beep
beep
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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I love you and I thought you knew that.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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What happened to the plans we made?

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Your mother called me today.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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You never did your half of the dishes.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Thank you. For everything. I mean it.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Why would you do this to me?

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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*******. You took everything away from me! Everything!

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I'm sorry. Please come back.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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My sheets don't smell like you anymore.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Not even drugs make me happy anymore. You took everything. I hope you know that.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so ******* much.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I love you. I do. I always will. I promise. ****.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so much.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Your sister is shutting off this phone and I don't know what I'll be able to do if I can't call you.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so ******* much. I visited your grave today. I can't believe I've survived fifteen days without you.

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The number you have dialed is not in service. Please check the number and dial again. Good-bye.

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I'll hear your voice again tomorrow. I love you. I'll see you soon.

everyone needs
to leave me alo
ne because it hu
rts me too look
at them and I d
on't know wher
e I am and the
bed reeks of s
ex and laundry
detergent and
when I die will
my hair be stra
ightened? mak
e up my own fu
cking lyrics and
cry a lot and c
ount my allies
on my fingertip
s when did eve
ryone start hati
ng me?? am I
going to hell? i
s this hell? mu
sic isn't beaut
iful anymore b
ecause of you,
you ******* fu
ck why do I ev
en bother with
you why did I
even talk to yo
u you were alm
ost as ****** a
s I am!!! I'm sca
red to stick it t
o the man

THE SMELL OF YOUR HAIR MAKES ME WANT TO VO
MIT BUT THEN AGAIN SO DOES EVERYTHING. IF I BRE
ATHE IN ANY MORE OF THIS FILTERED AIR MY BILE W
ILL COVER THE CARPET. AT TWO IN THE MORNING I W
ONDER IF THE PORTLY MAN WHO ORDERED A SALAD
THAT HE DIDN'T REALLY WANT AT MCDONALD'S COU
LD TELL THAT THE GIRL HE ASKED TO SUPERSIZE HIS F
RIES PERFECTLY RESEMBLED A TEACUP WITH A CRACK
JUST BIG ENOUGH TO LET YOUR PRETENTIOUS ******
G BLACK COFFEE SPILL THROUGH. SHE RAN HER HAN
D ACROSS THE STAR TATTOOS HIDDEN BEHIND HER EA
R BEFORE SHE HANDED HIM HIS CHANGE AND I WONDE
RED IF I COULD OFFER HER A CIGARETTE BEFORE THE GR
EY VAN THAT LOOKS LIKE CONCRETE COMES TO TAKE HER
BACK TO THE JAIL SHE RESIDES IN. MY SKIN IS TURNING
THE SAME COLOR GREY AS THAT VAN AND I AM SEEING
NEW VEINS IN MY ARM AND I AM A SLOUCHED WITHER
ING ENSEMBLE OF DECAY DESTINED TO DIE IN A POOL OF
***** AND BURIED IN THE VERY EARTH THAT KILLED ME

the peonies in the front yard are just starting to bloom.

the only thing i lust for anymore is sleep.
my fingers are aching to touch another human being,
and when a woman lugging around her child
in a stroller asked me the time,
i dropped the package i'd been collecting
from the post office
while fumbling for my phone.
i cried on the way home,
and applied a thick coat
of red lipstick.
thinking perhaps the camouflage of confidence
would hide the fact that i am merely
wilting husk of vapidity.

the peonies in my yard will die
in six weeks.

i kissed nine people on the mouth last night
but i wish i'd been kissing you.
i danced for hours last night
until my feet were numb and my head was spinning.
i wish i had the courage to tell you
i'd much rather have been watching you.
so many people shared their physical
free love with me
but all i could think is "do you still love me?"
and with each beat of the pounding bass-line,
over and over i thought
*"please miss me"
"please miss me"
"please miss me"

there is no such thing as a candid romance,
just words and poses to make people want what you're pretending you've got.

you reek of sulphur, you always did.
the lone match found at the start of an arson.
an insult, a dare:
the embodiment of the phrase,
"make me."

she was so queer,
and looked like my lucky clear lighter;
i could watch the fuel run down
with each cigarette and firecracker lit.

there is no romance
just different ways to start fires.

Your face is tattooed on the inside of my eyelids,
I take your words like medication,
your scent of sunflowers and thunderstorms is so clear to me that
I pretend it lingers on my skin.

Visions of linoleum floors
soaked in your blood;
needles lying on the ground,
your body shaking and taken away
haunt me.
The possible future is filling
my nightmares and I don't know
how to tell you to stop.

You are my drug of choice
but I wish you'd change yours.