You loved me back then
It made me so optimistic
About this distance
Ready to make you my commitment
You put me on top of your wish list
Love poured out of you
It made me think what is this
If wanting it was so wrong
Then I guess I was a misfit
Back then
That honey moon phase I would've taken it to my grave
When I first met you I didn't know how to behave
My family would've been so amazed
How could a girl make me feel this way
Once upon a time when everything was just fine
Admitting I like you I didn't mind
Saying I love you came easy
Like an actor who learned their line
But that was once upon a time

Hello are you there
I look at you but you stare
It's like you aren't there
Just an empty shell
Are you speaking to me
One words replies
Matches the vagueness in your eyes
Payback for the way I've treated you
Now you treat me like you don't care
When we kiss its emotionless
And cold
Even your hair lost its shade
Why is everything becoming so vague

It's me who polluted the air waves
Me who un dug the skeletons of the past
Now there demons run rampant
It's me who ******* this up
I treated this "thing" we had like a rug
And I tore it from the floor up
I ripped this un known relationship from the foundations
Threw rocks and shattered the window
Took a sledge hammer an knocked down the brick walls
I'm the plague that killed us
It's not you its me
And I must build this house alone
It's not you its me
Hopefully you'll like to put the blame on me
It was me

Face gruesome
some shade of green
Snakes as her hair
Venom in her split ends
But a bite to your skin
Should be your least concern
Beware her glare
Avoid her stare
Or stone you will become
Frozen in time
Forever a mime
A statue for the world to behold
A soul not at rest
To become the runway lane for pigeons
And a landmark by those amazed
You were turned this way by a monster
Who was cursed by Athena
Medusa is her name
Don't look in her dagger eyes
Or be cursed to stone

Welcome to my home
And uninvited guest
That swept in like a storm
Sat next to me as I slept
Banged on my chest
Now I know why my heart aches
Pushed away the other feelings
Dried them out like a dessert storm
Now all I feel is you
No your in my head
Beating my brain
I close my eyes and all I see is you
You slumped into my lungs
All I breath is you
Harden me
Trained me not to care
Your the blood I bleed
The taste on my tongue
The aroma I smell
What would this world be without you
How would a heart break feel If you weren't there to comfort
What would a cut feel like
If you were absent at the seen
What emotion would take place if I broke my arm an you weren't around
What would I feel
Let's face it
You wouldn't feel anything without pain

To love at a distance can be torturous, as you always desire closeness to your beloved.

We lived in two different time zones
When the sun rise for me
The moon illuminate the night for her
When I'm wide awake
She's dreaming of a world unknown
I often urge for a touch
To clutch her in my arms
But each thought gets lost in the distance we share
Loving her is harder then loving her if she was here

I'm the light in the dark showing you the way
I'm the warmth on a cold winters day
I'm the guidance you need when lights go out
But you're the one that blows me out
Wrapped around my light, one gush and it's gone
But I'll fight for my light, Let's begin the tug-a-war

You light me up
When you want to hide your wicked ways
Using me to cast the dark away
Not wanting others to see what you do when the lights out
Praying my bright light can keep your demons at bay
You breath heavy when your conscience taunts you
Almost putting my flame out
My flickering
Makes you cover your mouth
You need me
I shine out what you've done
Your pocketed sun
You threaten to put me out if I ever let your secrets out
But even if you do
Soon you'll point a match my way

How could he know he would fall for her
Love was but a joke he would tell to her
She had him aim so high
She was a star to him
So he tried to kiss the sky
How could he know she would capture his heart
She put it on a pedestal
For him to see
In her hand she held the key
How could he know she would be a trickster and deceitful
How could he know she would toy with his ventricles
All it did was beat for her
Her eyes gave him nightmares
Fire rages behind them
But hidden amongst the blue
Drove by her insecurities
Made her feel full of impurities
She used him as a cure
Told him things so he would stay
Swayed his emotions with a kiss
Had him under her thumbs
She was good at what she did
And if he ever did leave her
She would have another guy to comfort her

