I'm locked in a prison
In which I'm the guard
Brittle, tired bones
Are my cell bars
Along the walls of damp corridors
Echoes the sound of my heart
I've been trapped in here so long
I can see through the dark
Where shunned thoughts hide
In murky black fear
I'm not alone in this cell
Yet it's so lonely here
For the only thing left
To accompany me
Is the song of my mistakes
And my sorrowful heart's beat

I can't draw
And I can't sing
I can't do a lot of things
I have to take breaks
When I run
Because I pollute
My sorry lungs
I cannot put words
To my feelings sometimes
So I talk in choppy sentences
And send you late night rhymes
I can't get that one strand of hair
To lie flat on my head
And sometimes I forget I'm alive
Convinced that I'm dead
I'm really not good
At getting out of bed
I can't do a lot of things
Other people can

When the thought crosses my mind
That you might not even know
Just how the loss of you
Shattered my brittle soul  
I can't help suddenly cringe
And shut my eyes tight
Your love I tried to win
My heart wounded in the fight

I'd like to think
That at least one time
As the mess that is "me"
Happens to walk by
That someone around
A complete stranger to me
Has turned their head
And maybe just maybe thought
That I was
P r e t t y

I hear the noises
Of you preparing to leave
Lazy eyes rolling
Taking in the scene
Ready to do it
All over again
Even though I'm still feeling
The mind altering effects
Your feet are thumping
Down the stairs
I'm truly sorry
I don't even get scared
Not anymore
I'm not afraid
The person you know
Is far away
There really is
No self in me
So grab your jacket
And clink your keys
I'm pulling the drapes
Away from the window
Your sleek car starts
With a reddish glow
It remains in the driveway
For a moment or two
And I stand still
Taking in the view
Breathing in the simplicity
Of the action in itself
Before you drive off
And I'm left by myself
By myself
All alone
In this place
Our shared home
Except for that box
That's calling my name
The one that's been singing
All **** day
The only thing for my presence
That'll ever wait
I love when you leave
I love empty space