Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Ryan Bowdish
Stay over me
I feel you on the water
You converge with my faces
We have no space between

Work your way over my chestplate
Earn me with your stressed delay
Trust me when I keep you safe
I hold you here and dear when you're awake

Leave me to rest
Then you come back along to sing
With my body, you make the world scream
And I rewrite myself in you

So don't use me with the limelight
Like everyone has found in hindsight
I don't need another blindside
I need reanimating twilight

(starlight) to be aligned with you
(streetlights) to be aligned with you
(lifelines) to die inside with you
(hold on) to grow side by side with you

Who will be the one to claim me?
Who will be the one to slay me?
Will the music that I make end up making me?
When will there be lucidity for me?
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Anjelica
A kiss
A hug
a touch
What do they all mean?
They don't mean anything,
you give them meaning.
They are feelings expressed through
finger tips
lips
bodies.
Be there when it happens,
the face of a man coming close
to You.
I giggled,
you might too.
But even after the excitement
and the shared glance and curling of a smile.
When all the blood
rushes to your Heart,
and shocks your toes.
It still has no definition,
no defining meaning behind it.
It is something to be
felt
expressed
and understood
But how can one understand
something the is so far from understanding
that you feel it in your finger nails?
You can't,
you must simply open up to the
Experience
Be there,
don't think about anything else,
Simply Be....

isn't that what we agreed upon?
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Anjelica
Either this stump is getting warmer
or I have just stopped breathing
A ghostly feeling,
what is this body?
He strokes the fur
of the ageless cat
And drinks the sweet Nectar of Time
from her ripe and supple ***.
Will it ever be Time?
This body isn't really here,
You self-indulgent ****
but that stone is here
the one the colour of blood
and the heart shaped ones
that you carried around your neck...
We eat such things here
crunch
crunch
crunch
You don't have a clue
when and where you are,
all you have is a book of square numbers,
and a circle of dots.
Do you remember that place between world,
that place you still remember breathing?
Turn on the fans
and your bright red television,
its time to wake up,
and realize every breath
every step
that your grandfather took
never really happened.
It was something you made up
for your own sick satisfaction
and the cancer is your stomach
was just another weak transaction.
be there now
in the space between time
But would you,
could you even be?
Not with that fat head on your shoulders
or that **** in your pants
It's time to evolve
and you have decided
**that this is your one LAST CHANCE
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Lyka
I'll kiss every part of you.
Plant my love for you,
(which is only yours that you keep hidden,
mirrored the lights of my eyes)
If I planted them like seeds in the wilderness
would you care for them?
Would you bring out your light so that they could grow?
I'll leave small hints along the way to help you
secrets that everyone knows.

That its fire that protects the heart.
But you already knew that.

And when those seedlings turned into flowering trees
we would become children to climb and swing in their branches.
Weaving their blossoms into our hearts and eyes.
And we'd play prince and princess.

And when princess's become queens and
when roses turn into dragons,
We will be lovers in that garden.
And I will rescue fate.

And I will tell you another secret.
That the shadows you fear, are the ones terrified of you,
because they know how strong you really are.
And the moment you realize this
they will be nothing more then the ash left after a forest fire.
Making way for the new seeds
Which you can plant next to mine.
Living and dying
are not so dissimilar from
swimming upstream
and being pushed
by the current
downstream,
respectively.

It is not a matter of
how well equipped you are
to swim upstream,
It is, however,
a matter of application.
-30/30-
--
Death is a wondrous thing:
not in that I envy the dead
but in that it so defies language.

Death, of itself, is a rather dull topic. Uninteresting.
But the implications of the asymmetrical nature of Life
reflect many of those we theoretically deduce and induce of the Universe itself.

We, and all the things around us,
are but spontaneous expressions and manifestations
of that which defies description.

We arise, we exist, and we return again.

It defies description not because no one has experienced it,
or because we don't try to translate it when we do experience it,
but rather because no one has the capacity
to translate this experience
into the languages we happen to use
such that
it can be shared with others
much less
become common knowledge.
(Assuming also that others would be willing and able to understand)

In fact, I feel that we've all died already.
Maybe once, maybe an infinite number of times.
We just can't seem to recall it,
and even if we do,
it mocks us with it's ineffability:

I feel that death is the inevitable night
from which one awakens
at the dawn of the day of one's Life.

*Circles beget Spirals.
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
And with the first pop of a champagne bottle
To bring in this New Year,
Comes the first bite of depression
That will once again topple my balance
As I walk against the wind,
Against the grain,
Through these winter months.

It is a sad state of affairs,
Old songs with tortured lyrics
Of a time I always think has past,
A juvenile whine
That will always hit me in the *** on the way out.