You could see the dread in her eyes
She loved him she really did
But now the I Do
Made her realize she lied
Holding the regret back
She tells it to hide
She wants to behead this amalgamation
For its crimes
Like they did in the old times
The ring chocked her finger
She felt shackled
A prisoner, who hated her inmate
Baffled how quickly her feelings  changed
Not knowing if it was her or he at fault
They fought
An words flew out of her mouth like salt to his wounds
Not knowing how to tell it to the groom
Soon she cried at night
She hated she no longer loved him
She feels so alone
Even when he's here he often isn't home
Hopefully it's a faze she tries to stay strong
This Isn't how it suppose to be after the wedding
Divorce is something she begets
But out of respect
She swallows the threat
And hope
That after the wedding life will be better then this

300 violins play in the background
As words flow out of me like a punctured ink pin
Drowning the paper like a flash flood
They play a symphony to the written sins  
300 orchestrated violins plays their strings
The music
Out weighs the strange annotations on the pages
My words they use as their music sheet
Sounds emanate as they guide there bow over the strings
Following along the music sheets
Penned by me
300 violins play a soft soothing tune in the beginning
But they all start to scratch as they follow the path of the words
Playing erratic and panic
What verbs must I have use
They all seemed to play confused
300 violinist playing off key
Composed by me

You don't even know how hard it was to let you go
The feeling of it was like I was being chocked
Like someone put a noose around my throat
And tried to push me over the edge
Now I'm standing at ledge
But I step away
I won't jump for you
My soul I save
If you only knew
I'm already over you
Cast away the thought of you
To an island
Ship wrecked
Hope it befriends a ball
An talks to the wall
You don't even know
How hard it was to let you go

Watch how quickly it spreads
Already it took the flower beds
It runs rapid
Building in the breeze
Taking down tree after tree
Destroying everything
Separating bees from there wings
An feathers from birds
Somethings just can't escape these flames
The Forrest seems to scream
Cracking of wood
Meeting the ground
Crackling leafs
The whipping of fire
The intensified heat leaves everything  charred
Ashes rain from above
And as I flee the scene
I abandoned the book of matches I brought with me

Rest in peace to those we lost
You might be gone
But your memory still lives on
I'm sorry if you had to pass all alone
Just know we regret you fighting death on your own
Hopefully your in a better place
Looking down on us as we rest
Your always in our thoughts
But I'm happy for you
I hope the life you lived was a full one
I hope you had no regrets
Even though your time on earth has past
Hope death greeted you as a friend
But the journey you on has just stared
Because now your in heaven
Your new life has only just began

She's becoming numb to him
She use to feel comfort in there kiss
Now she can't feel the texture of his lips
It's like he's not there
Like she's kissing air
She loved his voice
But now it's like he's horsed
Somewhere along the line she lost him
When she looks his way
Her gaze he doesn't meet
Because he too has become numb
He use to run his fingers through her hair
The feeling of it set him free
Like he was touching a cloud
But now a storm has set in
He loved her hugs
But now it feels like he's touching a hollow shell
And when he does look in her eyes
Love is not there
Only a blank stare
He was her reflection and she was his
But now it's only transparency
They look through each other
She's out on the porch giving her life to a little white stick
Blowing smoke in the air
Using her fingers to draw images in it
And he sits in what use to be her favorite chair
Staring at a muted tv screen
He found peace in the quiet
But when they slept
They dreamed of of each other
Every morning the woke next to each other
And somewhere sat hope
Trying to build a bridge
To mend the gap the swept between them
And bring them back together
Hoping there's still time
To fix what's broken

Wish regret would take effect
It would be more easier to predict what I would say next
Because words run from my mouth
Like dashing from a dinner check
Who regrets that
Not regretting has lead me into mess
But I clean up faster then a butler wearing a shirt, tie and a sweater vest
Left it hanging in a tree
With a noose around its neck
It's sits at the side of the street with a sign asking for me
Wanting another job like a war vet
My regret wants marriage counseling
But I divorced her before that step
I sent regret away
Like an unwanted guess
Who knows what will happen next
Guess not having regrets is something I might regret

