She is the breeze
that warms my heart
with memories...

salt edged

tasting of sand
and
soda pops.

Wrapped up
within a blanket
made
for two...

watching the waves
crash
within the depths
of one
anothers eyes.

Soft cotton candy
kisses
a perfect end
to this...


a day at the beach.

Carbon ribbons
unravelling my words
as keys
unlock their meanings.

Did my ears
mistake the sounds
of the wind
and rain
for your sweet voice...
whispering soft
I love you.

Or did my heart
just paint
those three words
upon your silken lips.

I know not
the truth of it
but let me in a kiss
a touch
speak clearly in return
when I say...


I love you.

I gave my love a letter
written in my tears,
that said it would be better
had we never had these years.

I placed in on her pillow
as she took her bath,
the tears stung like willow
when I heard her childlike laugh.

My heart now softly shattered
my eyes were burning red,
for once my love had mattered
or so her sweet lips had said.

I heard footsteps and weeping
her voice said don't turn round,
was I just not worth keeping
so you cut the ties that bound.

I turned and held her softly
and whispered in her ear,
I thought you didn't need me
and my illness and my fear.

She slapped my face hard screaming
that's not your choice to make,
her tears were softly streaming
as I saw her heart there break.

In sickness and in health dear
my promise to you true,
so let this be one less fear
that I take away from you.

I wrote my love a letter
she gave it back to me,
she said i'll make you better
cause I'll never set you free.

Be careful you said
beware
and yet the curtains drawn
he's there..

I saw you both laughing
and sighed
heard the hidden meanings
and cried...

I wanted to say I missed you
I tried
you said you'd be careful
you lied.

Like Cyrano
I spoke the words
lightly capturing your heart...

I saw the letters

that you tried to hide from me

infact... We all did.

Winter snows
melt
watering the seeds
that will
become spring.

Inhaling deep
of CO2...

feeling my lungs ache
to taste

your breath

second hand from
                              your sweet lips...


So kiss me again.

I lay softly upon you
breath in my
scent
stroke your nails
across
my back...

tease me with your touch
until such time
as he awakes

and once more puts me on.

There in the looking glass
he stands
his back to me...

a sign says kick me

            kick me when I'm down

                           then kick me some more.


I break the mirror
shattering the illusion all is well
my mind
               in pieces
                              Pieces together the fragments
of my pain
the edginess of my torment
cuts me deep
as I bleed darkness
on an empty page exorcising...


My daemons.



This is in response to Umbra's poem Demons to show she's not alone we all face our own darkness.

I gave to her a honey comb
to brush her golden hair,
and placed on her a daisy chain
around her neck so fair.
Foxgloves I gave to warm her hands
and blue bells for her wrist,
then from the mountain air I stole
the pine fresh perfumed mist.
A dress made up of fallen leaves
and stitched with silk worm thread,
and there a spider spun a veil
to place upon her head.
I gave to her a sweet bouquet
of fresh assorted blooms,
and took her hand and gave to her
a ring of wild mushrooms.
Beneath the stars I gave my heart
and to me she gave her kiss,
as two lives where bound as one
in the act of wedded bliss.

What sick twist
of fates cruel knife...
could show me love beyond my grasp
and nightly
taunt my fevered soul
with
her sweet kiss and image fair.

What evil
here beneath this sun...
could ****
my eyes my heart
my love
for love of one beyond compare.

Then give me hell
and punish me
flay my skin and burn my bone
but first
one kiss
of her rose lips
the sin for which I must atone.

One touch would set the stars aflame
and rend
the veil that
blinds thine eyes
and gives
my heart the stolen wings
from kisses born
of butterflies.

Shorelines
bordering our hearts
are unmoved
by
tears...

and promises.

Corn strands
like extentions in your
hair
worn loose around your naked shoulders,
the flowers on your dress
bunched up
revealing the warmth of sun kissed thighs.
I watch your bussom
rise and fall
as you lean back against the bales
your hand stretched out
beckoning
me to make hay whilst the sun shines.

Paddling
in the sea of tranquility
as solar winds
blow
stardust from your hair...

skimming
stones across the emptiness
of space
that flare and burn,
spinning webs of astral sparks
to capture
the imagination
as children wish watching them fall.

Sunlight captures your
retreating shadow
as once more the dark passers
into day...

and once more my wish

goes

unanswered.

She knew it was wrong
to steal
and
yet still she stole
my heart.

Friction burns

caused by thoughts of you

and tight jeans.

I check my watch
and see
reflected in it's face
my own...

as we together
            count the seconds
                           till you come home.

Last night
You touched me
without lifting a finger...

I heard I love you
from inanimate lips...

I felt comforted
without the feeling of arms...

for all I need is that look
you gave me...

