Suddenly years have gone by,
Silent
Silent
Silent
Years.
Silent,
Yet so many thoughts.
So many thoughts
That I could never fathom.
I cannot control myself
I cannot contain my feelings.
Bottled up,
Hundreds
Thousands
Millions;
Millions of unsaid words
Thousands of untouchable,
Unreachable feelings.
And hundreds of distant friends.
My thoughts are scattered
Spread across many grey clouds
Soaring thousands of miles above my reach.
When will the rain fall
Making hundreds
Thousands
Millions
Of tiny puddles?
Stepped on puddles,
Unwanted puddles.
The cycle must begin again
And again,
As the grey clouds collapse.
We gain more puddles
More thoughts
More feelings.
Hundreds
Thousands
And millions of people
Trapped within the cycle of life.
I look for places
And things
And a life
That I've never even seen
Or heard of;
I am always searching.
So many people
Walk away.
Out of my sight,
Out of my life.
You are gone,
You are so distant
Hundreds
Thousands
Millions
Of miles away.
You are within the clouds,
Swimming within my thoughts
Within my each and every emotion
Yet
You are far above my reach.
And still,
Many years have gone by.
Silent
Silent
Silent
Years fly by.

Conversation failed him
In her eyes a vacancy looked
My way
Her life was consumed by his wallet
Which in turned consumed her whole

Such a shame that those beautiful eyes
Were lost
Hidden behind plastic lies
With a body made of crystal
Her sway left no doubt of its value

We shared a stare
This  look
My nod
I knew her
She needed hope not gold
Love not diamonds
This seed of hers needed to blossom
With a purpose
That he could never understand

My audible sigh faded into the
Stained walls of her prison
I knew these rags could never pave
Her way  
The dance of the butterflies would
Never come
So alone I must fly
Once again

There lives in this world a flame
It burns with a wild and free spirit
But with grace and gentleness
Captivating, beauty personified
It doesn't roar but it purrs
My life was blessed to have been touched by its soul
When the world saw to test my body and break my will
The flame would comfort, caress and embrace me
No matter the trials I faced it's warmth would empower me
If I was far from home it would guide back to its love
In my arrogance I forgot to tend the flame
It needed fuel to burn so bright
Compassion, Understanding and a foundation
Without these a gap began to form between us
Now it caresses and comforts someone else
And I am left alone in the never ending dark
A void and dessolate dark
Where I have no protection from harsh realities and demons
What was once majestic fire has manifested itself nightmares
I can still sense the flicker of the flame
Dancing its delicate dance with him
Closing my eyes I reach out to it
But the very force that once sheilded me from hurt
Becomes the very impliment to inflict it
Burning and scolding with a fury to match its beauty
Every lash feels like my death coil
But still I reach out
Hoping, praying that I will be once again envolpoed in its refuge
I know it is through my own carelessness
That my hands are covered in scars
But still I reach out
When I ask myself if should continue, all I can answer is
I regret my failure
I regret that I only have two hands to butcher