What is love?
Love is...
Honestly?
To me...
Love is a bunch of *******
Wrapped in gold paper

I don’t understand
Why you romanticize love so much
Love is not always kind
It’s not alway careful
It’s not alway happy
Love is a monster
Love makes you yearn
For one who will never love you back
And force you to see them
Every **** day
And face them
Knowing you can never have them
Love is a painful feeling
That leaves you powerless
It strips you of your pride
As you watch him
Happy with someone else
Love is blinding
And you don’t see his flaws
His mistakes
His shortcomings
You overlook how many times he’s hurt you
And how he doesn’t deserve you
Love is selfish
Because you give
Or you take
More and more love
Until one or both hearts
Are empty
Love is a ******* monster
I know
I’ve been a victim
I have all the scars
So don’t tell me
About how beautiful love is
While I lay here
Bleeding and alone
From the beating love gave me

I bet the reason
You hate yourself
Is because you gave all your love
To someone else
And when they gave none
In return
You were left with nothing more
Than an empty, hollowed heart
And no love, not even for yourself

But darling, don’t you fret
Because someday, someone will come
And they will fill your heart with love
And joy
Asking for nothing in return
And when you see that someone loves you
You will learn to love again
Not just them
But also yourself

Maybe if I drink another coffee, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I read another book, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I listen to music, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I keep writing, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get on the internet, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I look at pictures, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I watch videos and movies, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I make new friends, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get a boyfriend, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I sleep for 14 hours straight, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get out-of-my-mind drunk, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I smoke, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I pop some pills, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I quit eating, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I cut myself, I’ll feel better
It seems like my whole life
Has turned into “what if?”
Hoping I’ll feel better
So maybe if I **** myself, I’ll feel better

Ugly girl
Too many scars
Crooked teeth
Frizzy hair
Too fat
Too short
Big nose
Wonky face

Worthless
So **** worthless

Go away
Go die
Go **** yourself
Now

No one loves you
No one likes you
No one cares

Just **** yourself
End your pain
It's for the best

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I could tell from the start
When you guarded your heart
I should have walked away
But I got caught in your trap
A web of love and lies
I couldn't escape
I wanted the pain

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I fell too hard
Too fast for you to catch
Love like fireworks
That burned out too quick
Like a cigarette

I should have walked away
I should have already known
There’s nothing but misery
Left in love for me

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I don’t pay attention at school
But one day
In some class
I don’t even know which one...
Something caught my attention
Your cells get replaced every 6.5 years
That means
One day
I will have a body
That you have never touched
And I still don’t know how I feel about that

No one falls for the poets
We are a bunch of lonely souls
No matter how sweet the words
They all seem oversold

See poets, we all know
The agony life will bring
This affects the way we think
As we live with the constant sting

It’s hard to knock down all our walls
It’s hard for us to let you in
You’ll start thinking we’re not worth the time
And end up leaving in the end

I guess that’s why our poems
Have such profound emotion
We have no one else to vent to
These feelings deep as an ocean

Maybe it’s for the best
That no one falls for poets
It’s the hardships we face in life
That make our words like bullets

Hopefully one day
Someone will fall for me
I doubt it would ever happen
But hey, poets do dream

That which glitters is not always gold
Those who wander are not always lost
Those who are alive are not always living
And those who are dead are not always gone

I live in a small town
In the middle of nowhere
Where nothing happens
Nothing bad
Yet nothing good
Leaving me deathly numb
I want so badly
For something to happen
But in this desolate life
Has left me feeling nothing
So nothing is what I am

So now you've gone on with some other girl
Last week you told me I don't even try anymore
But what do you want from me?
Maybe you're right
Maybe this is all that I can be
But it should be enough
You said
I was enough
At least for a couple of months
But ****
This really is all that I can be
You want more
You go find her
But you have to leave me be
Delete my number
My pictures from your phone
Delete the memories
And never speak to me again

My body contains an entire ocean
Sometimes I have to cry
A lot
Just to stay alive

I may not look like much
But I swear to you
One day
I’ll take on the world
All by myself
It’s not like I’m not
Already used to being alone
But one day
I won’t be the one
You push and kick and shove around
I’ll stand up
And push back
I’ll show you
I’m stronger than you’ll ever be

And you’ll see
I’m the force to be reckoned with
I’m the fire you could not put out
I’m the one you counted out too early
And you’ll see
I’m the spirit of the broken
Finally ready to fight back

