fancy myself out of ice i admit: ::::i am scared::::
faking tears into my wine glass
savoring the desire
the vastness of the old
quickness of new
lapping at me like ,,,waves,,,,,,,,,,
i remember a moment and i am too late
to it
if you give me this one i will
give you another one
i appreciate you for playing nice

swift into my lungs he
yells
my name like
i had any option
in worship.
i pretend
this sandy beach
keys going into
incorrect locks i am
correct in locking
him
out.

i smear constellations across my chest
for those heavy days
the rain falling into a sour smell.

a boy once connected the moon to the tides for me
-ran cold-
i fell in love for the first time

a night where i have gone to sleep with full makeup on
knowing full well you will call to pick me up