In the face of friends and foes
The difference who the hell knows?
I continue with caution
and keen sense
To make sure I strike
with exact precision

I dont play games
or gets kicks from mindless
Tricks
but I do have some dealings
to be dealt
and surely felt

Heads up little "ladys"
the truths trending now
beware to the man who
thinks me invisible
I have a few flips for you

Snake eyes
ace high

I stared at the empty glass
Imagining the sea
The more impossibilities I conceived
The more my mind streamed
Full and overflowing with such silly dreams

Fading the lines
Aside from my daily life
Lost in some delusions that lack any conclusions
Yet keep me trapped questioning and pursuing

Seeping into my words as I try to refrain
and detain all of my madness from my viewers
But sheltered time has left my social censor in ruins

and just then the glass began to sweat...

Confidence held in a grin of crimson lips
Eclipsed by the duped intentions of shady corporate slips
Maybe she was born with it
Or maybe she reads too much Covergirl
It is not easy to be a young woman in this world

The laundry covered every inch of the floor
Making it impossible to dance
I checked each pocket unable to find what I was looking for
How did this place turn into such a mess?

Lost in a spiritual tragedy
I watch the epidemic spread
and suddenly I am surrounded
by what they meant by "Wonderland"
As I kept silent and observed
The terror grew

My pace quickened as I passed
glossy eyes and desperate breaths
People clawing
crying out
a disease
a plague
someone eles let down

To the doctor its a signature
a job
a check
Experimentation
I see them all playing god
messing with human nature
Its a script indeed
The downfall of a generation

As I rest my weary head upon my pillow
your scent still clinging to me
I need your arms so desperately
to warm and comfort me
All worry disappears in the embrace of those
sweet arms
Forgetting troubling times and the hurt
held in these scars
come with me into this night
sooth the rageing seas with in me
Fight the dawn and keep it from
bringing on these troubling days
stay with me forever in this darkness

He wore a stripped shirt
that resembled the twist of serpants
though he smiled warmly his eyes were
steady on the dollars
placing labels and badges on all
the soldiers fighting to pay rent
and live in times so far from purpose
I kick back and watch him scribble
false notice
prescribing a pill to every effect from
this life
its left me purging
I hate the institutions
the corrupt unjust
sick ***** sedating my
passions and
numbing me up
smart went to another place
outside your local village where
the villians mix the chemical
perserves in your children's fillings
I cant help the way I percieve what
I have seen
I cant help that my fall from innocents
was rougher and obscene
I cant stop thinking of the misuse
of power and money mongers
I want to burn the kingdom
hoping it'd grow back to something better
misguided we walk off cliffs and to the slaughter
or we come back as our fathers paper back novel
excellence for me has fallen to resistence
because I simply cant stand this kind of exsistence
go ahead and direct me to another perscription
corrupt everything in my mind that makes me human
I'm ODD to the extreme !
I reject most of you and the latest thing
and now this man sits here
telling me I'm sick and spiraling
as he shakes hands with satan
defiling minds from eyes that only see green
and I pay my way to see this jackal conspiring?!
You can keep your advice your diagnoses and the dice
I'll leave you now to gamble with the rest of the villager's lives

A moment in your eyes could stay sketched in mind timelessly
The power your piercing gaze holds makes my mind crumble translating to stutters
of expressionless wonders
Intensity keeps a smile from forming
Feelings spike to shock and speechlessness
As layer by layer I begin unfolding until naked and completely unraveled
A surrender that kept me motionless
I want to run
I want to hide
But I'm left clinging to your sleeve heaving
As I morn the loss of the self I once fit into comfortably
I almost unwillingly dispelled the anchor that held me down
and drifted until my tired body felt the sand of safe grounds
It was your island
It was your stability
It was all recognized when you took my hand with great agility
I sat in tears letting the gold fall through my hands
Watching it glisten as my foot prints trailed along
I took time to kiss the new land I stand upon
Then looked up ambitiously with anew strength ready to explore

