It started out so innocently
A drink every now and then
But he quickly spiraled downhill
He became a mess
This constant desuetude
Of alcohol he kept well hidden
Cost him his job
His family
His love
And his life

The denouement
Was startling
Because it was there
Right in front of everybody’s eyes
But no one
Not a single **** person
Saw the truth behind her lies
And now
The ending of this play
We call her life
Has ended

A demure child
Of about ten years old
Sweet and quiet
She did not do much
With her light brown hair
And soft brown eyes
She wore flowery dresses
And had a sense of innocence
Her classmates teased
And bullied her
Trying to get a rise
But they knew
This mild girl
Was not one to fight back
Until one day
They pushed her hard
Her favorite book
Landed in the mud
She started shaking
Not from fear
There was anger
In her eyes
She pushed right back
A boy twice her size
And watched as he landed
In the mud
Another tried
To pull her hair
So she punched him
In the nose
As he fell
She looked around
And dared someone else
To step up
When no one did
She picked up her book
She dusted her dress
And calmly walked home
Ever since that day
Everyone knew
This quiet girl
Was not one to be tried

The bright, burning lights
On the large, expansive stage
Thousands of people
Seemingly faceless to him
In the crowd
Just trying to get a better glimpse
And hear a bit better
Sweating profusely
Adrenaline pumping through his veins
With his guitar strapped on
Playing furiously
He’s bellowing the lyrics
Of the song he wrote himself
Along with his bandmates
Made brothers by music
This is where his heart belongs
This is his demesne

It happened suddenly
As a violent burst
Like a flash of lightning
Their love was toxic
An extraordinary dalliance
They thought it would last forever
But it ended quicker than Shakespearean love
It was real, it was true
But it burned out much too quickly
And it ended up as nothing more
Than a lesson for later love

The church pews were decorated with flowers
The aisles lined in petals
The bridesmaids all in blue
The groomsmen all in suites
The attendants sat with happy smiles
As the music started playing
The groom started crying
As his wife-to-be walked down the aisle
Escorted by her father
The bride was the cynosure of all eyes
And so they made
An unbreakable vow
And began their life together

A conflation of personalities
Two merged into one
In a single being
Who are you?
I don’t know
How do you feel?
I’m not sure
There’s war
Inside my head
I want everything
And nothing
All at once
There’s so much going on
A war inside my mind
I don’t who I am
I don’t know how I feel
All I know is I want
This confusion
To end

He’s a comely young man
Blonde hair and blue eyes
With enginuitive talent
And an intellectual mind

She was a lovely young lady
With dark hair and green eyes
With musical talent
And an artistic mind

He was raised rather high class
With a gentleman umbriging
He was told he owned the world
And he grew up believing it

She grew up being told
You had to work for what you had
She was taught to fight for her rights
And she was a stubborn heart

He always carried the mantra
“Speak softly and carry a big stick”
Silent and polite
He had the poise of a prince

Her thoughts were louder
She was more likely to yell and use the big stick
She was a wilder spirit
Who kind of lacked grace

But the two opposite
Polar personalities
Did have a large similarity
They loved each other

No one know exactly
How this love came to be
As it was very unexpected
For them to even get along

But I have never known a greater love
As the one shared by those two
For this affection was one
That saw past even the greatest differences

He was an older man
Of about forty five years
He had a wife and children
And his very own home

One day, abruptly
A phone call came in
From the hospital  of the town
He had grown up in

His father, a man
Late in his years
Had just passed away
And so started the tears

Now, his father was one
For whom he had utmost respect
For his father raised him alone
Since the day he was born

The next few weeks
Were a blur to the man
For he had just lost his hero
It was a sudden slam

The man was back
At his childhood home
After the funeral
He sat in his old room

He was looking through a few
Of his old playthings
When he picked up a box
He heard rattle around

Inside he saw
His old collection of marbles
Oxbloods and oilies
Lutz, aggies, and clambroths

