Falling in love,
In two words?
It hurts.

When I promised you always,
I meant it.
When telling you that I’d always be here,
I meant it.
Our friendship was amazing and solid,
We meant it.
I couldn’t keep you in my life,
They meant it.
I was going to lose you because I can’t  choose,
I chose anyways.
I wanted my people in my life,
Little did I know you were my people too.
When I promised to always love you,
Friends or not,
I meant it

You were the first person I thought of,
Your name in a new created message,
Of course I cancelled it anyways.
Gold was the goal,
I did it and you weren’t there…

It’s like breathing,
Only I don’t know how I’m breathing.
Everything seems dull,
Uninteresting,
Bleak.
I hate knowing you make me feel like this,
All because of lies, miscommunications,
And connections.
An unspeakable phenomenon that occurs to the few,
Yet everything can’t be as is and I destroy.
Losing everything to be constantly reminded,
Too many denominators to discuss one thing.
What I wanted,
What I was happy for,
But this is life.

I just wanted that piece back,
Where we did nothing but everything.
I loved the way you shined,
Everything was against you and I stood by.
Staying in your corner,
Silent cheers amongst the negative backlash.
Until you hurt me again,
This one hurt worse.
Which is strange to think,
Our breakup should’ve hurt,
It wasn’t.
It was knowing I was officially done,
Knowing we’d never get that chance.
All the smiles and laughs echo in my room,
Just thought at the end of the day it’s me and you.

You could’ve kept me in your life,
You could’ve left it all as is.
Greedy and angry,
You run in my life only to destroy it.
Nevertheless you couldn’t be content,
Seeking and searching for something long gone.
I pity you no more,
I’ve seen enough.
So I shall continue to live as you sit in the dark,
I will thrive as you wish for more.
Moving on and wanting friendship is all I asked,
A wish even the Gods can’t grant.

At the end of the day,
You never really get what you want.