We bloom like jasmine
Emanating exotic essence
The smell is enough to intoxicate
Enraptured I captured the heat from your flame
Glistening as each word peaks and captivates
Leaving me breathless
Vivid imagery penetrates and consumes my senses
The longing becomes astounding
Arousing  
Leading me into binding
I implore your mercy
For I am so thirsty
My mouth salivates at the thought of your lusting
No longer trusting my inhibitions
Because I can't hold back when it comes to your rhetoric
Your tongue is too precise and bombastic
Undeniably ******
Waves of ecstasy wash over me
The undertow bringing me far out to sea
You're almost otherworldly
I beg thee show me mercy

3:40 in the morning
the pain wakes me
I find myself clawing at the bed sheets
grinding my teeth
my mind escapes to some place serene
the first snow fall
the sunset
my love's eyes first thing in the morning
my body contorts....
I think of a baby's giggle
people dancing a number
chasing my friends at 11 years old down the block

I begin to shake
I think of soft serve on a hot day
sinking into a hot bath
kissing so sweetly in moments of tenderness
my father daughter dance

I get ****** back into the ache
I fight it
I dispell it from my mind
like a thorn in my side
Mind over matter
matter doesnt mind
pain the only reminder I'm alive
I must embrace this

To the all knowing Miser
I am far wiser for I have found a way to keep smiling
And though my clothes are ragged
Your edge is jagged
My will is of benevolence and teachings priceless
I wouldn't pay a penny for your thought
At the roots of all evil I'd call you Kenevil
but you wouldn't dare to spare heart
and while you loose all meaning as you dole your ill dealings
I'll observe with great seething
and pray that one day you'll fall from my ceiling
To haunt me no more

Significance decreased as your speech began to reek
with pretentious hypocrisy revealing conspicuous shortcomings
Importunately making conclusions based upon illusions
Spouting lines to save but delirium is all you gave
As if I were seeking your confirmation, salvation, or blessings
I would've asked your opinion if I valued your progression and prosperities
or wondered into a church if I sought duplicitous appease
This unrequited love you deal is meretricious and full of disease
You sell a lie until it's spent then devour what is left of one's esteem
You depend on the humiliation and degradation of another
to accommodate the hostilities you experience from others
Passing off insurmountable grief to save yourself from your own realities
I hope one day you find peace and revelation
Before someone else is enraptured by your false persona falling victim to your belittlement and fluctuations

Confidence held in a grin of crimson lips
Eclipsed by the duped intentions of shady corporate slips
Maybe she was born with it
Or maybe she reads too much Covergirl
It is not easy to be a young woman in this world

She sat bewilder and rejected by the world
her hair dreaded clothes torn and stained with time
remains torn
she gazed at me longing
seeking shelter from the storm
the rain poured upon her shoulders
a lost soldier among the scorn
I read into her character
as if the scene were a book
and I thought of all the jackals
who must've shook and took
she sat withered like a flower in the
midst of December
I could tell if left there she'd surely die from
the weather
I was this women and she was me
together we were locked
in mystery wondering
longing
An exchange of a smile
and she was on her knees
begging for a ride a conversation
some relief
my door ajar
welcoming
inviting her into a place of warmth and understanding
motherly I consoled
she was my sister daughter love
she was everyone I ever cared about
trapt in a cardboard box
with a shake of her hand I read her palm
her troubles and despair
I spared some change a ride and empathy
hoping it was enough for her
if I could only save her I'd change her
I'd  change the world but for now
I'll fufill my mission
and allow her soul to fufill hers

I was spinning round and round
I didn't notice I had been found
Abashed at first when you caught my arm
Whirling me into your world
Into your arms
At first I feared I had been spun into a web
But instead you made me a cocoon
That I consumed and flew out of
Who knew that it would mean so much
When you danced with me
Declining the role of a crutch

Tiny hands and little feet
She's the very reason my heart beats
Gripping my finger oh so tight
Kept safe in my arms all through the night

Her eyes have yet so much to see
For now she's content just gazing at me
Her life is held within my hands
Before I know it she'll be able to stand

Each day she grows and shows her strength
But like her mama she lacks in length
Her voice is angelic
Her hair so long
She looks like her daddy but she's moody like mom

I never knew that I could love someone
To this extent and this strong
She is changing my perspective and
nurishing my soul
To give her what's best is now a lifetime goal

