cause she's taken every bit of my sanity and soul
shes left me for dead at the end of casualty road
but this I definitely know, I hate her but owe her one
it was her challenges she threw me that made me who I've become.
I'm in touch with my demons and have conversations with the monster
any obstacle in my way, I so easily conquer!

Look up when I walk, confident when I talk
got up from the crime scene and cleaned up all the chalk.
Refused to settle for death even when there seemed like no return
God sent me here to guide all who is lost, teach those willing to learn.
Just worry about you, don't live life waiting for others to approve
remember we was built to win, but born to lose.
Society will pick and choose
Very rarely is it acceptant
Forget them and their *******, look up and accept your reflection.
- Dougie Simps

Suddenly heavy thoughts are caving down in my head
Seems her original plan was entirely false and mislead
She just wants to be friends
But I already got a team
I need a woman who can act strong
When life starts to change scenes
We both complex human beings
Overthinking takes a major role
You worried about your future
I'm afraid if a lie will be told.
Ya last man changed, my personality known too be cold.
But you bring out the best in me and that's just something I don't wanna let go.

I'm here to uplift you
Show you a better man
Kiss you on ya forehead
Become ya biggest fan
Carry all ya baggage and tell you which one is dead weight
Relieve you of all ya stress
And expose your positive traits
but It's hard to see you doubt me and expect me to wanna stick around
Doing ya whole circus act
Turnin my persona into a clown
When I just wanna hold you down
And enhance ya internal beauty
I know being a couple is tough
Trust me, this all so new too me

But this is my last shot
If I miss, it's the end of the game
Then it'll be to late when you have regret and ya mind decides to change.

*I'm just thinking outloud...and talking a little to much
This my last letter to you
Think it's time to move on from this hopeless crush.

I'm way past reality
Cause that is what holds you back, back from dreaming and childish antics
Back from fairytales and movie romantics
Back from flying to the stars and pretending to heal your past scars, from following your heart and understanding who you really are.
From imaginary thoughts that overcome your obstacles and fears
That allows your best cheers overcome your toughest tears.
That allows you to dance in the sun to warm your cold days
For the music that hits your mind to forget your most stressful days
To ignore all the real lessons and count your internal blessings
To fly..even when gravity attempted to create question.
To let go of false love and forget potential hope
To forget reality forever...to live life...and remember what means most.

*Happiness.

I think I need recovery for a heart that wasn't supposed to break
You compared me, you judged me
How much pressure did you expect me to take?
I endured all your emotions
Light kisses before you sleep
Nurtured all your beautiful flaws
Every secret was safe with me...
Skin color angel, yet the devil's wings crept beneath
*It was ya love I was looking for, it was my mistakes you seemed to seek.

I could talk to you for hours and keep a smile on the phone
We could walk on the beach, as it's your hand that I hold
I can look into your eyes
And be so genuinely hypnotized
Thinking how truly lucky I am to have a woman like you be mine
I can ask you any question, anywhere, any time
And know when you're hurting bad cause I can read all your signs
Be the support that you need and the bandage to help you heal
Slow kisses to your navel and let you know our affection is real
I'll miss you when you're gone
But know ill see you soon
Every time I see your smile
My love for you re blooms
Light tickles to your hand
I know you love that light touch
I know you love butterfly kisses
I know what to say to make you blush....
(Alarm clock)
****, it was all just a dream...she's not mine and those words don't mean a thing
I just imagine all we could be...and want it so much
Guess I've become a firm believer in hope...in my imaginary crush.

"Now my heart is stuck and wrapped up in tangles
And my mind won't stop and let me forget you. (Slight hold)
I don't know why I always have to go through this
Am I just foolish? (Slight pause)
Gotta tell myself that I...
Don't need ya, don't need ya, don't need ya.
That I..
Don't need ya, don't need ya, don't need ya
Keep saying
Don't need ya, don't need ya, don't need ya
That I don't need ya
Gotta reverse my love
Cause I don't need ya"