Why does it rain
When the sun shines
Dude are you blind
It’s just Mother Nature
Laughing and crying at the same time

I was always so focus
With keeping other people head above the water
I never seemed to notice
I was the one that started to drown

The feeling of being numb hasn’t gone away
Since you been gone
My heart is afraid to beat
And the thought of love
Is as uncomfortable as and old seat to flop in
Instead it’s been replaced
With resentment
Against the unfaithful
Hatefulness and disgust
Erupted inside of me like a busted vein
And now it course within me
Keeping the love and trust
In shackles and chains
Oppressed like the black man
Since you been gone
I often wonder was I wrong
Did letting you go for your own sake
Was that a mistake
The thought that I change you
Turned you into someone that was always angry
Was that something I could take ?
Since you been gone
The memories we made still rage on
Sometimes I wish I could just forget
I’d empty all the money In my tank
Into a wishing well
Just to wish away the spell
This undying love you cast on me that hasn’t warn off
Since you been gone
I’ve never felt more alone
Now come back

You fool
You idiot
You’ve fought off lust for so long
Only for it to end like this
You slipped up
Fell right into her wanting arms
In your mind
A thousand thoughts
How can I get myself out of this?
But you’ve been here before
Back for the third time
Ands she’s asking for it
You idiot no go home
But lust had you so so blind
And when y’all kissed
Even though you felt like you were kissing a dead fish
Regret
Second thought
Out of sight out of mind
Now you’re on top
She’s asking your repeatedly
Stick it in
But your hearts pumping
Trying to stay focus
But the act your partaking in
You know is one of the seven deadly sins
But the word no it’s like an oiled up pole
You can’t keep it in your grip
There’s just no way you can win
Ok ***** it
I give up
I give in
Flesh against flesh
Skin against skin
Lips against lips
Her breast in your hand
Now she’s on top
But pains she’s in
Ok let’s try this one more time
You’ve just had “***”
With one of your closest friends
No their more like “family” members
Well they’re not going to consider you family anymore
Once they found out you’ve slept with their kin
Now disappointment is a fatal scent
Lingering on your breath

A poem a day
Keeps the pain away
It keeps these eyes
Drier then a desert sky
A poem a day
Keeps me from dying completely inside
It’s my defibrillator
And keeps my pulse alive
A poem a day
Corrals my faith and keeps it intact
A poem a day
Keeps the demons at bay

I haven’t seen you do this in awhile
It’s 2018
And you still haven’t cracked your first smile

A cheater is going to cheat
And a liar is going to lie
If you take them back
Don’t be surprised
When they do it for a second time