My friends make fun of me
Because you’re the only one who makes my face turn red
Well, you and the sun
They called you my sun
That made me turn even redder
Because while they’re over exaggerating
Well, it’s pretty obvious
I really like you
I bet you know that, too
My constant stuttering
And red face
And odd blubbering
Surely gave me away
That, and the fact that I asked you to the dance
God, that was awkward
That was probably one of the worst nights of my life
No, you weren’t a ****
We just didn’t
You know
Talk
It really ******
Because I wanted to talk to you
And get to know you
And maybe show you
I’m worth the time
But you talked to your friends
And I talked to mine
And I was too scared that I would be a bother
To go to talk to you
So we danced awkwardly a few songs
And then my brother picked me up
And I went home
And wallowed in the overdramatic misery
I caused myself
By not growing the lady ***** to talk to you
Now, we share the occasional smile
While crossing paths in the hallway
That’s about it
And I wish it was more
Because I don’t remember the last time someone made me feel like this
Well, I do
That turned out ******
And I didn’t like him
As much as I like you
I’m just sad, is all
Because I brought this on myself
Because I caught feelings for someone
Who I knew from the start
Was out of my league
And could never like me back
I guess it was my bad
Oops

You kiss me as if you were drowning
As if I were oxygen

You overtake every part of me
Embracing me into yourself
Until I disappear

It's not fair
Because you are the blood in my veins
While I'm just the dust on your shoulders

I give and give
Hoping for something in return
But all you do is take
And I refuse to stop giving

I'm afraid I'll disappear
That you'll become my own oblivion
And you'll take every piece of me
While I return to nothing

You’ll look at the sky
I’ll look in your eyes
It’s a picture perfect scene
Photographed by two teens

But see, you take a picture
And store it away
You forget about it
As you live day by day

The same goes for memories
It happens over time
Don’t let our memory
Fade like a photograph

People think I’m poetic
They see me as a troubled soul
Who bleeds ink
From torn up veins
Metaphors painted on endless pages
Dripping from my lips
People think I’m poetic
But I’m just a ****** up kid
With a large vocabulary

My head is a prison
And I’m here for life
I can never get out
No matter how hard I try

Thoughts haunt me
Taunt me and laugh
Memories hurt me
And sneer with wrath

The voices, I think
They are the worst
I’m not quite sure
Why I’m the one that’s so cursed

Oh, how I try
To escape this hell
I try to fight back
It won’t work, you can tell

I bang my head against the wall
And slash my wrist until red falls
Hoping, praying this will keep them away
But nothing seems to keep them at bay

So here I stay a ****** up freak
With my head in my hands
And my hands on my knees
I let these terrible things consume me

I never knew
How alike
Two different things can be
Until I felt
My ragged breath
While looking down
The cliff’s ragged edge

I knew you didn’t really love me
Because you hadn’t seen me yet
At 3am
Sobbing uncontrollably
With bleeding wrist
And a bottle of Jack half empty

I hadn’t told you
About the voices in my head
And how they taunted me
To the brink of suicide

You never saw
Just how much I hated
Every single part of me
To the point of wanting to wash my skin away
Like blood from the sink

When you finally saw
All of me
The good, the bad
And the downright hideous
You simply walked away
And never looked back

Now, I have walls
Set up all around me
Because I was broken once
And it won’t happen again

It’s really weird
How relationships go
Between humans
They all follow the same sequence:

I don’t know you
But hello stranger
We’ll get to know each other
Let’s be friends

I know you
So **** well
You’re so amazing
My friend

I need you
I fell for my bestfriend
You fell for me too
And now, we’re together

I love you
I can just tell
We’ll be together forever
You’re my true love

I miss you
We broke up
I want you back
I can’t live without you

I hate you
You broke my heart
I want you out of my life
How could I ever love you?

I don’t know you
But hello stranger
We used to know each other
We used to be more than friends

Funny, though,
How this melody sounds like that memory
And how the emerald green grass
Is the green in your eyes
To me

It’s kind of weird
How chocolate reminds me of the color of your hair
But I love your hair more
Because it has golden streaks in it
And it’s yours

And every time I see the sky
I see your shirts and shoes and notebooks
I see your braces and the bracelet I gave you
Because I remember blue is your favorite color
And I will never forget that

Honestly, I can’t stand watching The Fox and the Hound
Because I remember it was your favorite
And no matter how much you denied it
You’d always end up crying
So I just held you as you cried

Anyone who reads this
Is probably thinking
“Oh how sad
This poor girl is remembering
A past love”

But no, we’re weren’t in love, or even a couple
We were just the best of friends
For the longest time
Practically like brother and sister
Who slowly drifted apart

I swear I’m fighting
The same old war
One I had already fought before
It’s the same **** flame
That tries to burn me out
A river that flows
Only to drown me
My demons just keep on
Dragging me back
Deeper and deeper
Into this hole
I've dug myself out
Once, twice
More times than I can count
Yet here I am
Still being drug down
Down
down….