The one that says

forever.

Sleep brings no rest
                               if you're not here
                                                  beside me.

To all BEWARE, don't climb the stair,
don't stumble tumble down.
For just behind the kitchen blind,
the SHADOWS roam the town.

They slide and glide, so run and hide,
promise me NO PEEPING.
Or they will see and believe me,
you'll wish you'd been sleeping.

Their fingers scratch the window catch,
and TAP upon the glass.
leaving their stain upon the pane,
as they so softly pass.

The sheets pulled tight hold back the night,
you're paralysed with fear.
You cannot speak, as floorboards creak,
to warn that they are near.

The door **** twists by unseen wrists,
the slowly pushed AJAR.
Your eyes grow wide as just outside,
you hear your daddy's car.

The Shadows wait for squeak of gate,
and your heart skips a beat.
As Daddy's voice, leaves them no choice,
as quickly they retreat.

Now check the hall and up the wall,
the ceiling and the floor.
But he has ran, that Shadow Man,
and wont come back no more.

So rest this night, be blessed, sleep tight,
let soft your night light GLOW.
To safely keep while your asleep,
from SHADOWS down below.

I have the mumps and itchy lumps,
my tummy's awful sore.
I have a cough, my arm's fell off,
my throat is red and raw.

I have big spots and polka dots,
flashing before my eyes.
My legs are broke, no it's no joke,
as if I would tell lies.

I've got the flu, Atchoo Atchoo,
I'll just miss school today.
Of course I'm sick, no it's no trick,
oh what a thing to say.

I've got the shakes and my head aches,
it hurts so very bad.
And what a bind, I've gone night blind,
why are you laughing Dad?

I almost forgot about tooth rot,
and frostbite of the toes.
I feel unwell, I cannot smell,
because of my blocked nose.

I'm far too ill to take a pill,
for they just makes me gag.
I feel so sick, please Daddy quick,
pass me the paper bag.

No need to phone Dr.SawBone,
he is a busy man.
I need no shots or creams for spots,
just soda and a fan.

My speech is slurred, my vision blurred,
oh mummy I should rest.
Now that's not fair, as if I'd dare,
to dodge my English test.

You're not impressed, I should get dressed,
and stop this sad charade.
My Dads no fool, he phoned the school,
and said I'd overlaid.

How do I love you let me count the ways,
stealing lines for amateurs so give Shakespeare his plays.

I love you like the corn the breeze,
like wasps the fruits of laden trees
and flowers sought by courting bees,

I love you.

I love you like the ebb needs flo,
like forests need the sun to grow
and you're the rain in my rainbow,

I love you.

I love you like a child and then,
like you've never known from other men
and If only you could my heart ken,

I love you.

I love you like a silent night,
like hearts with wings first tasting flight
and every time you hold me tight,

I love you.

so do not ask why nor fret or cry
nor let your doubts in words now fly
just know that all alone I'd die

because

I love you.

Oh how I wish to be a fish
And Swim the silver stream
splashing about with river trout
would really be a dream.

To be a bird you say absurd 
but I would love to fly, 
to dive to swoop to loop the loop 
Touching the deep blue sky.

Now fancy that to be a cat 
and play outside all night, 
to take the air without a care 
beneath the soft moonlight.

A dog maybe would more be me 
chasing a rubber ball, 
With one desire a nice warm fire 
where I could curl up small.

Or a giraffe oh what a laugh
With neck so long and thin,
Eating the leaves from slender trees
With spots upon my skin.

No wait a while a crocodile
With teeth so sharp and white,
I'd guard the swamp with jaws that chomp
So best beware my bite.

Hippos are nice and so are mice
a rhino would be good,
a shark an ant or elephant
A hog waist deep in mud.

But I am me as you can see
and you are you of course,
But if you could I bet you would
Prefere to be a horse.

Once more to sail on waters pale
New worlds as yet unseen,
His soap dish boat he sets afloat
With wash rag sail of green.
 
The bubbles crash and gentle splash
As he leaves bath plug bay,
With plastic comb he beats the foam
And slowly pulls away.

His telescope carved out of soap
Is held up to his eye,
Sighting the beach beyond his reach
where unknown treasures lie.

He dips his oar and rows once more
as shadows swirl around,
But it's too late to navigate
the sharks that now abound.

His sword in hand he makes a stand
waving his arms about,
The soap sud sharks now just for larks
Try hard to knock him out.

His sail unfurls as west wind swirls
And speeds him on to shore,
The danger past on land at last
So now he can explore.

Grabbing his coat he leaves his boat
and checks his treasure map,
then off he set with ankles wet
And soap spray on his hat.

Beneath a rock shaped like a sock
The treasure waits for you,
so bring a ***** to where it's laid
that's all you have to do.