I may not have much and I may be flawed
But I would give and change everything
to be a great mom

A moment in your eyes could stay sketched in mind timelessly
The power your piercing gaze holds makes my mind crumble translating to stutters
of expressionless wonders
Intensity keeps a smile from forming
Feelings spike to shock and speechlessness
As layer by layer I begin unfolding until naked and completely unraveled
A surrender that kept me motionless
I want to run
I want to hide
But I'm left clinging to your sleeve heaving
As I morn the loss of the self I once fit into comfortably
I almost unwillingly dispelled the anchor that held me down
and drifted until my tired body felt the sand of safe grounds
It was your island
It was your stability
It was all recognized when you took my hand with great agility
I sat in tears letting the gold fall through my hands
Watching it glisten as my foot prints trailed along
I took time to kiss the new land I stand upon
Then looked up ambitiously with anew strength ready to explore

My mind dismantled
decaying in cynic pride
silly fools galavanting
as I watch in bitter taste with darting eyes
wilting in devine nothings
plotting like a theif in the night
working my magic out of spite
only looking for a fight
trying to hate and fuel a rage
Banging in a rusty cage
while spitting on the notion of love
undone lying naked laughing alone
as all of my nightmares begin to unfold
Dancing demons caressing my weakened soul
Darkness surrounds my brittle bones
so far from the point of console
as I tare out my eyes and spit out my tongue
with ears only tuned for the devils song
Slowly dragged to the gates of hell
beyond redemption and cast out

I dream of a face that I cant quite place
However I feel I've known it once in vivid detail
I exhale long sighs through out the night
Tossing and turning
Yearning for the love I thought I had found
Divided by uncertainty and a distance too profound
Touching my neck where your breath once fell
Swearing to catch faint drifts of your smell
Imprisoned by my perceptions and reveries
I've created this hell with falsified memories

I sign my name to each tragedy that streams incessantly
I pour the lines with traces of blood
Crimson hues staining my paper
I sign my name to the work reflecting my shame
My guilt
My unproductiveness
And try to gaze more deeply into the abyss that is my mind
I try to dispense the trash that heaps and swells to great heights
Framing the walls I do not dare to climb
For the fear of falling
I sign my name with red velvet petals that wither too quickily
In such short time
Displaying my pain as if it held beauty
As if it were a crime

Eyes flickered like dancing flame
Our desires untamed
Unyielding
Enrapturing and bringing about weightlessness  
I long to escape to this timeless place only we create
So surreal and shapeless
This passion kills the faithlessness
Exhaling the dark matters
Willing a change in the seer and patterns
My soul cried out a plea
Never take this heaven away from me

He wore a stripped shirt
that resembled the twist of serpants
though he smiled warmly his eyes were
steady on the dollars
placing labels and badges on all
the soldiers fighting to pay rent
and live in times so far from purpose
I kick back and watch him scribble
false notice
prescribing a pill to every effect from
this life
its left me purging
I hate the institutions
the corrupt unjust
sick ***** sedating my
passions and
numbing me up
smart went to another place
outside your local village where
the villians mix the chemical
perserves in your children's fillings
I cant help the way I percieve what
I have seen
I cant help that my fall from innocents
was rougher and obscene
I cant stop thinking of the misuse
of power and money mongers
I want to burn the kingdom
hoping it'd grow back to something better
misguided we walk off cliffs and to the slaughter
or we come back as our fathers paper back novel
excellence for me has fallen to resistence
because I simply cant stand this kind of exsistence
go ahead and direct me to another perscription
corrupt everything in my mind that makes me human
I'm ODD to the extreme !
I reject most of you and the latest thing
and now this man sits here
telling me I'm sick and spiraling
as he shakes hands with satan
defiling minds from eyes that only see green
and I pay my way to see this jackal conspiring?!
You can keep your advice your diagnoses and the dice
I'll leave you now to gamble with the rest of the villager's lives

If it all should fall apart
I will fall with it
desperately holding onto grace
watch it all displace and collapse
into truth
-wanted above all eles
including love
let the pieces sing symphonies
of shaksperian philosophies
I will bleed and drain
the impurity
and banish the thought of been
embracing the facts
I should have
tis better to lose they say
I say never is a better suitor

