I don't want to fall like the leaves in autumn.
or like the snow in winter,
or rain when god is crying down to what a disappointment I am.
I want to shine like the sun, I want them to notice my sparkly lip gloss and admire me, like Athena.
I want to guide everyone through the night with my moonlight.
but I fail to their eyes because they dont see a success,
they see the opposite, they see ugliness. well now I know to never try again.

hay veces que odio ser hispana.
no deshonro mi cultura, créanme, pero mi madre ha hecho que mi vida sea poco saludable y desearía haberme criado con caucásicos que no fueran tóxicos.
realmente no sé cómo explicar todo esto.

Me encanta cada vez contigo
De cualquier cosa yo te pido
Y lo mejor que es en tu piso
Tus ojos, pelo y tu sonrisa

my vision is blurry as I type away,
making several spelling errors.
I miss you, and I still love you,
but I know I shouldn't.

every    time
            I
think
          about it,
I can                 feel heat
          forming                into
                          ­my eyes.

ive learned to drown out the pain.

the thought
of someone
liking you is
gross, but when
they don't, you seem to
become obsessive of the
thought of why they don't.