I am letting the telephone ring
unsure if its you
and if it was what I'd say or do
I silence the tone
A part of me does not want to know
but then again I need to
I wish you'd just leave me alone
I've remained haunted by this ghost

I collect all the pieces of continuous reminiscence
From a space that will never be replaced nor decay in time
It remains entombed, tranquil, and sublime
Locked away in my mind
Revitalized Infinitely

Building steadily momentously Epic
Lighting my stem electric transmission
Mind
Body
Spirit
atoned
Vibrating to a distant realm
My eyes like fire as sensation rises
I am that I am
A soul freed from night

With such vigorous opposition
The only thing that is left is perdition
Will the soil ever produce quite the same
What a shame
War and peace carpooling in the fast lane
Justified through producing excuses and rage
A dissension the history books might explain
But those who carry the pain will wane
All empathy lost in the jagged print of a factual page
How many contradictions will we endorse before we realize
How many children will die before we sympathize

Stationed by belief
As hungry carts push on
Destined to the checkout lines with a fist of great deals
Forgotten once cashed
Repackaged in plastic wrap where flesh was once sacred
Commercial clichés provoking the same old reflections and interests
In the midst of clones and lapse of reason
Controlled and reduced to produce more and more
but the score lacks anything to do with the salvation found in art form
As chained souls morn in the ashes of the wake
We must transcend and break the links
For these ties are the kind that bind minds
I stand alienated and tongue tied as my mind's eye
sets the grocery store into flames
For the dependence and poison it bakes
While trains of unclassy gluttonous tarts
bump carts programmed to jump start
Relinquishing will and spilling milk
I cried out a river of chill

I climb to the edge of sacrifice
and I grasp the feeling within my hands
and pray that I am right
as I set the dove free
it was released forever from the likes of me
too beautiful of a thing to be caged
and as it flew I fell

Now when I close my eyes
I see them high in the sky soaring like angels
from above
I see them in every sunrise and sunset
those beautiful doves

Although I can not reach them
I am no longer sad
because those beautiful white wings
Are free from all the pain of this world
Something I've never had

The sea was black and the sky ran red
The blues rang out in different hues
Of emptiness and revenge
If only his eyes could conquer this
However I know not of my other half
Nor how another's iris could decipher my soul's fire
A girl grows bitter
In seeking him
A woman changes her tones
Defeating her own demons

Love can feel like a plague sometimes
infectious and sickening
I've never felt this type of fear
Will you be coming back to me?
My mind is spinning but my world has
stopped
It's so exhausting and crippling
and your a thousand miles away
yet sitting right next to me
Don't go I beg of you
I am reduced to this....

Fleeting moments pass within the blink of an eye
The more you try to grasp the more time takes and robs you blind
I try to embrace the rapid fire but it burns my chest to ash
Watching as everything I've known drifts past
Out of reach and washed away with bleach
Till there's no color left
Only desperate breaths
and piercing silence
As if I've suffered some tragic death
To gain is to lose and to lose is to gain
But as a creature of routine I strain to maintain
Rythem
But the song is long gone
Now left with fragmented thoughts and a broken wardrum
Undone

We had our time
Hot summer nights
Dreaming under the stars
Kissing scars and getting completely lost
in eachother arms
We bloomed like vibrant flowers
and wept tears of joy
May showers
Talked about our love for endless hours
It was us we entangled in unity
But too soon we experienced the fall
Inevitably we reached a flaw
and those petals withered in the chill
We died out and lost the thrill
This winter has lasted far too long
You're far gone yet I'm still here musing along
Waiting for spring

Plastic,extensions,cosmetics oh my!
High heels and gel
Perfumes and bells
Ah! The great lengths
and lows we reach
to achieve that image
from some big shot magazine
you tell me what's real

I fell into your arms
After tripping over stone cold fact
You held me for a moment until the shock wore off a bit
Giggling warmly at my clumsiness
and I couldn't help but share the laugh
Just then I realized how long it had been
Since someone reminded me to do that