I’m not mental
I’m not insane
I’m not crazy
Just dealing with pain

I’ve tried the pills
They’re not what I need
But you ignore that fact
As you watch me bleed

They say I’m delirious
And need serious therapy
But I just really need a hug
It can’t be that hard to see

So no, I’m not ******* mental
**** it, I’m not insane
I just want love and care for once
So I can deal with all this pain

Once, someone told me
I needed someone to save me
From the thoughts in my head
And the demons in my past
Someone to save me
From myself
I couldn't help but to get angry
At hearing those words
Was I too weak
To save my own self?
Yeah, I may have had
A few mishaps in my past
But that’s no reason
For me to need a savior
I don’t need
For someone to come and save me
I need someone who will hold my hand
As I stand up
And save myself

I swear your love was like second hand smoke
Because it wasn't my choice to take it in
But it **** near killed me

I’m sorry
For my self-destructive tendencies
For all my bad decisions
For being reckless and impulsive

It’s just that nothing good can stay
And I know this for a fact
So I tear it all apart
Before it’s ripped away

I know that it’s unhealthy
I’m not letting myself be happy
But I refuse to let my pain be caused
By anyone but myself

I want you
In the simplest of ways
A warm embrace
Holding hands
A kiss on the temple
And sweet nothings
Whispered delicately
Why would we complicate
Something so sincere
When we can simply love
Without intricacies

Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up on my own anymore
This bed is too big
The sheets are too cold
And the night is far too long
So lay here with me
Let me fall asleep
With your heartbeat as my lullaby
Sing me to sleep, please sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up on my own anymore

Every time he was around
She smiled a bit wider
And laughed a bit louder
Because not only did he brighten up her day
But she hoped he would fall for her smile
Just as she fell for his

Every time she was around
He acted a bit tougher
And showed off a bit more
Because not only did he want to get noticed
But he wanted to make a mark on her heart
Just like the one on his heart for her

And every time they were together
They got each others mind in a jumble
With stuttered words an bright red cheeks
They couldn't look each other in the eye
But know if they did
They would surely get lost

Neither understand this skinny love
Both too shy to confess
That is until he sees
Her pretty, averted eyes
That won’t look up at him
Shy smile stuck on her lips

He softly lifts her chin
And though no words are truly spoken
Love is expressed through lips
They realize this is no unrequited love
And with a silly smile plastered on both their faces
He cradles her softly in his arms

It’s such a beautiful thing
The way the sky caresses the land
How the Sun kisses the Earth
Goodmorning and goodnight
And always comes back
No matter how many times
He is pushed away
In favor of the Moon
Wouldn’t it be lovely
To have a love like that
One where even in the darkest hours
Always prevails
A love with warmth so strong
It gives everything life
A love that was always meant to be
And will go on for infinity
Oh, how wonderful it would be
If you’d be my Earth
And I’ll be your Sky
You hold me up
And I’ll love you endlessly

Through sleepless nights and
Tired days
You fight your fights now
In a daze
The clouds are back and
Raining down
It’s so ****** up here
In this town
You’re a fighter who’s armor
Has been worn thin
Protecting others
From life’s cruel sin
You seem so tired
With eyes drooping and
Your bones aching
But you can’t give up
No, not just yet
Le gets good
You wanna bet?
You may not believe
You are strong enough
But I know you are
So I’ll call your bluff
Please, I’m beggin you
To stay a while longer
For no one else but yourself
To show that you are stronger
One day you will look back and know
Why you were meant to stay
You have a place in life
A role you were meant to live and play
So keep your head up
Through all the blows
Your life is at the start
Not the close

Your smile
Reminds me of
Music
A beautiful
Melody
And I wish I could
Put it on replay
So I could listen to it
When you’re not around

I swear, you’re like snow
So beautiful
But so **** cold
I hope I’m like the rain
So I can come in like a storm
And wash you away

It’s the way you smile
With a little laugh
Brown eyes sparkling
Happily

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

You crack a joke
I hear you laugh
You seem so full
Of silliness

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

Around you my heart flutters
My cheeks turn red
I get nervous
I stutter

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

I see you with her
Talking
Laughing
Linked arm in arm

My heart shatters
How I wish I was her
I feel the green eyed monster
And ****, does it hurt

But then I realize
As long as you’re happy
That’s all that matters
If you’re happy, I’m happy

And I that’s how I know that

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

They say that if you’re going through hell
Keep going
But what if the demons
Keep pulling you back
What if hate
Keeps ******* you in
What if hell
Is where you belong
What if
You’re someone like me