I imagine swinging limp from a branch,
A bright blue string to match the lips,
Swing, swing.

A pool of ***** too shallow to drown in
Too deep to keep down the capsules,
Gag, gag.

It is that time of year
Where the words fall lifeless on the page
And the only thing that shines
Is the glow of the screen,
And the traffic lights stuck on red.

It is not the sadness,
Sadness is easily tolerated.
Low maintenance.

It is the stretch of endless indifference,
A flavourless meal
And those hours lost
Staring blankly past the door
And seeing nothing but the ghosts of memories
Dancing in the hall.
seasonal affective disorder
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
Every era that has ever been
Has engaged in the auto-dissection
Of their yellowing underbellys.

Yes, every generation has predicted
that the end is nigh,
That god is on their side;
But the devil has a crowbar
And is busting out of the basement.

Each decade is a mimicry of the last.
Different fashions, same trends
And always, with a fool on the hill.

A lonely steel harmonica can pierce the airwaves
Across space and time,
Through the grooves and crackles
To enthral an audience,
And to beguile that every generation
Into believing in their autonomy,
Their solitude,
With a fate independent of all those centuries past.

Through every disembodied spew of Dylan lyrics,
Or the corporeal and common alienation
Sympathised in every Wilde reference,
Comes the same fury at the chaos of a world
That is no more than indifferent at the plight of the people it houses.

Indeed,
Every generation has sought to either
Cure the ills of the Earth;
Or else set lighter fluid to the lot.

This stretches back to the first blood-spattered edition of the Bible,
And further, much further.
To all of the captains,
The heroes,
The anti-heroes,
The road gritter,
The malevolent dictator,
The schoolteacher,
The emancipated woman
And the borderline feminist.
To every young child who is reluctant to take the spotlight,
Or look you in the eye,
Ask questions, or speak out.
For every one of those who at some point were labelled
‘maladjusted’.

And so the Pharaohs and Caesars are all but gone now,
Replaced by the big-wigs,
The fat-cats,
The purple hearted,
The playboys -
The men in suits.
But they are all the same.

The same behind the decadence of
A solid gold sarcophagus
Or an Armani pair of shades.
They all built their empire on shifting sands.

And so we will all kick and scream
To our own tone and our own time
At the indignity of the world.
At our bespoke knowledge
To deal with all inconvenience
But that which privates the preclusion
Of any and all major slaughters of justice.

As for that young child,
With the lack of eye contact -
And all that he will become:
He will sit. And he will type.

He will type until his words fall beyond that
Of the spiralling noises inside his mind
And blossom into something pure and ugly and beautiful.
He will sit and he will write

To forget.
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
Since I was a child I believed.

Believed in the near tangible,

The provable

The almost-rational.

I could never swallow the bitter pill of faith,

Religion,

God,

The dust and ash of rinsed out fables.



I still search the skies with a lack of avail.

I’d settle for a twitch of movement

But I dream of those purple beams,

So violent and foreign.

The opening of the doors

Should budge our closed minds.
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
To yearn to be a writer is to capture those moments of infinite depth in which you find yourself lost inside of a chasm of glorious detail.
When the thud of your heart matches the bleating of your throat as you inhale your first cigarette of the day and you check yourself to the rhythm of your footsteps, wary of the overseer of your self-effacing doubts.
A writer has a depression. A depression to scale the peaks of dizzy happiness and endure the barren salt marshes of a harrowing self-loathing.
This depression will hit a writer in waves and can experience both extremes in the time taken to try on a new shirt or to catch a glimpse of their reflection in a shop window.
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
Paws
 Feb 2013 Darkin
Edward Coles
You were a shadow to me,
You would follow me without question
Around every corner and on the fold of a bedsheet.
You would leave the house
Explore a tree
But you always left a trail of pinecones
To find your way back home.

The graceful thud of your paws
On my sleeping body,
Black fur darned with white socks
And I loved you,
I always loved you.

Life had dealt us a silent friendship,
Language was our deficiency
But we made it our own
Speaking through pupils
And reading the curve of our bodies.

And you were small,
You were always so small.
The runt of the litter
But you had the personality
To **** all the demons
That had scattered in my head through the day
And lull me back to sleep.

This knot in my stomach,
And the tears I concede
Are all for you and I don’t want to stop.
I will atone for every summer as a child
Lost in a dizzy haze of fun,
As you sat in the window
And waited for me.
Just waited.

Now it is my turn.

I saw you break into a shadow of yourself,
Even smaller every day
As you faded away by degrees.
I saw you fall limp into a dreamless sleep
And now as you are buried beneath the snow
I hope the first thing you see is me sat at the window.
Next page