I can picture us
sitting on our porch during sunrise
Rays glistening off the morning dew
Staring into eachothers
wrinkled eyes
   Indented by a thousand shared smiles
As tears of joy run down our faces
in the realization that all of our dreams came true

I can see us
gracefully reaching the end of our days
Reminiscing as the sunsets on your beautiful face
Holding tightly onto eachothers hands
   Laughing at all the things we used to do
and the thing that gets me each and everytime
is I have no doubt you see it too

I'm planting seeds in December
I planted One for love
Two for peace
Three for every moment I felt the breath of eternity
slipping through your lips as I brushed mine across your flesh
gracefully grazing with my fingers
the curve in your back
Healing the strain and tension that your work had let in
I held my left hand above your skin
and prayed the pain that had sunk in
would flow into me
I drew it out persistently
I took it all in a heart beat
and I watched as your mind drifted off quitely
Hoping it would lead you into serenity
With my right hand I projected
all the beauty I had collected
while watching the sun decend sleepily into the sea
and I witnessed you exhale all the trials you faced recently
My hands now taking you into a vast journey
Your conscious mind lulled into sleep
and I talked with you telepathically
Tracing the points sensationally
Touching upon subjects that needed to be
Soulfully blessing the night with a gift of insight
My love I felt everything
Unthawing the earth with the spark of spiritual empathy
I planted four seeds for always
and five for our hopes
The six I had left I repeated the first three
and I watched them grow
Two bonded effortlessly
into One being
Corresponding
Equilibrium
Perfectly
Forget-me-nots began flourishing

I cling to our sheets
grasping your pillow firmly
catching faint traces of your scent
My body bent and curled into its smallest form
and I think of all the circumstances that left your promise torn
The unpredictable has robbed me once more
of all the contentment I  had held in your loving arms
and through the tears I find a way to grin ever so slightly
Holding onto the faith that carried us through our struggles previously
Your face for now remains so far from my reach
I close my eyes in desperation hoping you'll come to me in my sleep

You gave me a rush with the slip of your tongue
your eloquence radiating hot from your lips
As sligh as a fox your wit tied a knot
I yanked just alittle abashed at the fact I was caught
zeroing in
Your hand reached for my chin
as my gut wrenched and screamed
I caved and grinned
and let my eyes meet your defined brow
like a tree in the forest
this beating went on without a sound
and my intoxication soared but was more played upon
I'll be your little fool
your scapegoat
your mouse
but rest assured one day I'd gnaw my way out

It was quite the fiasco based on figment
Finite and forged
Our affair kept me famished
Fabricated and farce
Merely a fantasy where I featured a feasible feather
So far from my flock
Forlorn on a foreign turf
Why me?I began to fathom
Flustered as I fought the formidable

He was a vandal
Vigorous and vindictive
I'd often venture to misapprehend his vacant vitality leaving me indifferent
I became lost in this vagabond
Now left voided and breaking under scrutiny
This vermin could be the death of me

Drawn with a rapid heart and quickened breaths
I reached with sweaty palms
Eyes tearing
Mind out of wit
Giving into and coming out of the truth I once inhabited
To find anew like all caged rebels do when the casing no longer fits
Shell shocked my ears popped as sonic waves dropped
and I rode them down past hell hounds to find new grounds to stomp
Playing new fields and tilling old earth
Planting to birth something taller and less green
Yearning for clarity and found in small charities
Giving everything that I've got
To transcend and breath easy once again lest I rot
Off in search of who I really am
and remembering who I'm not

Soundwaves Break
Vibrating through as
his heart swells
Building up sensations
an unignorable spell
Releasing an excitment
so divine he slides
out of his hiding
and begins to rise