There's so much to gain through pain
The struggles bring about an irrevocable strength
Although at times we lose our fight
Each dawn beckons begging us to rise
Courage is the ability to see that so much more could be
Regardless of the troubles that elude you to believe in impossibilities
Before you start cursing your cares away
Remember to look ahead to see what is truly at stake
Tomorrow is a new day

He excited me into euphoria
His lips the nectar of ambrosia
Beatifying and leaving me exuberant
Centralizing my spirits
Focalizing my intentions to purity and growth
Bringing about equanimity true still calm invoked
I worshipped his sapphire portals
Reflections of hope and irresistible seduction
Falling gracefully to his charm
Fitting perfectly into his loving arms
Cradling my desires and nurturing my aching heart
Eternity felt within his touch
Impacting instantly a harmonious start
Staining and rippling
changing me
I longed for this being before knowing his name
I trusted once more and so much I've gained

I wan't a new pair of shoes
that are made for tough terrain
That people admire
tightly laced
where I can leave an imprint
on every place I roam
I need new shoes for I have grown

Imagine utopia!
Your mind lit up like a christmas tree
unable to hide a single thing
at mercy to the powers that be

Come on were talking telepathy!
A fundamental algorithm indeed
they'll sell it, they'll push it, they'll force it?
guess we'll just have to wait and see

How exciting!
May be we'll be the ones
may be your kids or their kids
but one thing is quite clear

We are all Lab Rats running the wheel.

Vengeful souls demand recognition
as the blood fills the cracks in our foundations
and our genetic code is the biggest cop out ever known
As the media sells out and buys into the latest solution
Predicament home grown
When the problems run deeper than the sewage
they run deeper than the refineries and plastic seas
Tho they all serve as an example of the lacking
The lack of a proficent economy
and if someone is capable of defaecating where they eat
Whose to say they care for whats on your plate?
More and more we see the collaspe socially in our race
So what I dont understand is the shock when a man
brings a pipe bomb with intent to displace
Everyone is afraid of the yellow flag of terrorism
yet neglect the true issues when it turns red
Neglecting the many motives of an internal suspicion
So next time you go to stomp your former man
To dehumanise and overwork him
Remember your local postal hand
and how even the sanest can be pushed over the edge

Just in
There is no Justice for us all
Men fall into a system
with fake weapons at the draw
The paper says more
than your alibis ever could
To put lives above the game
I wish you would
To me it all seems crooked
bending to the schemes
A bunch of false conclusions
based upon hypocrisy
Before you judge so harshly
and you burn him at the stake
I ask how many of your doings
were right and the jury unpaid

I crave one moment
bright and astonishing
filled with revelations
liberating my mind
A moment that could
change everything
leaving this stagnation
behind

If only today I could meet your gaze
and wrap you in my arms
Caressing the dangers of passion and love
For this is much more than lust
I crave the risk that will follow your kiss
The meaning that reins from your lips
and grips me
Despite the distance
Courageously I hunt for thee
Throwing caution to the wind
As my head spins
Ready to dive in

As the night consumed the last rays of dusk
I prepared myself for the hours of loss
The air so thick and unsettling
Another night spent pondering
Each moment less bearble than the last
I must have been a fool to fall into this

I live in my own fantasy


Where insincere compliments are accepted
and sincere compliments are rejected
In my own little world I can always escape
the true realities of myself there by
mirroring myself
always in opposition of that which is I

Industry hides under a cunning guise
in which we are blinded
gorgonized
They certainly aren't for you and yours
priorities are set on higher scores
Lost we are
in the wake of corporate greed
in which bottom feeders
fufill and satisfy the belly of this beast
Which pumps out plastics,toxins,and pollutants
in return for our dollar
Killing mother's purity
obscene individual study proves to be
and we overindulge for their prosperity
What a shame,a disgrace,a great pity
that we sell out to this unmerciful machine
I say we let mother be
just let her be
Dont let it be

I have all the pieces in front of me
all within plane sight
yet it's all hidden
from the conscious mind
I seek it out in the dead of night
when the DMT connects me with everything
and navigate primality
instinctually I sense it in the day
we have the sixth sense
and it's just waiting to be awakened

For a few minutes I fall into an infinite moment,
one in which I will relive timelessly and cherish until I am dormant.
Enchanted by the charm of bees and floral in the Florida Keys,
a day that will affect my dreams.
Beauty laps my mind with sun kisses and butterfly wings
while palms sway and sing in a gentle breeze,
I am home.
Floating in endless weightless movement,
never settling my soul.