The spot was found he dug the ground
And opened up the chest,
Oh cheese and bread he loudly said
This treasure is the best.

Loading his sack upon his back
He set off for the shore,
filling his hold with wealth untold
He headed home once more.

I weep ink
in missing you,
my page lays stained
with fluid blue.

I log on
your face appears,
but your not here
to see my tears.

I reach out
and touch your face,
my fingers soft
your image trace.

Kisses blown
you cannot taste,
through coloured glass
just go to waste.

Time alone
stroking the screen,
whispering soft
how much you mean.

I feel sad
that your not there,
to understand
how much I care.

**** the time
and miles apart,
please just log in
and heal my heart.

So until
tomorrow dear,
I stroke the glass
and dream you're here.

Close your eyes
relax
breath deep and slow
as I with words
****** your aching form...

Feel my breath against your neck
no don't move
not yet
as my lips graze your skin
lightly dancing
in quick succession of kisses
between your
shoulder blades as you shiver.

My finger tips trace your spine
feeling every
delicious movement
as you arch backward tilting your head
I bite slow
your upturned chin
feeling your sigh upon me soft.

My hands with reversed finger tips
stroke your arms
tentatively touching your upper thighs...

Shush he's home
                   we will continue this soon...


To be continued.



Biting you

Your kiss
        Tastes much sweeter.  
                               sugar coated like your lies.

Last night you said I love you
as the stars began to dim
and I know it's me you dream of
as you lay alone with him.
For he offers nothing to you
and there's nothing you would take,
cause you are mine forever
and it's me for whom you ache.
He may share your moments
but it's the moments shared with me,
that give you sweet release dear
and sets your feelings free.
So long you longed for someone
to let you live again,
so take from me my aching
as I take from you your pain.
For now I cannot hold you
as you belong to him,
but tonight I'll say I love you
as the stars begin to dim.

Teasing sweat with tongue
from forrowed brow
as you cry for release,
your bonds unseen
yet bind you still
as I give you no peace.
Tongue lips well practiced mouth
cause pleasure
close to pain,
and teeth join in
to graze the skin
as I taste of you again.
Subserviant my willing slave
my famine
and my feast,
I hunger still
and always will
for beauty for my beast.
Now bend and break
taste of my ache
my poison and my shame,
now buck and writhe
and feel alive
as I leave from where you came.

First flush of passion
                 soon gives way                              
                                 to vomiting.

The camera
        nevers lies
             but your smile
                  was photo shopped.

Wrists bleed...


embedded shards
          of miscarrried childhood
                               stare back at me

re-writing her story
            On  a blood stained page...

Charlie the gnome needed a home
and so he looked around,
the garden shed too big he said
and too high off the ground.

The bar b que would never do
the ash would make me sneeze,
so on I go look high look low
in and around the trees.

The bird box white would be too tight
with chicks that chirp and cheep,
and constant song the whole day long
I'd never get to sleep.

The kennels large but then there's Sarge
and all his smelly toys,
plus after dark he likes to bark
and make a lot of noise.

The house I found is out of bound
too many folk in there,
so I'll stay out and look about
as I don't like to share.

A wooden crate there by the gate
would make a perfect home,
it's not too small or wide nor tall
it's just right for this gnome.

I need a door and windows four
some carpet and a bed,
a rocking chair would look good there
or maybe there instead.

Yes this is fine and it's all mine
with roses all around,
the place it seems straight from my dreams
is what I think I've found.

Charlie the gnome no more will roam
his house is warm and bright,
with flower beds of blues and reds
and picket fence of white.








A wooden crate down by the gate

Lest I forget to say

I love you

let me say it now...

You thief, stealing my breath

my heart

and soul

eternally.

The closet light stays on at night,
the door it stays ajar.
I am not scared just well prepared,
and it has worked so far.

No monsters roared or have explored,
my bedroom as I slept.
And if they did they'd meet the kid,
they'd wish they had not met.

For they you see would run from me,
as I jump from my bed.
My teeth I'd bare and pull their hair,
and make them cry instead.

The door now locked their escape blocked,
there's nowhere left to run.
They look at me and plainly see,
my shiney new toy gun.

With rubber darts aimed at their hearts,
they fall down on their knees.
And beg me so to let them go,
adding a pretty please.

They cry and shout please let us out,
and we will not come back.
Ok I say now go away,
and don't forget to pack.

Bag up the fluff and sticky stuff,
you keep behind the door.
And take the smell and slime as well,
you spilled upon the floor.

Later that night when tucked up tight,
so safe and warm in bed.
I close my eyes and realise,
It was all in my head.

Soft sighs from tender lips give ache
To heart in shadow made afraid,
to dare to beat to burst to break
for fear his words be over played.

