It hurts to leave bed
It hurts to cry
It hurts to stay
And wonder why
There's so many thoughts
In this dizzy head
That swirl round and round
Full of hurt and dread
And then the guilt
For feeling this way
For not getting up and trying
To chase the day
But I'm tired of running
I'd rather walk
I'd rather lay down on the tracks
And watch the clock

I'm not jealous of your shine
But it always outshines mine
Everywhere we go
I feel it all the time
The rays of light that beam
Off your sun bright smile
Make me shy away
Make me wonder why
It's not your fault
That your beauty shines
Like the light that glimmers
Off the ocean so wide
I'm sure if you weren't in shackles
You'd be free to fly
You'd go far away
Would you ever wonder why?
But my tragic flaw
My deepest cut
Causing my spiraling
Tumbling downfall
Don't I know?
That everyone hurts?
Even this vibrating substance of beauty
That is her
I promise I won't think about
The light that I see
That bounces off of you
And gets absorbed into me
A pitch black void
A swirling, humming abyss
Of nothing and everything
Yearning to **** you in

Your eyes roll around
In their tiny hiding slits
Lazily taking me in
Enjoying all of this
Stray strands of hair
Black as the darkest night
Hang over your forehead
Like a drape hiding the light
Your fingers search for something
Like a vulture soaring high
Swooping down to steal me
Creeping up and down my spine
Your skin is pale as ever
You're thin as a corpse
But underneath the clothes you wear
There's hidden strength of course
I know it well and I dare not defy
There's a spark of something in your eye
When your face lowers
Closer and closer to mine
Your smell intoxicates
My dizzy dreaming mind
I can't tell if you're my dissociation
Or if my dissociation is you
So I'll hold onto spinning illusions
And tiny peeking clues
I'll cling to the warmth of a body
Breathing slowly beside mine
I'll wish upon the silent words
Exchanged through lost time

The light can't find us
Where we're headed
It cries out softly
Spilling into a shallow crevice
Light can't reach us
Where we're going
Abandoning everything
We spent our whole lives knowing
Unsure if we'll ever feel it's rays again
Beaming down on golden, suntanned skin
Where we're going
Light dares not to dwell
So to it's warmth
We say farewell
Hiding from the light
We abandoned our masks
And sink into darkness
Free at last

When everything’s fine
These little webs
They’re pulling at me
All the time
Wrapped around my legs
Stuck to my arms
These little webs
Grow from my heart
And wrap me up
In a crazy mess
A tangled muddle
Of hopeless sadness
What would I be?
Without these webs?
Surely I’d still
Never find happiness
I’d be unwound
For the world to see
I like these webs
They make me
*Me

It all seems like a blur to me now
Awash in the euphoria of being found
Lately all I can think about
Is how cold it is here on the ground
I haven't gotten up since you left me here
Limbs tangled in vines
Flowers growing in my hair

And they say we're rude
But we're shaking in our shoes
Anxious "Hellos" and "Goodbyes"
Quivering lips dribbling "Thank you's"
And endless "I'm sorry's"
For breaking outdated unspoken rules
In old, weathered eyes
We're just young, disrespectful fools
You had your struggles
We have ours
Now you sit and nitpick
While our world's still vast and far
From waitresses juggling plates
To secretaries scheduling dates
Please be patient, just wait
In this moment, we're carrying all we can take