I was too happy day after day
I was too happy for it to stay that way-
I was too content to stay by her side
Used to thank God every night
But somewhere in the back of my mind
There was some doubt about that girl of mine
But even as I try all that I can
I can't remember what gave it away about Wendy Ann.

I was locked within the love we shared
So grateful of the prison there
But it was joy itself which gave away to
                             uncertainty
Which was destined to be the end of Wendy plus
                                                            ­      me.

I was going in the right direction
I was floating on her affection
My first taste of love's perfection
Was only an after-taste of rejection.

I'm out of my mind
And I need a place to stay.
Could I enter yours?
I'll promise to keep all your secrets
Hidden away.

This place is unfamiliar,
Something I have never seen before.
Flashing images float around me
I hold onto them,
Knowingly,
That this is what it feels like for you.

I never payed attention to it before,
But every word you say,
Every action that you do,
Illustrates a perfect picture, in a powerful way.

Why have I been lingering outside of my mind?
Troubled thoughts, unforgiving images.
But these are tolerable.
It's time to escape your mind,
Now that I know
And start giving you the best that I can
Because I know,
And you know,
That I will never have this moment again.

I love you dear,
And that much is true.
Run away with me,
and we can disperse into the blue.

In an effort
To seperate himself
From his his
Agonising loneliness
He pursues his echo
From the burning wildernesss
He knows that one day
His pain will dissolve into redemption
But he can't face
his immediate existence
but life isn't one date
That leaves you at the cinema to wait
That's just something that didn't
go your way...Tomorrow as they say
It's just another day.

My peppermint days are over now
The sun now sour shines
Ridiculous voices sing a different sky
And I hide behind horoscope signs.

My sandy beaches are lime outside
They cry like flowing wine
Absurd news is static in my grief
Locked in a cage of time

My peppermint days are memories now
The light years closed away
For any story told by children
There is a lonely prayer to say.

My peppermints I'll share with you
If I thought thay'd catch your vision
But you can only judge reality
As if it were spoken out for you to listen

So nobody has ever heard a single word I said ?
Nobody cares if I'm alive or I'm dead
I know that I'm alive
And now I'll show you how I live!

Dark floats out into the silence
Crashing on the banks of Prometheus's wings
Opening a velvet-silk curtain.
To a fabric of shadowed stars
Cloudy fingers sew it clean
While invisible hands stitch pearls back in.
A ghost flits on the hallway stair
Reaching for the last shafts of sun
Tumbling off a silent dream
Blind as black with a lullaby hum
Filling the gaps in an empty line
Somewhere between dusk and dawn.

there is a cool fire in the heart of you
under the sands of grace
where the cacti dance with elephants
to songs of threes and two’s

I am candlesticks and moons
you are more than boys and cattle
I watched your smile paint stars
with envy
the greenest of any jungle I’ve seen

it's so easy to talk about loneliness and pain
to romanticize all of these things that i've been feeling
and throw in rhymes here and there

but how do i get myself out of this mess?
how do you fall in love when you're so uncomfortable
with yourself?

it's 5 am again and all i can think of is
how quickly my fingers hover over the keys
and there are people rising but
i still cannot sleep

i am engulfed in sad songs and books and the quotes
in those books that tell me more about myself
than i ever can

(sometimes i wish some dead poets were my friends
and then sometimes i wish i could put on a mask
and masquerade around as another person,
as a stranger even to myself
i feel like i'd be more comfortable then)

tell me, what does it feel like to fall in love?
does it feel like electricity crawling up and down your spine,
like warm fuzzy feelings swirling in your stomach like wine?
and does it last? or do people just pretend?
will i ever find love? or will i be all alone in the end?