There's nothing better then pain
Wanting to be happy was to much of a strain on her
She wanted to take a gun a lodge a bullet In her brain
But she's a Christian
So she's scared of the everlasting pain
Well that's what she'd been taught
****** to hell
If she was the one to cut the string to her own bell
But she's confused
Wanting to be happy caused her strain
And this strain lead to pain
Now she's wanting to end her life
But she's afraid of everlasting pain
In her heart is Confliction
She doesn't know where to turn
So use to pain
She became numb to happiness
But in her heart of hearts just just wanted to feel loved
But this thing called pain can cause addiction
And hurt was her drug
She felt like a walked on rug
A hand me down
She was the one not seen in the crowd
To her the was nothing more better then being alone
At least when it hurts she could feel comfort in her own arms

He was institutionalized
Because he was crazy In their eyes
Guess he shouldn't have talked to himself on the streets
But his argument was he just had a really small Bluetooth piece
But to keep the peace he went
Took all his meds
Ate all the food he was fed
Often he cried in his bed
From the shock therapy he got in his head
Even if he was sane
The nurses played doctor with his brain
Making him insane
So he decided opt out the game
He swiped some keys and made it to the outside world
The wind was whipping
And the sky was weeping
It seems as though he had to changed his fate
He could see the entrance gate
There was just a river that kept him fenced in
So he hurried and dived in
Then he remembered
The shocked therapies made him forget
He couldn't swim

All he did was try
But all it lead him to do was cry
He wanted to just hang himself with a tie
At Least he would go out looking like a well dressed guy
He stop looking at the sky
Because it just reminded him of her eyes
This would imply
He distant himself of any ocean view that was blue
All he did was try to smile off the pain
But the undeveloped muscles in his face made him look like he had a weird taste in his mouth
He always tried to think north
But the pain made him angry so it always went south
But he didn't pout
All he did was try and forget you
But you was stuck in his head like super glue
And it drove him to do something he didn't want to
All he did was try and make you happy
But he failed
So he hung himself with the tie I mentioned earlier
All he did was try but he failed
So he hung there until he died

Two different shade of colors
One portrays good deeds
a kind heart
Ready to give anything to meet people needs
Sometimes I wish that was me
But it's hard to be happy when black
Is in my company
Happiness isn't a shade I can't see
Only the torturous black comforts me
Hugs me tight like a lost friend you don't want to see
It's uncomfortable like when my dad try's to speak to me
White is the light
It's shine can't reach me through the night
Only in shades of grey
Dulles my heart
Like a knife that's lost its usefulness
It's hard to find white
When I'm so use to black

Even when my hair turns grey
When I have to wear dentures
Because my teeth no longer want to stay
Even when I need a cane
Because my legs shake when I stand
When the officers confiscate my license
Because I can't stay in one lane
I will love you even when my eye sight fades away
When my ears hangs lower then my face
I will love you forever and a day
Long after my back gives out
Even when deafness forces a hearing aid
When my hands shake uncontrollably
Never would my love go away
I would love you even when my kidneys give
When my brittle bones leave me bed ridden
My love would last when the days of prune juice becomes my friend
Even when clinching my hands Becomes to much to stand  
Old age would only intensify it
Even though my memory fights me
When I think of you it looses its battle today
I will love one thousands years
And tomorrow I will love you one thousand years more
Forever

I carved our names in the tree
Forever imprinted there
It seems to ignites the trees growth
Leafs flourish bright green full of life
Sweet plums sprout out
Filling the branches
They're sweet like our new love
Roots nurtured by our overflowing passion
But even the sun that provides life can **** it with its sun rays
This is either going to last forever
Be more beautiful then when the sun peeks from behind the horizon
Painting the sky with reds and oranges
Heaven seems to flaunt it's light upon us
Birds dance in the Rays
This seems to be some fairytale movie scene
Or come crashing down harder then a 9/11 plane
Ruining the foundations we built this on
Fires melting away the frame we tried so hard to sustain
Molten metal wears and tears at our skin
Only a person in the inside could cause such damage
Or was it the influences from the outside
Either way it's a day unexpected like D DAY
What can I say
I tried to show you beautiful things
But it ended bad like a lost wedding ring
And you can tell me if this ever ends
Was the love we felt
Worth the everlasting pain
Even the tree feels the effects
Leafs no longer green
Branches splintered
Fruits withered
Uprooted roots
And the bark cracked
Splitting our names apart

