I'm a bright blue box with a bitter black inside.
I screamed 'open me! open me!' to those who had tried.
As they peek in it takes their breath away,
how broken and sad before them i lay.
Shuttering and sobbing, i scream out: close the box!
because i know no one can undo my sad twisted knots.
shame on me for trying, who could ever care?
I wanted to be happy, but i doubt I'll make it there.
My inside grows darker, my dreams more disturbed,
but the outside still gleams blue, fake, unperturbed.
My dark insides take over, I can't turn it off
I'm trying, I'm trying, but the voices just scoff.
Happy? Loved? You? You've got to be kidding.
These things are reserved for light, your darkness is forbidding.
Close your eyes babe, and try to make it through
while your dark dark insides utterly consume you.
So come on, sit down. Make yourself at home.
Let the voices talk, let your mind roam.
Because you're trapped here darling, inside this blue box
no keys have the power to undo your locks.
Your blue box is shut. Seal it off, seal it tight.
It's simple, you just have no hope to ever see light.
The people, they leave. They don't understand.
Each time they go, unable to withstand.
You're a being of sadness, disguised as a girl
come on, fake a smile, let your lips curl.
Yes, cut yourself off, you little blue box.
Make yourself tough, a foundation of rocks.
Because not feeling anything, nothing at all,
is the sure-fire way to make certain you don't fall.