A blanket of warmth and close stitch
caress my skin comforting me
Heavy eyes symbolizing
peaceful nights
my worries shrink to childish thought
and laughter
I am pulled into a dream
in which you've brought to me
where the nightmares of today's
strife can not enter nor taint
and I am on the brink of a trance-like
sleep where I am aware
yet trusting held tightly in your hands
you keep me on the breezier side of cares
your love a dancing flame creating a cozy room
your smell intoxicates while locked in a sweet
embrace consumed by your aura
and baby blue's
you whisper so softly tales of forever
and the belief follows every utter
of the tune
I continue holding you as the tears roll down
and I wish I could capture them
for they were pure
full of truth and happiness
Once so jaded this feeling belated
but its finally arrived and it seems right on time
saving me from the terrors of love once known
I could see myself in you forever
balancing eachother as a whole
we fit as tho we were made for the other
and I am beginning to believe this is true
Sean Mathew Eckert I ode to you
and I will shout it from the rooftops
so all shall know

After a brush with death
his eyes were like kaleidoscopes
the scene reflected himself in relation
to an ever changing world

he felt impermance
in an after glow
as the sun decended behind
the mountain's asylum

Soldier Summit's quieted railroad
an attraction to some
but for others a refuge
after a long and hateful dawn

May their souls rest in peace
those who eternally are blanketed by snow
and may the moutains speak
to the survivors who fight to reach the top of them

I savor the peace that silence brings
the air seems to coat me like the winter's snow
escaping away to that quiet place where
the world cant touch me and I'm left alone
I've learned the magic in these moments
where my mind takes off like a pack of wild horses
free to decide where ever they may roam
Freedom from judgement or ridicule

A ring
welcoming
the smell of fresh coffee.
Intimate conversation

is white noise
to the melody in the mundane
coffee order of his familiar voice
that captures mine.

Although I’m earnest while saying hello,
her grin holds a thousand secrets;
the few words I manage seem small,
but she continues to collect them for her tip jar.

Hidden in line, he's disguised his affection.
She awaits his arrival, his orders; they share
silence. An unfilled cup and connection
swept away, unnamed, a new cross to bare.

I knew a man once
who saved me from destruction
He had this crazy way about him
Within his presence you couldn't help
but feel alive

He was generous
and proactive
His salvation was achieved
through helping others

He had a savings account
in which he'd drop his change
and soon he'd accumulated
so many wonderful things

But none of these things could be found
in his home for they were nothing of material
many times in life he'd been broken down on
the side of the road

A feeling I believe we've all had a chance
to know
and he vowed from then and still today
if he witnessed this event he
wouldnt walk away

Through bankruptcy he kept this account
Refusing to help himself
and whom ever found themselves broken
down were surely lucky when he came around

Generousity for him was a necessity
Helping others was for his own benefit
because giving others hope
meant the world to him
No doubt thats money well spent

The wind chimes played an awful tune
Off beat and so quick to assume
Consuming what's left of a peaceful night
Disturbing it with pitches too low or too high
Laughable to believe and fed to the dead
Whose lives seem better when misled
So may the birds tweet and let the dogs bark
I cant control the wind nor wish to win hearts

I am experiencing writers block.Does anyone have any ideas or a topic they'd like to share?Comments and suggestions will be highly appreciated!

The nights seem to last longer...
I watch the minutes crawl upon the ceiling
As I replay every word exchanged
From your tired lips unto my walls
Splatters of colorful paint decorate every brick placed
and you can almost trace the misunderstandings
If you examine the situation close enough
The fear comes from wanting
The pain is cradled in longing
and I wonder how I ended up falling
Pointless thoughts that keep my mind soaring
So far from reason's reach
and it's been too long this night
That day has breached

If only I could wipe the bitterness from my tongue
and rub the pain from my eyes
As if it were some dream
that never truly touched me
I'd find the purity I was born with

I feel humility has hit a brickwall
in the wake of technology
and empathy is out cold
The reprecussions far from decent
It's reality TV on speed
Racing with our conscious
Deluded minds recognize with a
Virtual exsistence
As a human I amit this
in the hopes the message will wake
the warped sims
and help them find discipline

I was born in a hole
in a cracked foundation
beneath the surface of the earth
with tiny over grown windows
in which the light of the sun
would come only in small doses
at the time of the waking dawn
through the blades of grass and tiny weeds
that covered its pane and hid the sky from me
as a child I'd chase that tiny stream
of light
that managed to escape somehow to grace me
I would sit in those tiny rays
and taste the world
Finding happiness in something so small
Now I can step out into the sun
but seldom do
my inner child crying as I sleep
steadily through
That moment in which the light had finally found me