It all started in high school
Man I was a fool back then
Wanting to find that sweet heart
So ready to be committed
To the forces unseen
And spend all four years with my boo
Then I met you
First day already trying to impress
Hoping to leave a everlasting effect
And like a test I past
Sitting next to each other now in class
Laughing, flirting having a blast
Every one said we should be
But then you betrayed me
There was another
And you wanted me to be the back up
Your plan B
And since that day you change me
Into the guy I am
You change my life in the worst way
Girls I don't trust them
Only use them
I could never love them
An enemy to my own emotions
Cuffed them and threw them in the back seat
Put them behind bars
There's sentence an eternity without love
With no bail
Meet a girl give her hell
Then move on to the next female
Oh well guess this is how it's got to be
Plus my friends and no good dad were so proud of me
Playa playa
That's what the called me
But playing this game
Drains the brain
Guess if I never met you
The world would've never known the worst part of me
And now it begins

You will forget to remember me
But you will remember to forget me
I will be a distant memory you don't have
You would've forgotten all the times I made you laugh
The times I made you blush
The caged butterflies in your stomach have flown away
I would be a piece of paper you crumbed up an tossed out  
Letters torn in half stained velvet red from your tears
When I'm gone another will be there
To help you forget about me walking away
All the carnage I've cause
would be whipped away by the other
Taming your sadness
Making you smile again
My voice would only be water vapor in the air
The time we spent would be erased
When I'm gone I know you'll rejoice
You'll finally be free
From the thought of me

When the rage has consumed my thoughts
When anger sits just beneath the surface ready to exploded like lava
When the acid smoke chokes the good out of me
When I can no longer think straight
When all the good I've done has died in vein
Just one word can set off a new feeling of pain
When I've scared you to the point where it won't heal
My words stained you like stainless steel
You know it's over
When I feel happiest when you say goodbye
I only can think straight
When you leave the room
There's so much love I could give
But there's too much anger that holds me
Its like a **** keeping the happiness back
You know it's over when I've given up
When your the prize in a amusement park I just can't win  
You know it's over
When every time I write about you
My heart bleeds through the pen

O these trust issues will be the death of me
Don't really fear much
But with you there's much to fear
O when will the time come
When I find out you lied to me
O how deep does your rabbit hole of secrets go
O I wonder if I even want to know
What have you done
O how much will it scar me
I know wounds heal
But what about the scared tissue beneath the skin
O how bad will it be
Never feared a broken heart
O but how broken would it be
Would the pieces be swept up by the ragging wind?
O would they be cast in different direction
Only speculation is my friend
O these trust issues will be the death of me

More meaningful then the first
But it will be the one that hurts the worst
The last I love you will be me removing the memory of you from this earth
Burying it six feet deep beneath the dirt
Hopefully masking the pain
The last I love you is a bad dream that haunts me
It's a plague in my brain
I want to be cured from this disease
The first time a way to keep you
Frontal lobe drunk on the thoughts of you
Contemplation was there
The voice in my head
You should say it
Wait no, it's too soon
Plus your going away today
Just say it then walk away
A goodbye in disguise
Saying it the first time is hard enough
Like a frog in my throat I just can't cough up
Gagging on the words
Thick out of my mouth
Like swallowing syrup  
I can see I can no long keep you
The last I love you will be the day I release you

For long my love would live on
Eternally forever
Like the reign of Dracula
Cursed with these feeling
Like his first taste of human blood
We both thirst
His will drink you dry
I want my love to fuel your heart beat
To strengthen the cartilage between your bones
My love is solid like his castle walls
Strong like his chains keeping the wooden bridge closed
Denying entrance to his fortress
My only weakness is you
Disintegrating my walls
Like the vamp king skin in the sun  
But there's a dark side to my love
Beware the traps doors
Hiding behind the twisting mid evil walls
There meant to keep me safe
More tortuous then the impalement of his foes
Who knows if you can withstand what you see
Once you get a sneak peek of the blood ******* monster inside me
Still asleep in its cage
Hidden inside Vlad secret passage way
But still it's slumbers
Because my love gets in its way

