Nevermind

Nevermind Nov 2015

If there's a thousand places
That you'd rather be
Then don't waste your youth
Wasting away with me
If your mind is wandering
From the words on my lips
Then go and run off
With the other kids
The last thing I want
Is for you to feel like I do
And I feel like I trap you
Every time we hang
So please don't drag this out
I won't beg you to stay
Just please save yourself
I'm wasting away

Nevermind Nov 2015

I Want My Friends Back

Oh God what have I done
What happened to everyone?
In the fog of my own brain
They simply slipped away
It's gotta be my fault
Was it something I said?
I miss them all so much
I miss all my old friends
I swear I'll buy this time
Let's all hang out again
I swear I'll even drive
Don't leave me high and dry
God I miss my friends
Can't stop wondering why

Nevermind Nov 2015

If Time Could Fly

If time had wings
Would it fly away
And leave me frozen
Stuck on this day
This wretched moment
This dreaded hour
If time could fly
It'd never be ours
Maybe it feels pressure
To slow or fast forward
Maybe time is lonely
In the hand of the Lord
Maybe time wishes
It could please us all
If time had wings
I bet it'd fly away
And I wouldn't hold it to fault

Nevermind Nov 2015

Little Things

I'm sorry I don't remember
All the things you do
Dates and numbers
Waning crescents and full moons
I don't remember when you get off work
I forget to text you back
I leave makeup brushes and shirts
But I know for a fact
That I love you
So, so much
It might not seem like it
But I can't get enough
I remember
What the words on your chest mean
I actually remember lots of things
I remember how you write your name
I know how you like your tea
A tad of honey
Never over steeped
I know how you breathe
Just before you sleep
Quiet jokes and odd dreams
You show up with flowers and cards
And I show up in ripped jeans
But I swear I remember
At least the little things

Nevermind Nov 2015

Perseverating

I won't stop loving you
'Till you stop loving me
And even when you've up and gone
I'll simply draw up my knees
And hibernate for a while
Dreaming of the days
When our love was young and wild
Before you slipped away

Nevermind Nov 2015

Too Many Thoughts

Anxious words slip off the pen
How fast can I jot them down
Before they escape their den
The den of my mind
That's racing all the time
That can't contain all these ideas
For worthless riddles and rhymes
Sometimes I simply have to take a breath
And exhale these thoughts away
A predator does not catch
Every prospective prey

Nevermind Nov 2015

Vanished

There's so many things I want you to know
Yet so many things I simply cannot say
So many dreadful experiences past
Have taken my hollow words away
Hollow yet full at the very same time
Of so many things that are slipping my mind
There are oh so many things I'd like to tell
But where do I start in this lonely hell?
Wrapped up in this sorrow for so very long
It's hard to even see that something's wrong
But I know there's an ache in my bones
That no one else feels
All these gashes and wounds
That never healed
Broken bones beneath my skin
Twisted and mangled positions healed in
There's so many things I think you should know
But when I'm with you, where do my thoughts go?