Someone once asked me
To describe my hell to them
It really got me thinking
On what would causes me the most misery
Would it be being tortured
Or a place of constant war
Maybe its someone reminding me
Of all my failures and flaws
Finally I realized
What my hell really is
Hell is loving you
And waking up alone

Goodnight, goodnight
I will recall
Goodnight, goodnight
This was a hard fall

Goodnight, goodnight
You promised we’d fight
Goodnight, goodnight
But nothing’s alright

Goodnight. goodnight
I loved you for so long
Goodnight, Goodnight
But still you are gone

Goodnight, goodnight
I’m done with this war
Goodnight, goodnight
It’s my turn to soar

Goodnight, goodnight
I refuse to grieve
Goodnight, goodnight
It’s my turn to leave

Good girls are bad girls
Who haven’t been caught
Man, I’m telling you
Forget what you thought

She’s her mama's little girl
And her daddy’s princess
Her big brother loves her
With her they feel blessed

She got into Harvard
Future full of success
Modest and preppy
Is the way she will dress

She’s got straight A’s
4.0 G.P.A
But this goodies got a secret
That she’ll never say

She’s got a tattoo
She keeps covered up
She’s got some piercings
Make her look like a punk

She’ll sneak out of school
To be with her boyfriend
But she’s real good at lying
No one finds out in the end

She drives way too fast
It can’t be street legal
With loud music pumping
Her driving’s not dull

She’s got beer in one hand
A cigarette in the other
She looks pretty bad ***
As she lights up another

She’s the life of the party
Carpe diem is her motto
She refuses to slow down
Or live with legato

This girl is the prodigy
Who keeps up the image
But she still has her fun
She has double privilege

So yeah, to you
She’s might be a good girl
But good girls are bad girls
Who never get caught

My mind is racing with
A million thoughts that
Are blurring together in
An incomprehensible way that
Confuses everyone, including me

My heart is beating fast and
I can hear it in my ears with
Its loud thumping that
Seems too uneven to
Even be a heartbeat

My hands are shaking and
I can’t stop them, they
Tremble as if they
Were overcome with fear like
I am

My legs are numb as if
They were bathed in ice and
I can’t walk or
Run from this terror that
Consumes me

Tears stream down my face so
Rapidly that I can not seem to
Catch up, it’s like
There is and ocean draining inside me and
I don’t know how to stop

My breath is ragged like
A cliffs deadly edge that
You would jump from to
Forget the misery that
A life can hold

As I put my head in
My hands I feel a wretched
Sob rack through my body with
A terrifying intensity that
Shows my true emotions
As I lay on
The cold ground, I
Can feel the confusion and
Depression settling into
Completely eat me alive

So I lay down with
My sad music playing as
I try to calm the terror that
Is bound to destroy me but
I just give up

I think the thing
I’m scared of most
Is being forgotten
Because I know
I’m not that special
There’s nothing
Extraordinary
About me
So soon enough
You’ll find someone
Much more interesting
And wonderful
And amazing than I
And you’ll forget
All about me

Some roses are red
But violets aren’t blue
Did you actually think
This was some stupid “I love you”?

I’m sick of feelings
Like hope and love
Because they all seem to fade
When push  comes to shove

Love is a four letter word
That always hurts the same
I’m always the one left behind
Left with nothing but hate and shame

So now, I refuse to feel
I’ll drink away my pain
Who needs love, anyways
If I got this bottle to drain

I feel myself fade
Away from your mind
I see it in your eyes
As I begin to disappear
I see everyone
Finding others
Becoming who
They’re meant to be
And here I sit
All alone
I know in not too long
I will matter no more