I don’t like those good boys
Fresh faced, bright eyes
Chewing on their  white lies
I like the rough lips
Rugged on his cheek bones
Who would have known
I don’t belong to anyone
I held him captive
In my skin
My whiskey lips
Held him in
And exhaled his ghost
Where’d you go?
You’re somewhere in the body sleeping next to me
But the left side of the bed is cold
Who would have known
I’d break the bad boy
Boy, you should have known
When you saw me drinking straight out of the bottle
When I smoked all your cigarettes
I’m nothing but bad news
When we first met
You asked for my name
I said it was trouble
It wasn’t a challenge
It was a warning
That you didn’t head
And now look at us
Broken and bent
Shattered pieces on the bathroom floor
But I’ll get better
I’ll put myself back together
I don’t think you’ll be so lucky
Because I can see the look in your eyes
You’re used to breaking
Not getting broken
And I can tell you won’t be getting over this soon

Spanish is my first language
I've been speaking it for 16 years
It occurred to me
That I have forgotten the word beautiful
I know fat, ugly, stupid, worthless
And so many others
But I forgot beautiful
Because I never use it
And no one uses it on me

Have you ever thought
That maybe
The stars don’t really shine for you?
That you are a single person
In an insignificant town
With people who don’t care
About you at all
And we have no actual power
Over what happens in our lives
These are terrible thoughts
Because we
As people
We need to feel important
Powerful
And in control
Like we can make a difference
But when you’re laying in bed
In the middle of the night
You kind of loose hope
You question your entire life
ANd realize we know none of the questions
That actually matter in life
That’s when we think
What difference does it make
What we do with our lives
If we end up dying anyways?
And when we’re gone
We end up as nothing more than a body
Decaying in the ground
And a distant memory
Soon forgotten
That’s why
When I look at the sky
I’m filled with a crippling sadness
Because the stars will shine
Weather I’m here or not
And I know
I never really mattered anyways

Stop making me want you
Stop making me blush
Stop making me stutter
Stop making my heart skip a beat
Or two
Just stop
It hurts so much knowing
That I can never be with you
And you don’t even realize it
So please
Stop being so amazing
Let me get over you
I can’t deal with this heartache any longer

If you’re cold, I’ll keep you warm
I’ll give your heart a home
I’ll take your hands in mine
And shield you in my arms

Darling, how did you get those scars
Did she hurt you?
Did she break you?

Come here, I can heal your wounds
Those scars will stay
But the pain will not

Why are you crying?
I’ll dry your tears
Those fears you have
Will be forgot

Lay down, love
And close your eyes
Rest your heart
I’ll keep you close

Sweet words
Painted on lips
Not left unsaid
To help you sleep

I’ll treasure you
And keep you safe
I promise I’ll stay
For as long as you want

We dance
And we laugh
And we sing
And we smile
We don’t give a ****
What’s cool, what’s in style
We’re odd and we’re weird
Abnormal, you say
Well I hope and I pray
That’s the way we would stay
We’re all teens in love
With ourselves, with each other
We hang off each other
Like sisters, like brothers
“Grow up!” they say
“You can’t be this careless!”
We ignore them, we know
Today is our day

Tell me about yourself
Your fears and hopes
Your dreams and nightmares
Tell me all the wicked thoughts
That come to your mind late at night
Tell me stories of your childhood
And you want to do when you graduate
Tell me what you want to do with your live
Tell me your favorite color
Favorite song, book, movie
Your favorite food and drink
Favorite type of cookie
Tell me what you hate
What you can’t stand
Your pet peeves
Tell me secrets you thought
You’d never share with anyone
But make me love you
All that much more
Tell me everything
You can go on for hours
I don’t mind

Tell me:

When did blowing bubbles
Turn into blowing smoke?

When did soda
Turn into *****?

When did pool parties
Turn into late-night skinny dipping?

When did Smarties
Turn into hydros?

When did sneakers
Turn into high heals?

When did cheek kisses
Turn into ***?

When did juice boxes
Turn into cheap beer?

When did bikes
Turn into cars?

Tell me:

When did growing up
Turn into this?

This year
I managed to get up off the floor
I think that’s a pretty big step
I can’t wait ‘til next year

I don't really know you
But I know that smile
I know it's not wholehearted
And I know that you're faking it
I know you're struggling
I know life is hard right now
I know you feel like nothing will get better
And I know you feel hopeless, lost
But I know other stuff, too
I know how happy you make people
I know how amazing you are
I know that your life is just at the start
And I know how great it will be
I don't know a lot of things
But I know that you can't give up
So please
Please don't give up

I traced your veins like lines on a map yet I still wonder why I find myself lost.

I'd like to say
That you left
But truth be told
You were never here

My heart is made from stardust
And jumbled constellations
Maybe that’s why no one understood
All of my creations