Where do we go from here?
now that our hearts
don't beat to the same rhythm
now that our souls
are walking at their
own pace

Where do we go from here?
now that our dreams
of together have died
and our thoughts don't
Include each other anymore

Where do we go from here?
there are no more roses
in our garden of love and
the singing birds do not
sing our love song


Where do we go from here?
most likely to a world
right before we met,
right before the first kiss,
right before we made love

Where do we go from here?
maybe to a healing place
where our hearts could rest
and rebuild for what is next

Remember your mistakes don't define you
Yes they hold you a hostage
Yes you'll be remembered by them
But only your future determinds what you'll be known by

it's quite funy, isn't it?
how you can find yourself
in the arms of a devil.
misusing, abusing
you and you still fell
right for them
thinking they were angels
so many times before
you find an
innocent love.
that you find a love
that has been untanted
someone fresh and crisp
that loves you even if your
heart has been tainted.
this love is what i
now am blithe for
to see the bright eyes
looking at me with
admiration and endearment.

I'm burning in my own hell
Built of my own insanity

Alone and forgotten
Like a crumbled sheet of paper
Until I found you
With your goofy laugh and charming heart
Your love locked me down
Enslaving me in a forever happiness with your tender lips and embracing arms
Sometimes fear appears
Thoughts of loosing your love
Thoughts of not being enough
But life goes on and at the end of the day
My heart beats with yours
my eyes admire you as you admire me
And our last words are always
I love you

As I am writing this poem
I sit alone...
In a messy room upon a messy bed
I'm trying to write the emotions of my crumbled heart
And answer the questions I shouldn't have to ask myself

Whats wrong with me?
Why am I unloved?
Why do I push people away?
Why am I not enough?
Why am I the one who hurts?

I feel as if I'm the forgotten puzzle peice
The peice no one knows is missing
And that there can't even describe what I am feeling
My heart yearns to be noticed
But instead it's left to be bitter and cold

I feel the need to claw at my skin
Shovel tears out of my eyes
Maybe then I won't cry anymore
From all the loneliness
That seems to envelope my soul

Is it too much to ask to be loved?
If it is then I'll continue to sit here alone
In a messy room upon a messy bed
Trying to write the emotions of my crumbled heart
And answer the questions I shouldn't have to ask myself

I strive for a great escape.

A girl sits

     *in a cell

One that she's made

     for herself

Her eyes closed

     and she dreams

For a better tomorrow

       one where she leaves

With no looks back

       *and she is free

I'm just trying to breath

a simple inhale and release

its my lungs, they crave it

that air, and i need to appease

but then there's you

you're something in the way

keep clouding my lungs

but i ask you to stay

you calm me

but **** me with every breath

always keeping you near

our love is nothing short of death

you are laced with nicotine

it wraps its claws around me

never allowing me to leave

not letting me be who i want to be

you are like a cigarette

i feel lifeless without you, almost hollow

but with you i'm filled, granted its with tar

i'm still lifeless with you too