Shades of grey hang high above my head
Frozen in place like the sun at mid day
Pits of black splattered on the wall
Mangled with red streaks from fits of rage within me
My color scheme dark and lost
A mixture of colors you don't want to see
Unappealing
Dull and vague
Until I met you
Bright colors peaking through the blinds of my window
Were discovered by you
You change my color scheme
Pulled the blues and greens right out of me
You reeled them in like a fish caught on a hook
Like a earthquake
You shook the oranges and yellows loose from there nooks
My mood bright red and orange like the sunset
Colors pour out of me like the sun kissing the grass with it Rays
Blues cools my core temperature
Muting the rage for days
Until the sun sets
Letting the black creep in
muffling your colors
Painting over your color scheme

The thistle tree tilts towards the tavern twice through time

Poetry doesn't have a ethnicity or face just its words

I paint it
How I want it
With words
Verbs and synonyms
A masterpiece in the making
But it's delayed by frustration
The lack of patiences
It's so easy to mess up a line
Back to the lab again
Got to fine the right line that rhymes
The colors have to be in synch
Or it'll drive me crazy I'm on the brink of taking the painting an jumping off the edge
The thought of it not looking right makes me lose sleep
Before Its done often I start on another work of art
It's hard to put your heart in it with then ventricles are separated in parts
I want the panting to be remembered
My creativity has no bound
But its bound by me wanting the panting to be better then the last
That doesn't sound right in my head
Delete, Erase
I paint the painting back white
And start all over again
Let's get back to the basic
Sometimes a magnificent work of art
Can be as simple as black and white

Out of thin air comes your tune
It radiates through the room
Slowly it conquers the halls
It seems to put the house in a trance
A state of peace
But to me it brings haunting memories
This use to be our song
Now It sends the house into a frenzy
It awakes a dark beauty
Doors creep open
Curtains sway in the breeze that's not there
Floors creak like someone's walking
Footsteps echo through the hall
The windows vibrate
Soft voices turn into words
The temperature changes cold
And as I lay awake
steam pours out of my mouth
From heavy breathing
Shadows on the wall dance to the rhythm
There the mistakes I made that pushed you away
Emotionally shut off
Love switch broken
The music gets louder And louder
Its ringing in my ears
I can't hear
The words are scrambled
And explosions of notes that don't go together
Blows up in my head
Then it stops
The music box stops
And as the tune fades
The house dies down and sleeps again

I need help
I fear for my health
I'm starting to get that itch
When I'm away from you for to long my eyes twitch
I get sick
I get the shakes
Bad headaches
My sheets often drench from the cold sweats
I experience shortness of breath
I miss the cold steel against my skin
The exhilaration of it penetrating the layers that protect me from you
They resist,eventually giving in
It lets you in
Your fluid gushing through my veins
The adrenaline I get
My heart races
I get lost in the feeling
Nothing else matters
I'd fight matter to have more of you
Your love
I mean it
It warms my heart
Speeds up my thoughts
But slows down my reaction
The sensation bombards my chest
I try to slow my breathing
But my heart wants out of its prison
It's bones usually thicken
But It's cage weakened
By the drug that has me hooked
Name your price
If I don't have enough
Expect me on tv
Negotiating these hostages for the biggest heist you've ever seen
I think I'm going crazy  
I think I have a serious problem
I admit I'm an addict
I wish someone would admit me
I need rehab

A poet is able to make you feel their words

She was the prom queen
Beautiful, stunning
Popular
Her body matured more then most as a teen
Every guy wanted her
Girls jealous of her
She became a smoker
She was ill prepared
Inhaling sickness
Exhaling death
She didn't know was there
She gave her life then an there
It seared her throat
But she didn't care
Her inhales were long
She exhales with ease
Wanted to impress
She ache for popularity like a fein
After a couple of years the effects creeped in like a disease
She seemed to age twenty years
Wrinkles appeared
He hair thinned
So did her body
Fingers stained yellow
Her teeth rotted brown
Her breath just as foul
The prom queen couldn't be found
Her limbs begin to die
Amputations a daily routine  
Her voice raspy
Followed by a bone chilling cough
Deep ridges on her lips hides a smile
Now the prom queen is just a picture
That she doesn't look at
Hanging on the wall

