Aphrodite have I done you so wrong

That you enamore me in loves somber song

Yet leave his holy heart unignited

Cursing me with burning affection unrequited

Why allow me to be denied Anteros

And Eros strike me so cruelly with arrows

That I must make Philia to be enough

When what I desire fervently is his fleeting love

I see now goddess that I you must truly despise

For you sent forth Phobos and Deimos to terrorize

Until I found my heart to be ragged and maimed

Still for their sake I find myself acting as if it's the same

So now I go free from star-crossed crucifixion

A broken heart like broken bones leaves me frail

Woe to be crippled by lost loves malediction

This torturous pain I try to belie to no avail

As if into my chest swords were so cruelly cast

A crown of thorns bound tightly round my head

My truest heart beats desperate to outlast

The purging of loves poison that I had fed

But I feel like this sorrow is swiftly killing me

Like I'm being pulled and torn from within

By Nightmares born from my sweet reverie

And devils oh so eager to punish my sin

I know you're not ready to give the love I ask

So just hold me steady and let these moments last

Where you are my friend, my hope, my dream

The one to send when fear is pulling at my seams

And I'll do my best and I'll hold my love

Close to my chest and make it enough

Until you can share the same love as me

Just be right there and I'll believe

That if that day can never happen

I'll be okay as long as you're my friend

I know this script may end in tragedy

Yet still I play the role that Eros casts

Following the fragments of future and past

Drawn forth by your entrancing melody

I know you come forth on winds of Chaos

Yet still I desire to dance in your storm

Until our fickle hearts in disdain betray us

For a moment let me know your form

I know you can't be mine and mine alone

Yet still this feeling swirls and swells

So be mine for moments carved in stone

Moments for which my soul would gladly endure hell

How I dream to be drunk on your kiss

To be enraptured by dionysian bliss

Free to proceed with unbound desire

To let every touch fill with voracious fire

Stolen from gods and placed in hands

Burning to know your sacred lands

To hear your heart beating in your chest

To feel your lungs fill with bated breath

Your mind your body your soul unveiled

Along with the banes and blessings entailed

Yet for all my wanting I'm filled with fear

If my wish comes to true you'll disappear

I come to you without pretenses or expectation

My truest feelings displayed unbelied

On my sleeve my truest heart I wear emblazoned

Without posture or playfulness or petty pride

What so entangles my mind when you are near

Like a crown of flowers or thorns wound round my head

Dispelling thought clouding reason subduing fear

Enchanted I wander to follow loves sanguine thread

Marching toward my star crossed crucifixion

Of which I shall gladly endure endless hours

For I seek no cure to remedy this sweet affliction

And with joyous praise fall to your powers

I spend days at a time trying to forget I was his second choice

I hate the way he worships Seth with such admiration in his voice

A ******* paragon an idol to him an affection I could never attain

No matter how hard I try to be equal in his eyes it’s all in vain

I love this man more than any other that’s walked into my life

Being reminded I’ll always be second best just twists the knife

The way he said “When we go to visit him don’t be mad at me”

Filled me with rage and pain what else does he expect me to be

A man who couldn’t love him back will always mean more to him

Than the man who would sacrifice his heart, his life, his limbs