Mighty the muscle of unmerciful momentum
Taking names, keeping pace, rhythmic with the arms of father time
Back to rehash an ancient scribe just moments away
You can taste it
The blood of the forsaken
Dying a thousands deaths
Ravished by the beast
Whilst storms blow in from the east
With messages of pale horses and unrelenting fate
Demanding blood to cleanse the land and to burn the stakes
Fear tantalizes
Exhilarates
All the kings men take their place
and prepare to battle the cycles history incessantly recreates

Your eyes speak a thousand words
of love,lust, and acceptance
I allow myself to be vulnerable
as you reach my soul and caress it

You kiss my forehead so tenderly
the sweetest gesture I've ever known
every touch brings harmony
every word consoles

Sensations rise and fall
as I melt into serenity
I watch your breath quicken
exciting me uncontrolably

I wish I could stay in this moment forever
with you
entwined as one enjoying our youth
I am yours now and forever

The truest love I've ever known

Passion comes like a home invasion leaving the walls whispering incessantly tiny inquiries that lack any true evidence invoking perturbatious uncertainty.You find your self endlessly pondering wondering if they appreciated or found quality in those little things that make people fall in love hopelessly.It's tiresome leaving one slightly disturbed plagued with persisting questions that ultimately elude one from themselves bewildered.You're either full of regret or feeling too pretentious caught up in some false sense of reality at times leading to changes in ones propriety.That is why we are all referred to as the young and the restless desperately trying to find ourselves as we slowly unravel the true life lesson.We search for assurance through another's eyes in need of acceptance even if it's merely a compelling lie so quick to deny ourselves truth.You must feel it on your own or you will remain condoned full of disappointment in the wake of true or imagined rejections and mortification.No matter what people do or say you must look within and find love without love a bullet proof brace.

Eyes veiled and full of misconceptions
I've been tested in the wake of expectation
Mass produced humiliation
Induced to become reclusive and stricken
A great appreciator of silence
Resilient and resistant
as I ponder my own completion and reliance
I shy my eyes from the broadcast and bypass the heart
that only beats and tracks superficial consummation
With such a great fear of sedation and the props preserved for consumption
Contemplating my voice in constant wonder if I will be beaten for seething over
the strange structure that kills spirit
I digress and rest at ease convinced I am blessed for I can see

The smell of lilac still lingers in my memories
Hundreds of fireflies dancing in the twilight
Easter hues took over the sky
Burning cedar lights up the night
Keeping the bugs at bay
I stare into the flame

Bongo beats vibrate
Summer's fragrance sending a quiver up my spine
Every sense stimulated
The peace held in those nights
is something that has stayed with me all this time
Treasured

They were cold and sterile
Maybe that's why they plagued it
As they placed their signatures upon experimentation
and pushed too hard like a workhorse facing retirement

It's a script indeed
The downfall of a generation
Weak minded fiends cycle it out like ***** laundry
Siphoning jet fuel to reach new heights in sacrifice
It's no wonder why none of us can sleep at night

Me I'm just a piece of paper full of ineligible lines
Treated like a germ
With great pain held behind whimpering eyes
So hard to disguise

My pace quickened as I passed
Glossy eyes and desperate breaths
People clawing crying out
I continued forward heart cast out

In the face of friends and foes
The difference who the hell knows?
I continue with caution
and keen sense
To make sure I strike
with exact precision

I dont play games
or gets kicks from mindless
Tricks
but I do have some dealings
to be dealt
and surely felt

Heads up little "ladys"
the truths trending now
beware to the man who
thinks me invisible
I have a few flips for you

Snake eyes
ace high

Hair raising sensation
Invokes a beast that wishes to feast
and lusts for flesh
A dream where bodies mesh
and sweat
As heat rises and falls
Repetitiously
A gentle brush of lips
As hips dip
and limbs twitch
Overwhelmed by a pleasure haze
Minds drift and displace
Launched to a higher place
Where souls intertwine and reach like vine
To mountains of tremendous energy
Lovingly exploring the mystery
In an act to create and share life

I dialed your number....
my hands repeating something they've known all too well in the past
and I grasped the phone in great anticipation listening to your tone
but when you said hello you were greeted by my silence
What could I really say?
...it wouldn't change a thing
I just let the static eat away
The radiation light up my brain
and the heat in my cheeks cool
as you ended this strange encounter with someone unknown
But you knew me once
you shook me once
At one point I was your world
but now I am just your pathetic prank caller
leaving you waiting on my word
which we both know is shot to hell