He noticed a piece of paper
Under his favorite marble
A chatoyant thumper
His father had given him as a starter

He unfolded the paper
And he was surprised to see
His father's handwriting
He began to read

“Son, I know that you're reading this
It means I’m probably gone
But one thing I want you to know
Is that you’ll never be alone

I remember the day that your mother left
You had just been born
I swore that very day you’d never miss her
I’d be your dad, your mom, and more

As I watched you grow
Into the man you are
I couldn’t be prouder
Of who you’ve become

I’ll love you more than you’ll ever know
I’m proud to call you my son
Be the husband and father I know you can be
Because I know you’re a **** good one

I know you’re probably heartbroken
But don’t be sad for too long
Because I’ll forever watch over you
Goodbye, son, please stay strong”

The man had tears in his eyes
When his little girl walked him
She looked at him with big brown eyes
And asked her daddy what’s wrong

He shook his head and said nothing
While picking his princess up
He carried her and his marbles downstairs
A sad, hopeful smile stuck on his lips

The lovers sat on the couch
Of their lovely little bungalow
As they snuggled up together
They listened to the rainfall
And the steady rhythm
Of each others heartbeat
Inside their home
They felt safe
As if in their own little world
Together tucked away
In their little slice of heaven
Together
Never to be separated

It was a bucolic setting
With friendly neighbors
And well kept gardens
With well manicured lawns
There were very tiny schools
And a tinier church
Both with white walls
And well behaved children
It was such a quaint place
A peaceful little town
Where nothing really happened
So what a surprise it came
To the other townspeople
When they heard the nice little choir girl
The one everyone knew and loved
Had killed herself

I know this one boy
He has shaggy dark hair
And dark eyes
That seem so full of emotion
Yet empty all the same

I’ve never talked to him
I don’t think anyone has
He keeps to himself
But he does write quite a lot
In this old leather journal
He always carries around

He always wears skinny jeans
And lots of band-tees
But for some reason
He always wears sleeves
He’s got a lip piercing
And a few tattoos

Once, I had a terrible day
So I decided to skip class
I instead went snuck upstairs to the roof
I didn’t expect to see anyone there
But someone’s back was facing me

It was the boy I never talked to
He was writing in his journal
Scribbling furiously, pen in hand
I guess he also came here to brood
He just had that look

I went up behind him and said his name
He had earphones in with music playing loud
I knew the song, it was from my favorite band
Vices by Memphis May Fire

I tapped his shoulder and he jumped
He looked back at me in surprise
I asked if he was ok

He shrugged
He looked up at me with sad eyes
I sat next to him, shoulder to shoulder
And asked him what’s wrong

His dad yells at him
And tells him terrible things
His older brother always beats him up
And his big sister killed herself
His mom just doesn’t care
She’s never really home
His depression just keeps getting worse
He can barely get out of bed
Anxiety is eating him alive
And he’s trying, though failing, to stop his self harm

He started crying in the middle of his story
So I held him as he whimpered
And told him mine
We never talked to each other before in our life’s
We never had an exchange of words
But now as we sat together on the roof
I never felt closer to anyone

After a while, he seemed to calm down
I pulled up his sleeve and traced his scars
He looked down, he seemed kind of ashamed
I lifted up his chin and rolled up my sleeve
And showed him we had matching battle scars

He looked up at me with teary eyes
I told him about hope
And how things would get better
I told him if he could hold on
For just a few more years
He could get away from those who hurt him
And out of this **** town

I held his hand in mine
And looked him in the eye
I told I would be there
Every step of the way
And that if he would hold on
I would hold on with him

He nodded his head yes
He promised he would fight
He promised he would stay alive
If I would stay with him
Of course I said of course
We would make it through together
And so I became best friends with
The brooding boy on the roof

A mighty man
With an army of strenght
A warrior against those
Who fought against and not with

As he led his men
He fought bravely in battle
No one ever defeated him
War was his passion

He was not just brute strength
He was a cunning man with intellect
Bloodshed was not all he sought
Alliances is what this beleaguer wanted