It could rain for 40 days and nights
flooding the streets incessantly
and he still looks on lovingly
as the water destroys everything
and he's left treading on resiliently
gripping my hand firmly
keeping my mind from drifting
singing to me steadily
as the winds pick up and pelt his face
the tears like stone engulf my place
yet he stands and braves the storm
carrying on
refusing to let me drowned in sorrow
A spirit so strong VS a mind so narrow

Dusk drains your color casting shadows on your face
and your lines seem deeper with a frown much steeper
As sweat swells and expels streaking worry whilst the situation gets bleaker
Like a rock in your sneaker a fret you cant shake
Another night shaped by the unrelenting shame
Enraged by the mishaps and the things that dictate from the past
That you just can't grasp nor seem to mask
The pain only grows and unfolds every time you are asked
As memories flash and leave you abashed
Debilitated yet you still thrash through sleepless nights
for the terrors are rehashed
Suddenly wrongs seem right
Your spite grows despite your mold
Good men break bold
and look for loop holes
At times even justice does not seem justified
and a monster is born behind tired tear filled eyes

I love the blues
the melancholy
never fails to capture my
despondent state of mind

Not something relished
but has become an obsession
those low chords strumming
harmoniously

A splash of liquor could
amplify
The pity party
The speakers high

Even if I could disguise
I do not dare hide dimise
because I dont have a fashion sense
and I cant stand negligence

I feel the sharp realities pierce straight through my wanna be day dreams
I look at you with uncertainty and strain to keep the questions from surfacing
If I could only stay in this fanciful game of believing and achieving  
But too soon my scars start seeping the deception and leave you uneasy
I want to be the girl you imagine but I am made up of lesson
I hate to be the one to show you things aren't always as they seem

You took everything
and returned to the scene
To take home some images of victory
and I knew too late what happend
Staring right into your eyes as the realization ended
All I could do was try to look anew
Attempting not to bleed right through
While I splashed about in shallow waters
I'll just have to learn how to go without
The shame in this game will never max out
and you left me there weeping
Sold me cutthroat trout
I ate it up
Gluttonously
Then spit out the bones of the person I used to be
She's so far from me
I ode to the quicksand beneath my feet
To the weasle who found a way into my keep
The racoon who robbed me so blind
and left me defiled morales
Now left behind and strung about
I graced him like a loser should
I fought but much too late I understood

Its the line we all dread to hear
and once the card is on the table
everyone screams *******
but in some cases
it holds true
I was always the one to step in my
own way
preying upon my mind
illuding myself at every turn
I regret this matter it leaves me cold
shivering at what people may have felt
left wondering in an after thought
But I can assure you it was never you
it was my twisted mind and bent will

When the world crumbles and erodes
there are few witnesses who make a call
they wait to recieve a ring
desperately
carrying on restlessly
and like a tree that has fallen in the
middle of nowhere their lack of a voice
makes us question the damage
or if the events have even happend
but internally we are all left shaken
waiting on a hero who only exsists in legend

Eyes catch fire with desire for days passed
Vibrant memories cling to the lids of your closed eyes
Chasing could've
Fancy Would've
But it's all lost in time my friend
Open up to today
Behold what you're denying yourself of
Learn to love

Perched like a Raven
on the limb of a mighty tree
Overlooking the cemetery
It's so strange it was almost like a dream
A stone cold truth rowed out beneath
This was the mouth of the river
The place where it all starts and ends
So seldom does it make any sense
much like myself
A belonging sets in
It all felt so solid and so complete
All it was lacking was me

In an instant it dissipated
Dissolving into regulated patterns and cycles
of heart wrenching battles that always brings about the rain

My distain falls short for I am also at blame
In his name
His name...
I see something untamed
It is a beast of burden that ignites me into flames

Motivating and tempestuous
A storm to be famed
It knocked me for a loop
Guiding me on my path and waking me from my stoop

Hawk eyes with a diamond mind
He is a predator disguised
The lines become faded
I must be jaded
Is it love or hatred?