Lost in a spiritual tragedy
I watch the epidemic spread
and suddenly I am surrounded
by what they meant by "Wonderland"
As I kept silent and observed
The terror grew

My pace quickened as I passed
glossy eyes and desperate breaths
People clawing
crying out
a disease
a plague
someone eles let down

To the doctor its a signature
a job
a check
Experimentation
I see them all playing god
messing with human nature
Its a script indeed
The downfall of a generation

Eyes surveying the scape
desperately
barely breathing
I huddle down
motionless

something's rustling in the distance

can they sense me?
my heart bursting from my chest
a time of hyper vigilance

A snap tingles my drums from behind
I flee
flinging earth from under my might
taking in air swiftly
exhaling with no relief

but the beast lunges forward powerfully
caving my knees
I fall to defeat
as teeth sink into my arteries
I feel the blood rushing from me

Embracing death
and natures design
never knowing it would be so benign

I am open to falling from grace
My insides misplaced as I accelerate
Free falling further and faster
antisapating the bottom with tremendous fear

The enlightenment sure to leave me breathless
Knocking the wind right out of me
But I welcome the shock
With awe

I never had trouble admitting when I'm wrong
Because I am only human we are destined to fall
while resisting this notion you seem arrogant and small
A matter of the sun and the moon

We can't always bask in light
We must delve into our darkness
and find our heart through challenges
A change in perspective is always progress

You are a thousand whispers carrying my thoughts
to places they have never achieved.
Inspiring good faith and sound strength,
I never thought I could feel this whole and serene.
It was always you since there has been a me,
you were meant to be in all of your wondrous glory,
and although your face I have yet to see I already know it's home.
If only you could see how much this love is changing me,
I have never been so sure.
You have given me purpose,
conviction,
and infinite love while we ponder the possibilities of your name.

R- ude,it is to consider a human being an animal,
    surely the quickest way to reduce them,

F- ucked up to think our kids should wear dog collars
    hooked up to frequency tracking systems,

I- wonder if we let this happen whats next tomorrow....
   a step back from our freedoms and liberties,

D- efiance against "request"could cost your child
   their education,

R-ighteousness,
F-ear,
I-ndecency,
D-omination.

If love truly conquers it all
Then I will Fall for everything
Stop playing with mysteries
Gaining faith in the unseen
If we could be saved by a feeling
Then why would I choose otherwise

Sometimes we must **** who we are today


to become who we are meant to be tomorrow.

Juicy,Ripened,Crimson
Skin so smooth as if I picked
It right out of a painting
Autumns Orchards are flourishing
and ever so prosperous
I sink my teeth into the
luscious fruit and sinned
with the warmest grin
Ah! Heaven!

The laundry covered every inch of the floor
Making it impossible to dance
I checked each pocket unable to find what I was looking for
How did this place turn into such a mess?

Understanding means little with no voice to relate
and no action to cater to the thought
To sit beside you in silence is sheer meaningless
A proximinal neglect that is in desperate need of reflection
The universe is tearing us apart as we wonder aimlessly with no intention
This silence is pure sadness because it represents the death of our last ambition
These times have a way of putting out flames but only in the case in which you allow it to happen

The laughter and silence without explanation
Cherished moments wrapped tightly in exultation
I imagine the glimmer in your eyes
That spoke a thousand words
The light I could never leave behind

Sometimes it is just better to
remember to forget
No matter how many times
you drift back and allow
what ifs or should've or would've
to enter the cycles of your mind
the record will remain scratched and skipping
your past is only a reality in which you know
and you've lived
It does not exsist
No matter how many times you sprint
at the suns rays
the light will never carry you back
to change things
only a ghost defines themselves
according to yesterday
you are who you make yourself to be today
the goal is to enjoy it
inspite of what gets in the way
the greatest challenge to face
yet the simplest

It's like blaming someone else for the weather
A poison that is not quick to leave the mind
it just lays to waste behind your eyes
and when the liquor flows it takes you for a ride

It's an inability to forgive someone's mistake
and inevitably forsaking them
always some what jaded by a moment shared
in which your heart wasn't spared

It's like a freckle formed by the sun
time has put it there and it can not be undone
so now we must live with this new mark
that gives us hell because now there is no fresh start