But when it’s time to for him to spill enemies blood
A sword is swung and he attacks with fury
He shows no mercy as rage fill his eyes
Do not get in his way, you will end up dead

Battle was his playground
And he never lost
He was the bravest warrior
To walk the land

His legend now lives on for good
Though he is one who long lost past
He still leads his men to battle
As a warrior’s spirit never dies

Music pumping through the venue
An assemblage of people with the same passion
A single band bringing millions together
As they share for the night a common life

A single song blares from the stage
Emotions they all can share
Tying them all together
As everyone sings at the top of their lungs

A mosh pit forms in the middle of the crowd
Aggressive actions match the aggressive song
Screaming the lyrics that saved their lives
As the band watches fans who saved theirs, too

The band starts the final song
A soft anthem for the broken, but fighting
Everyone held hands as they sung and cried
As it was the end of the best night of their lives

There’s this lady down my street
Who makes me kind of sad to see
Her house is smells kind of vile
She’s an ailurophile

She’s got about ninety of them
She started hoarding since the day when
Her husband died, long ago
And to her, that was quite a blow

So she started hoarding little friends
Who love her to no end
She takes care of them all so well
Something everyone can tell

The little old lady down my street
Is actually very, very sweet
With her pets and her home she feel safe and cozy
This nice old lady is quite fogey

You are my sun
My moon
And all of my stars
You are the soft wind that blows cherry blossoms
Gently off the branch
You are rushing waterfall
A roaring, exciting current
You are the first flower
That blooms after Winter
And the absolute hottest day
A scorching heat after Spring
You are the first cool breeze
That refreshes after Summer
And the first fall of snow
A wonderland after Autumn
You are the beauty I see in every day
See, you are my everything

I went to sleep
Wanting to kiss you
And I woke up
With the same **** feeling

It’s like you’re a song
That constantly plays on the radio
It’s kind of annoying
How often you get stuck in my head

All my poems
Have turned into sonnets
Because my only muse
Is someone I hardly talk to

It’s actually quite sad
How often you invade my mind
Because you have no reason to be there
Yet you made my head, my heart your home

Deep down I know
I have absolutely no chance
But for some reason
You won’t leave my head

You know, I might be wasted
But these words
They come straight from the heart
Haven’t you ever heard
That drunken lips say sober thoughts

The only reason
I’m stumbling over my words
Is because I’ve got too much to say
And it wants to come out
All at once

Sometimes
I want to scream
And shout
Until my lungs give out

But I can’t
I ******* can’t
Because no one will listen
Who would?
I’m a ****** up girl
With ****** up thoughts
And a self-esteem to match

****.

So when I’m drunk
Alcohol in my veins
Clouding my thoughts
I can’t help it
I can’t control myself
I can’t contain it
I talk

Now, I’m not a very vocal person
Usually
But then I get
You know
Plastered
Then
If you’re around me
You’ll know me
My darkest secrets
My deepest regrets
My innermost thoughts
You’ll know me

Maybe I shouldn't drink
Maybe I already know
This will hurt me in the end
Maybe people will see the real me
And hate me
Almost as much as I hate myself

And maybe
Just maybe
I don’t care anymore

You’re the smile on my face
You’re the twinkle in my eye
You’re the dimple on my cheek
And the truth behind my lie

You’re the conductor of my hearts song
You’re the melody to my beat
You’re the one who makes me sing
And the rhythm in my feet

You’re the reason for this flowing stanza
You’re just the poem I wanted to write
You’re the only one who held these ink-stained hands
And I write your light

You’re the one who healed my wounds
You’re the savior of this bruised heart
You’re the only one who kissed these scars
And gave me hope I lacked at start

Darling, you’re my courage, my strength
You’re the reason I no longer fear
Sweetheart, I love you with all my heart
And you are everything I hold dear

They say that if you’re going through hell
Keep going
But what if the demons
Keep pulling you back
What if hate
Keeps ******* you in
What if hell
Is where you belong
What if
You’re someone like me