I feel galvanized and shook
Lost in his book
Each chapter leaves me breathless
Hanging on a word
That's blurred by my tears and fears

The kind of events and plots
that will remain with me for years

Nothing but a shred of hope
That is surely something

I am lost in a space I cant claim
with shape shifters playing some twisted little game
and I have been pawned into the unknown
Far from any sort of counsel
With silent watchers eyeing my back
Sizing me up to see what I lack
As if I've been put to a test
I cant tell if I've been granted some sort of pass or sentence
As I cling to the fringes of my past
Holding onto the false security I never truly had
and love is lost in midst of this war
Is it myself or someone else trying to settle some score?
Is this heaven's gate or the fires of hell?
What's one without the other?
My skin bloats and swells
As the sea lightly salts my skin
Will I be eaten alive or am I learning to swim?
The question is where I'll go from here
Does the path lead to clarity or am I forever caged in confusion?

The night falls
Dimming the tensions and strife these lonely days bestow
as she holds tightly to her phone
His voice singing in her ears
And she gazes at the moon only seeing his face
Slipping into a dream of his warm embrace
Imagining heaven beside him
His words guide her
Displacing the angst of love loss
Replacing it with the harmonious song of yearning hearts
He is the man in the moon
The missing puzzle piece
A new start building her up from the rubble of destructive thought
Tearing down her notions of not being good enough

He who leads is wonderous indeed
and those who follow are surely weak
I want to break the pack mentality
and rise individualized
For a pack is only as strong as one
Imagine the army we could create

I once had stars for eyes
a draw a pull inescapable
and you would drink from my river
and bath in my waters

At my lowest beneath the surface
I can be so sharp and jagged
and my easy floater couldnt hack it
his feet searching for shore

The current strong
as I pushed him along
A ride not soon forgotten
and mercifully I spit him out

But he'll still have to face my serpants

I am sleepless
Counting the pauses in your speeches
Wondering what you were thinking
or trying to conjure up for projection
and this yearning is much like an affliction
An infection of affection that's now holding me in reflection
Yet I fail to mention your betrayal to my desperation
and remember only the sound of your breath and your chest heaving
As you went on and on aiming for that academy award
Turning tables and settling scores
like so many times before...

She was stunning
in the both senses
beautiful yet confusing
like you didnt know what
to make of her
like she just knocked you in your nose

illusive and cunning
never to be trusted
a sly smile that reflected
a grimace in my eyes

She walked in the room and
all were consumed by her
but all I got was **** and Fragrance

To believe that everything we encounter
is formulated and manifested
from our own subconscious
Is to believe that we have complete control
of our own destinys

Never being a victim of another
rather attracting them with our own
need to percieve a message
As if looking through the eyes of your true being

We are all projections
of ourselves and only this
and the more we reject this notion
the longer the suffering will persist

Life is a journey full of questions
uncertainty is found in each persons heart
wavering in what can be trusted and
what can not

But this secret this law has no alternative
goal other than catering directed to spirit
it ask not for your money nor your soul
it only reflects an ultimate goal

To answer the questions that are not easily found
such as Who am I?
and What do I want?
The soul is infinite and the universe unbiased

Not everything we find will be favorable
but take it in stride and trust that you needed
whatever is bestowed upon you and your sight
Each day a reflection of spirit

I stood in the aftermath
stunned and on the verge of breaking
mistaken and led astray
displaying dulled shades of grey
with not one to blame
and no grounds to gain
temptations and desire
the devils play
and I watched the cards rain down in flames
so hot to touch so bitter the taste
too devasted to keep a poker face
As the mob watches laughing at my dismay
I cradled a sentiment that lost all value
a picture frame flooded by my immoral statue
but there he stood before my eyes
I scratched out my face and gazed into his eyes
Remembering always falling sweet from his lips
I'll **** myself forever looking back on this