His fingers pluck the withered bloom
to dry his eyes of wasted tears,
then casts it out into her room
and moves in shade as she appears.

No artists brush nor sculptor hand
er formed so sweet a female face,
nor could the playwrite nor poet grand
could pen such form with natural grace.

Again I fain from being seen
and risk rejection in your eyes,
as there you stand my love my queen
and I your fool wear nights disguise.

Morning born on silken wings
Illuminates where once love stood,
as unrequitted love now brings
a longing ache to cool the blood.

Just one word from you

and I'd die

and die gladly.

For you I'd gladly taste the blade
the hand grenade
the bullet and the noose...

Just so long
as you stand strong
and never cut me loose.

Hang me high or drowned me deep
just take me to the edge,
for I would die a thousand deaths
if just once your love you'd pledge.

For dying would be easy
it happens once for sure,
but living without you baby
would **** me for ever more.

Love...

                is a serious bussiness

so never
                  love
                              a
                                   clown.

Last night
I died a little more,
stroking
empty cloth unwarmed.

Last night
I cried a little more,
tracing
you face in pillowed indentation.

Last night
I tried a little more
to
sleep without your goodnight kiss.

Last night
I lied a little more
saying
I don't miss your warmth beside me.

Last night
I slide a little more
towards
the longing left by your absence.

Last night
I died a little more
and
tonight I'll die again.

I have loved you
from afar
cloaked in shadow...

I have gazed
upon your beauty
from behind...

I have followed
all your life
in a scrapbook...

With color photos
no one else
as ever seen...

I have wept into
your hankie
when you dropped it...

I have sat upon
a chair
you left still warm...

I have kissed
you goodnight
through your window...

But when I left I wiped it clean.

love is a
               chemical reaction

                          When                
                  two lonely hearts


                         Collide

Let me eat up you soft smile
And drink down your tears,
Let me thirst for your kisses
And feast on your fears.

Let me taste of your longing
And nibble your need,
Let me savour the flavour
Of your wanton greed.

Let me sip from your sorrow
And quaff of your pain,
Let me gorge on your lusting
Again and again.

Let me sup of your anger
And choke on your hate,
Let me chew slow your numbness
And fast for our fate.

Let me starve your attention
And crave of your touch,
Please ration your passion
too littles too much.

I hunger your presence
To digest of your words,
regurgitate freely
Those sweetest of verbs.

Peel me a metaphor
Slice me a noun,
Pour me a sylable
To help wash it down.

So pen me your promise
As I pen you mine,
I am yours and no others
Till the end of the line.

Yet by nights celestial light
when stars arrest in lovers heart,
and lungs made lead afear to breathe
and souls unwhole are torn apart.

The waters edge tinged by tears
salt upon salt a plaintiff squall,
as buzzards circle mocking me
as or' our lives shadows fall.

Whilst given time alone to think
my ev'ry thought returns to you,
and moments spent in shaded glen
doing the things lovers do.

So hear my pain and heal my heart
just promise my dark won't our souls part.

I don't need any more than this,
as we cuddle close and softly kiss.
Your body warm your scented hair,
what more than this my love Is There.
The laughter playful in your eyes,
that speaks in truths and never lies.
The way your nose tickles my cheek,
making me laugh leaving me weak.
The way you nibble at my ear,
and whisper words to draw me near.
Your nails that leave their mark on me,
leaving me sore but happily.
You snuggle close and ask of me,
to hold you tight or set you free.
No force on earth could make me leave,
for I need only you to please believe.
A kiss a cuddle a laugh a joke,
is sometimes enough for any bloke.

His hands stroke Her face so softly
with fingers long and slim,
enjoying every second
of her time alone with him.
syncronising heartbeats
as the minutes slowly flow,
he dare delay no longer
though she begs him not to go.
leather binds his left wrist
ribbon binds her right,
as the chimes announce it's morning
has again he says goodnight.
His watch says that it's five am
hers says midnight and no more,
as the time and distance part them
like a locked and bolted door.

I wrote upon the paper
all the things I cannot say,
then I placed it in a bottle
and threw my heart away.

I prayed the gulls would guide it
to that scenic little bay,
where my love awaits in silence
the heart I threw away.

I stand walking the waters edge
my heart beat
echos the tidal ebb and flow,
following in your footsteps
I return
leaving my heart pinned
to the beaches
shifting sands.

I find you fresh risen
still the lingering scent of sleep
upon your morning kiss

and still
I wonder why you love me
afraid to breathe...

You snuggle close
whispering good morning babe
the coffees on
and I exhale.

You look at me and turn away
and I reach for you

when you surprise me,

why do you love me
when all I have
to give

are these my words.