Tell me about yourself
Your fears and hopes
Your dreams and nightmares
Tell me all the wicked thoughts
That come to your mind late at night
Tell me stories of your childhood
And you want to do when you graduate
Tell me what you want to do with your live
Tell me your favorite color
Favorite song, book, movie
Your favorite food and drink
Favorite type of cookie
Tell me what you hate
What you can’t stand
Your pet peeves
Tell me secrets you thought
You’d never share with anyone
But make me love you
All that much more
Tell me everything
You can go on for hours
I don’t mind

We dance
And we laugh
And we sing
And we smile
We don’t give a ****
What’s cool, what’s in style
We’re odd and we’re weird
Abnormal, you say
Well I hope and I pray
That’s the way we would stay
We’re all teens in love
With ourselves, with each other
We hang off each other
Like sisters, like brothers
“Grow up!” they say
“You can’t be this careless!”
We ignore them, we know
Today is our day

Stop making me want you
Stop making me blush
Stop making me stutter
Stop making my heart skip a beat
Or two
Just stop
It hurts so much knowing
That I can never be with you
And you don’t even realize it
So please
Stop being so amazing
Let me get over you
I can’t deal with this heartache any longer

Have you ever thought
That maybe
The stars don’t really shine for you?
That you are a single person
In an insignificant town
With people who don’t care
About you at all
And we have no actual power
Over what happens in our lives
These are terrible thoughts
Because we
As people
We need to feel important
Powerful
And in control
Like we can make a difference
But when you’re laying in bed
In the middle of the night
You kind of loose hope
You question your entire life
ANd realize we know none of the questions
That actually matter in life
That’s when we think
What difference does it make
What we do with our lives
If we end up dying anyways?
And when we’re gone
We end up as nothing more than a body
Decaying in the ground
And a distant memory
Soon forgotten
That’s why
When I look at the sky
I’m filled with a crippling sadness
Because the stars will shine
Weather I’m here or not
And I know
I never really mattered anyways

It’s the way you smile
With a little laugh
Brown eyes sparkling
Happily

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

You crack a joke
I hear you laugh
You seem so full
Of silliness

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

Around you my heart flutters
My cheeks turn red
I get nervous
I stutter

And I know

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

I see you with her
Talking
Laughing
Linked arm in arm

My heart shatters
How I wish I was her
I feel the green eyed monster
And ****, does it hurt

But then I realize
As long as you’re happy
That’s all that matters
If you’re happy, I’m happy

And I that’s how I know that

I’m so in love
So in love
So in love

With you

Through sleepless nights and
Tired days
You fight your fights now
In a daze
The clouds are back and
Raining down
It’s so ****** up here
In this town
You’re a fighter who’s armor
Has been worn thin
Protecting others
From life’s cruel sin
You seem so tired
With eyes drooping and
Your bones aching
But you can’t give up
No, not just yet
Le gets good
You wanna bet?
You may not believe
You are strong enough
But I know you are
So I’ll call your bluff
Please, I’m beggin you
To stay a while longer
For no one else but yourself
To show that you are stronger
One day you will look back and know
Why you were meant to stay
You have a place in life
A role you were meant to live and play
So keep your head up
Through all the blows
Your life is at the start
Not the close

It’s such a beautiful thing
The way the sky caresses the land
How the Sun kisses the Earth
Goodmorning and goodnight
And always comes back
No matter how many times
He is pushed away
In favor of the Moon
Wouldn’t it be lovely
To have a love like that
One where even in the darkest hours
Always prevails
A love with warmth so strong
It gives everything life
A love that was always meant to be
And will go on for infinity
Oh, how wonderful it would be
If you’d be my Earth
And I’ll be your Sky
You hold me up
And I’ll love you endlessly

Every time he was around
She smiled a bit wider
And laughed a bit louder
Because not only did he brighten up her day
But she hoped he would fall for her smile
Just as she fell for his

