Nevermind

Nevermind Nov 2015

I hate that you follow me into my dreams
The fact that I'm "safe" is hard to believe
I can't erase the image of you waiting for me
When all I wanted to do was run to safety
But because of dreadful family ties
Because of zipped lips and petty lies
I gingerly approached you with tears in my eyes
You know my address
And it keeps me up at night

Nevermind Nov 2015

Holidays

Maybe I'm just antisocial
Or too withdrawn
But being with family
Feels so wrong
Thanksgiving
Christmas
New Years Eve
All these events
These dreadful things
I love them all
I most confess
They're my family
More or less
But when I'm
Surrounded by them
I feel like
An alien

Nevermind Nov 2015

Good Kids

For all the wounds that just won't close
All the sorrows they'll never know
For all the tears behind closed doors
We'll drink just a little more

Nevermind Nov 2015

I Just Want You To Be Okay

Here's a few pieces of me
I carved them out myself
Add them to you
With a bit of glue
Or put them up on a shelf
No matter what you do with them
I truly hope they help
They're not much
They're barely enough
Bruised and beaten
Stained in blood

Nevermind Nov 2015

Idiot

I don't want to let go
But I can't make it real
So whatever I'm holding onto
Is just a spinning wheel
Going round and round
A movie in my head
Making me sad and angry
Torturing me instead
I don't want to let go
But I can't make it real
I guess it's just a memory I carry
It's just something to feel
I don't want to let go
But I can't make it real
It'll never come back
It's gone for good
They've long since forgotten
They never understood

Nevermind Nov 2015

Selective Memory

I don't want to forget
But my memory betrays
Everything I've held onto
Is slipping away
It's for my own good
It's been haunting me for years
Pulling at my strings
Lurking in my fears

Nevermind Nov 2015

You'll Always Be Enough

I want to hold your sleepy hand
And kiss your sleepy eyes
I want to lay on dying grass
And look up at the sky
I long for drives down moonlit roads
Going places no one ever goes
I want that something that you give
The one need not be explained
A silent gift
I want that nothing that you give
It's everything to me
It's why I live