Your I love you's are useless like a broken record

Behind the vail
Is a girl not wanting to show her face
She hides her emotions from the world
Heart stale
Dried up like an empty well
She's cold like the oceans frigid deep
Love not yet discovered
Like a mysterious new species
She's to cautious to let someone fish for her heart
To afraid to let someone in
Love is her faceless enemy
The one within
She can't bare to meet it face to face
The light in her chest blown out
Buried by the memories drowned in sorries
She suffers slowly
She accepts the reality
Forever alone
This is the way she has to be
Until she meets a man
That would give his life for her
Die for her
Give her a family
And marry her
Only then
Will she lift it up
An come from behind the vail

Put a man inside of a bot
Take away his ability to feel
Put a man inside of a bot
Give him a better way to ****
Put him in a suit made of metal
Take a way his will
His ability to make his own decisions
Put a man in a bot
You turn him into a machine
Into a walking zombie
Into a man who's not there
Who's not a man at all
He fails to beat the system in control of him
The hands that made him
Are the hands that betrayed him
Put a man inside a bot
And let a man control it
We all die

He sits there in his favorite rocking chair
Gently it sways back an forth
It's wood aged from its years of service
Chipped and faded
He sits an stares
Thinking of his old self, me
His eyes past there prime
His face saggy
Riddled in wrinkles
Gathered over the years
They tell a story of his age
Ears hang low, spikes of hairs peek out
He stares out
He would tell you the world is grey
With a complacent look on his face
He imagine his once true love next to him
Her once blond hair white as snow
Her crystal blue eyes
Dulled from the decades
Her skin now saggy like his
She sits in a matching chair as his
There chairs rock in unisons  
She would always disappear in the breeze just before she smiled
He sits in his favorite rocking chair
Even though he's old now
He still remembers her
She's everlasting
He finally looks to the sky an smiles
And just as the chair stops
So does his heart

Working behind the scenes
Like a secret organization
The one pulling the strings
Wanting you to give in
Give me your soul an you shall be set you free
Indulge in our ways
In return your craziest fantasies
Will be handed to you
Let the sin set in
Like conditioner
You've been warned about me
So you locked me away
Threw away the key
And the chains you put on
Already rusted away
I tap on the door keeping you awake a night
You like when I beg
Twist the handle as you pray
Trying to keep me at bay
You like the way I sound in your head
I'm a slumbering beast in your belly
My thirst is strong
The hunger only grows
Once you awake me I'd be hard to control
Get lost in the lust
It'll be a beginning to our new life

She says she loves me
But the meaning is artificial
Like a prosthetic leg
To help her walk again
She clears her throat ready to talk again
But the I love you doesn't reach me
I'm to busy shooting harpoons at the moon
Trying to reel it in
With the recycled words she gave me
Fishing for her love
Only to have the bait stolen
By the hate I harbor within
It trickles to the surface
Leaving behind evaporated acid in the air
I wear her I love you
But it cracks easily like cheap leather
Turns brittle in the cold weather
Flacks off and disintegrates before touching the ground  
But I still love it when she says I love you

Laying on this cold steel
That lead me into this tunnel
Seems like it goes on forever
Its pitch black fills the empty emotions
The vibration of the steel
Wakes a sleeping heart
Pumping muddy blood through my veins
Rotting my bones
Killing my nerves
Manufacturing thoughts
Only for them to get lost in the dark
In this tunnel
They don't go far
There's no light for them to cling to
So they haunt me
Wanting a reason to be
The agitated steel vibrates stronger
Rattling my teeth  
Forcing me to search for the source of its movements
An as I stumble through the darkness
A stream of light flows through the tunnel
A glimmer of hope
But then it's ripped away
By a shocking revelation
By the train that's coming for me

An experiment
A tortured soul
Murdered, put back together by a man with crazed fantasies
Body part stolen from the worst kind of poets
Ones with maniacal thoughts
Hands taken from a poet who murders his family in each line  
Heart taken from a poet who gave into the hate
He writes about broken relationships
Legs taken from a poet drowned in depression
He writes about failed Suicidal attempts  
Feet from a poet who walks hand in hand with the darkness
His midnight poems about the demons that haunt him
I was a tragic success
Each stitch sealed my fate
A combination of the worst kind of poets
A monster
Something you dreamed about
Something i see in the mirror
Normality is a star in the distance
I wish I could reach
You can't look past these scars
You get lost in between my lines
I've been painted as a monster
Given the name Frankenstein
A symbol of fear
But you fear the wrong one
I am not Frankenstein
No
He's the real monster that created me