Every time she was around
He acted a bit tougher
And showed off a bit more
Because not only did he want to get noticed
But he wanted to make a mark on her heart
Just like the one on his heart for her

And every time they were together
They got each others mind in a jumble
With stuttered words an bright red cheeks
They couldn't look each other in the eye
But know if they did
They would surely get lost

Neither understand this skinny love
Both too shy to confess
That is until he sees
Her pretty, averted eyes
That won’t look up at him
Shy smile stuck on her lips

He softly lifts her chin
And though no words are truly spoken
Love is expressed through lips
They realize this is no unrequited love
And with a silly smile plastered on both their faces
He cradles her softly in his arms

I want you
In the simplest of ways
A warm embrace
Holding hands
A kiss on the temple
And sweet nothings
Whispered delicately
Why would we complicate
Something so sincere
When we can simply love
Without intricacies

Once, someone told me
I needed someone to save me
From the thoughts in my head
And the demons in my past
Someone to save me
From myself
I couldn't help but to get angry
At hearing those words
Was I too weak
To save my own self?
Yeah, I may have had
A few mishaps in my past
But that’s no reason
For me to need a savior
I don’t need
For someone to come and save me
I need someone who will hold my hand
As I stand up
And save myself

I’m not mental
I’m not insane
I’m not crazy
Just dealing with pain

I’ve tried the pills
They’re not what I need
But you ignore that fact
As you watch me bleed

They say I’m delirious
And need serious therapy
But I just really need a hug
It can’t be that hard to see

So no, I’m not ******* mental
**** it, I’m not insane
I just want love and care for once
So I can deal with all this pain

Funny, though,
How this melody sounds like that memory
And how the emerald green grass
Is the green in your eyes
To me

It’s kind of weird
How chocolate reminds me of the color of your hair
But I love your hair more
Because it has golden streaks in it
And it’s yours

And every time I see the sky
I see your shirts and shoes and notebooks
I see your braces and the bracelet I gave you
Because I remember blue is your favorite color
And I will never forget that

Honestly, I can’t stand watching The Fox and the Hound
Because I remember it was your favorite
And no matter how much you denied it
You’d always end up crying
So I just held you as you cried

Anyone who reads this
Is probably thinking
“Oh how sad
This poor girl is remembering
A past love”

But no, we’re weren’t in love, or even a couple
We were just the best of friends
For the longest time
Practically like brother and sister
Who slowly drifted apart

It’s really weird
How relationships go
Between humans
They all follow the same sequence:

I don’t know you
But hello stranger
We’ll get to know each other
Let’s be friends

I know you
So **** well
You’re so amazing
My friend

I need you
I fell for my bestfriend
You fell for me too
And now, we’re together

I love you
I can just tell
We’ll be together forever
You’re my true love

I miss you
We broke up
I want you back
I can’t live without you

I hate you
You broke my heart
I want you out of my life
How could I ever love you?

I don’t know you
But hello stranger
We used to know each other
We used to be more than friends

I knew you didn’t really love me
Because you hadn’t seen me yet
At 3am
Sobbing uncontrollably
With bleeding wrist
And a bottle of Jack half empty

I hadn’t told you
About the voices in my head
And how they taunted me
To the brink of suicide

You never saw
Just how much I hated
Every single part of me
To the point of wanting to wash my skin away
Like blood from the sink

When you finally saw
All of me
The good, the bad
And the downright hideous
You simply walked away
And never looked back

Now, I have walls
Set up all around me
Because I was broken once
And it won’t happen again

I never knew
How alike
Two different things can be
Until I felt
My ragged breath
While looking down
The cliff’s ragged edge

My head is a prison
And I’m here for life
I can never get out
No matter how hard I try

Thoughts haunt me
Taunt me and laugh
Memories hurt me
And sneer with wrath

The voices, I think
They are the worst
I’m not quite sure
Why I’m the one that’s so cursed

Oh, how I try
To escape this hell
I try to fight back
It won’t work, you can tell

I bang my head against the wall
And slash my wrist until red falls
Hoping, praying this will keep them away
But nothing seems to keep them at bay

So here I stay a ****** up freak
With my head in my hands
And my hands on my knees
I let these terrible things consume me

My friends make fun of me
Because you’re the only one who makes my face turn red
Well, you and the sun
They called you my sun
That made me turn even redder
Because while they’re over exaggerating
Well, it’s pretty obvious
I really like you
I bet you know that, too
My constant stuttering
And red face
And odd blubbering
Surely gave me away
That, and the fact that I asked you to the dance
God, that was awkward
That was probably one of the worst nights of my life
No, you weren’t a ****
We just didn’t
You know
Talk
It really ******
Because I wanted to talk to you
And get to know you
And maybe show you
I’m worth the time
But you talked to your friends
And I talked to mine
And I was too scared that I would be a bother
To go to talk to you
So we danced awkwardly a few songs
And then my brother picked me up
And I went home
And wallowed in the overdramatic misery
I caused myself
By not growing the lady ***** to talk to you
Now, we share the occasional smile
While crossing paths in the hallway
That’s about it
And I wish it was more
Because I don’t remember the last time someone made me feel like this
Well, I do
That turned out ******
And I didn’t like him
As much as I like you
I’m just sad, is all
Because I brought this on myself
Because I caught feelings for someone
Who I knew from the start
Was out of my league
And could never like me back
I guess it was my bad
Oops

I may not look like much
But I swear to you
One day
I’ll take on the world
All by myself
It’s not like I’m not
Already used to being alone
But one day
I won’t be the one
You push and kick and shove around
I’ll stand up
And push back
I’ll show you
I’m stronger than you’ll ever be

And you’ll see
I’m the force to be reckoned with
I’m the fire you could not put out
I’m the one you counted out too early
And you’ll see
I’m the spirit of the broken
Finally ready to fight back

I live in a small town
In the middle of nowhere
Where nothing happens
Nothing bad
Yet nothing good
Leaving me deathly numb
I want so badly
For something to happen
But in this desolate life
Has left me feeling nothing
So nothing is what I am

No one falls for the poets
We are a bunch of lonely souls
No matter how sweet the words
They all seem oversold

See poets, we all know
The agony life will bring
This affects the way we think
As we live with the constant sting

It’s hard to knock down all our walls
It’s hard for us to let you in
You’ll start thinking we’re not worth the time
And end up leaving in the end

I guess that’s why our poems
Have such profound emotion
We have no one else to vent to
These feelings deep as an ocean

Maybe it’s for the best
That no one falls for poets
It’s the hardships we face in life
That make our words like bullets

Hopefully one day
Someone will fall for me
I doubt it would ever happen
But hey, poets do dream

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I could tell from the start
When you guarded your heart
I should have walked away
But I got caught in your trap
A web of love and lies
I couldn't escape
I wanted the pain

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I fell too hard
Too fast for you to catch
Love like fireworks
That burned out too quick
Like a cigarette

I should have walked away
I should have already known
There’s nothing but misery
Left in love for me

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

Maybe if I drink another coffee, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I read another book, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I listen to music, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I keep writing, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get on the internet, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I look at pictures, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I watch videos and movies, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I make new friends, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get a boyfriend, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I sleep for 14 hours straight, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get out-of-my-mind drunk, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I smoke, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I pop some pills, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I quit eating, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I cut myself, I’ll feel better
It seems like my whole life
Has turned into “what if?”
Hoping I’ll feel better
So maybe if I **** myself, I’ll feel better

I bet the reason
You hate yourself
Is because you gave all your love
To someone else
And when they gave none
In return
You were left with nothing more
Than an empty, hollowed heart
And no love, not even for yourself

But darling, don’t you fret
Because someday, someone will come
And they will fill your heart with love
And joy
Asking for nothing in return
And when you see that someone loves you
You will learn to love again
Not just them
But also yourself