Open up your eyes
See through all the lies
You misinterpret the fables
As truths
Wake up
Your still sleeping
What your seeing is not true
The world your living in is not meant for you
It's a state of mind you call home
Lock in the cage of your thoughts
You have the key
Your so caught up in the fantasies
The lock morphed into a snake
It slithers in your ears
Whispers sins
Things you like to hear
Wake up
You abandoned your Conscience at the front door
It sits here with its head hung low
Waiting to be discovered again
Only to discover you like it here
What did you follow through the door
What did you find in the dark better then the light
Your unsure lifestyle escorted you here
Now you stuck like a deer head between headlights
Believing in the fairytales
Now you want a tale of your own
Wanting that happen ending
So you slumber here
Stuck in this world
Filled with wonder
I just want you to see through its deception
It's perception
I just want you to wake up

He was hung here
Strung up here at this tree
Rope burns imbedded in its branches
From its past memories
So many went before him
Not for a crime
But from a hate crime
And he just wanted to be free
Walk among the streets
Like a normal human being
But instead
He was picked on  
Hit on,kick on and spit on
They didn't care
They gathered around
Laughed an cheered as he hung
Pushed his body an watched as he swung
Still kicking
Eyes blood shot from the lack of breathing
And as the rope tore into his neck
His own kind watch from a distance with respect
Watching the rope stretch his neck  
Hung six feet off the ground
For you an me
But how much has the world changed from he
What's free
Cause I see nooses tied around an tree for you an me

What if I never said I love you
Where would we be?
Would you be with someone different
Would you even love me
What if that day I did let you go
Would you have came back
Would you say you couldn't live without me
What if I left you
How would you react
Would you tell me to stay
What if we never met
How happy would you be
What if that break I took lasted more then three days
How long would you have waited
What if I never said I like you
Where would you be
Would you still be with him
Would you have ever admitted your feelings for me
What if I chose her over you
Where would I be
What if we never met
How happy with you be
What if I never said I love you

We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools.

Follow me over the rainbow
Through the clouds
To its birthplace an back down
Let's dance through the color spectrum
To the other side of the rainbow
Let's find all shades of green an expose a new one
I'll take you to a place where imagination an creativity roams free
The tress mimic different colors
They seem to dance from the breeze
I'll take you somewhere you've never seen
Where oceans home clouds
And fish swim in the sky like the sea
You can surf the grass because they crash like waves
Even the sun isn't the same it shoots out different colored Rays
This could be our world if your willing to go
I'll show you there's more at the end of the rainbow then a *** of gold

She doesn't think she's beautiful but ugly
It's strange to me
Its hard to complement a girl full of insecurities
She hides her pride behind her eyes
Those ocean blue eyes
The ones full of love
They shine when the sun kiss them
I swear I get a glimpse of heaven
I feel like I'm floating, no flying
But then I crash
She says I don't make her feel pretty
And it's silly of me
To fail at a such easy thing
My attempts fall on deaf ears
The words "your beautiful"
Never reach the top of her hills
Her insecurities stop them cold
Like the steel around her nose
That finds the sun an shine bright
My complements hides in her blacks streaks
In her golden blond hair
The hair she uses to hides her face
As I brush it away
In that one second our eyes meet
In that one second she looses her insecurities

I left the comfort of your hugs
And ran into the arms of the unknown
Left the door wide open an the keys in the pad lock
Walked away from you an this home
An I'm never looking back
Escaping the grip that's stopping me from breathing
Moods change like the seasons
You say how could I hurt you
This is all that i can do
Is run away from you
You change me
But you hate me
And it's crazy but I don't mind
It's just fine
An I love you but I hurt you
So I'll leave you, to save you from me
I'll miss you
As I disappear like the sun behind the clouds
Just know I'll always keep you inside
But it's over
Nothing really last forever
Just take this as some weird bad weather
I know longer want to hurt you inside
This is all I can do
Is run away from you