I don’t understand
Why you romanticize love so much
Love is not always kind
It’s not alway careful
It’s not alway happy
Love is a monster
Love makes you yearn
For one who will never love you back
And force you to see them
Every **** day
And face them
Knowing you can never have them
Love is a painful feeling
That leaves you powerless
It strips you of your pride
As you watch him
Happy with someone else
Love is blinding
And you don’t see his flaws
His mistakes
His shortcomings
You overlook how many times he’s hurt you
And how he doesn’t deserve you
Love is selfish
Because you give
Or you take
More and more love
Until one or both hearts
Are empty
Love is a ******* monster
I know
I’ve been a victim
I have all the scars
So don’t tell me
About how beautiful love is
While I lay here
Bleeding and alone
From the beating love gave me

Once
I heard that if you can’t sleep at night
You’re either in love
And you can’t stop thinking
Of your beloved
Long enough for sleep to come
Or you’re lonely
And the pain of being desolate
Is just too much
For you to fall asleep
Honestly
I've gone through both
And I couldn't tell you
Which one is worse

There’s this pain
Inside of my heart
It’s this deep ache
The kind that you try to ignore
But it never goes away
It’s loneliness
A desolate anger
That starts inside my heart
And runs through my veins
It makes me want to scream and yell
It makes me want to punch the wall
It makes me want to run
And never, ever stop
But end the end of the day
All I can do
Is curl up in a ball
And cry
This pain, this anger
This loneliness
It’s tearing me apart
I don’t know how much longer
I can deal with this
Feeling
But I know
If I wait just a bit longer
I’m going to explode

Your lips are like razor blades
So darling,
Kiss my lips
And my cheek
Kiss my wrist
Just as deep
Maybe then
I can sleep
In a never ending dream

I’m ok
Isn’t that what I’m supposed to say?
I guess that’s what you want to hear
But you don’t know what’s real

Look at my dimpled smile
You could never tell my depressions mild
But this smile is getting harder to uphold
And this is something that will never be told

You don’t know I cry at night
You think I’m fine when in your sight
But when I’m alone, darkness settles in
I feel like nothing more that a worthless sin

Maybe that’s why my strenght is weakening
I see myself as disgusting, sickening
I’m not good enough to be alive
So I’ll wait for my end to arrive

I know for a fact that I’m hellbound
As I lay crying on the ground
I just want my pain to end
I just want my life to end

Let’s get drunk together
And say everything
We’re too scared to say sober
Because drunken lips
Speak sober thoughts
And I’m dying to see
What’s going on
Inside your wonderful little head

Hey pretty girl
Please come here
It’s ok to cry
To voice your fears

Now, I can tell
You’ve been strong for too long
I can tell you’re exhausted
To be vulnerable is not wrong

Your broken smile
Is one you seem to be faking
But it’s getting harder to lie
As your soul is aching

Let me tell you something right quick
Something I doubt you’ll believe
It’s actually pretty true
It’s just not something you can see

You are beautiful
Both inside and out
You are drop dead gorgeous
Without a single doubt

You’re oh so smart
In more than one way
Sometimes your brains
Leaves us all dazed

You have so much passion
For living your life
It’s quite beautiful
How you live without strife

You’re pretty hilarious
We love it when you’re silly
When you decide it’s time to laugh
It’s kind of odd, really

You have so much talent
It’s kind of mind blowing
Music and acting
It’s ability you’re showing

You’re known to be bossy
And kind of, sorta, pushy
But underneath your hard exterior
You’re actually very mushy

I have never known
A kinder soul
Your loving nature
Has left no one cold

But when it’s time to be tough
You’re the strongest I know
You keep your head up
And go with the flow

You are my bestest friend
Who made things not so bad
You’re the big sister
That I never had

You are so strong
Smart and able
Beautiful and wonderful
With your cards on the table

We don’t know why
You can’t see
That you’re absolutely wonderful
It’s time to believe

So pretty girl
Wipe your tears
It’s time to take on the world
And face your fears