A blanket of warmth and close stitch
caress my skin comforting me
Heavy eyes symbolizing
peaceful nights
my worries shrink to childish thought
and laughter
I am pulled into a dream
in which you've brought to me
where the nightmares of today's
strife can not enter nor taint
and I am on the brink of a trance-like
sleep where I am aware
yet trusting held tightly in your hands
you keep me on the breezier side of cares
your love a dancing flame creating a cozy room
your smell intoxicates while locked in a sweet
embrace consumed by your aura
and baby blue's
you whisper so softly tales of forever
and the belief follows every utter
of the tune
I continue holding you as the tears roll down
and I wish I could capture them
for they were pure
full of truth and happiness
Once so jaded this feeling belated
but its finally arrived and it seems right on time
saving me from the terrors of love once known
I could see myself in you forever
balancing eachother as a whole
we fit as tho we were made for the other
and I am beginning to believe this is true
Sean Mathew Eckert I ode to you
and I will shout it from the rooftops
so all shall know

I woke to a ghost whispering in my ear
Telling tales of the days
Reminding me of lips I'll never kiss again
As the rain splattered against a grey window pane
I rose with a startle trying to rub the thought from my eyes
As if someone else had placed it there out of spite
Through out the morning toxic tears swell
Burning my cheeks for I have failed
I wonder how long I'll sing this song
I'm still lost at sea and far from shore

The water lay placid
yet beneath the surface surreptitious dangers went unseen
The waders ignored the well known dangers threatening their feet
As they went deeper the creatures observed
The splashing only inviting the lurking predators
They had been told to take caution avoiding the exposure
Instead they leaped into the jaws of the ingenious monster
Leaving their families without relief nor closure
Creating a scene so treacherous it haunted the dreams of children
Their parents cried out in insurmountable pain
As the onlookers perceived them with unrelenting shame

Driving me to madness
All is set to burn
I find myself playing with matches
Waiting my turn
Although at times it gets relentless
The passion is irresistible
I could claim that I hate it
but cant help but love the thrill

The night falls
Dimming the tensions and strife these lonely days bestow
as she holds tightly to her phone
His voice singing in her ears
And she gazes at the moon only seeing his face
Slipping into a dream of his warm embrace
Imagining heaven beside him
His words guide her
Displacing the angst of love loss
Replacing it with the harmonious song of yearning hearts
He is the man in the moon
The missing puzzle piece
A new start building her up from the rubble of destructive thought
Tearing down her notions of not being good enough

I am sleepless
Counting the pauses in your speeches
Wondering what you were thinking
or trying to conjure up for projection
and this yearning is much like an affliction
An infection of affection that's now holding me in reflection
Yet I fail to mention your betrayal to my desperation
and remember only the sound of your breath and your chest heaving
As you went on and on aiming for that academy award
Turning tables and settling scores
like so many times before...

Perched like a Raven
on the limb of a mighty tree
Overlooking the cemetery
It's so strange it was almost like a dream
A stone cold truth rowed out beneath
This was the mouth of the river
The place where it all starts and ends
So seldom does it make any sense
much like myself
A belonging sets in
It all felt so solid and so complete
All it was lacking was me

Round and Round we go
On this merry go round
riding our horses
feeling alittle ill

I turn to the operator to find
a snarling beast
I pleaded with him to stop
but he cant seem to understand
compassion

Higher and higher we fly
on this jet plane
always trying to reach a new altitude
or esteem
but the machine is failing and compromised

Faster and Faster we race
in elegant cars
to reach the finish line first
oh we want to win!

Our tires are spinning but
we've only reached desert
so we continue barking until
another bone is thrown
a new elegant car

We keep yelling and yelling
crying and dying
seeking help for these deep seeded tramas
and with the trusted gentle voice we hired
once again we agree to sedation

In all honesty
The truth doesnt set any one free
we are comfortably imprisoned
and controlled
always barking for another bone

A stolen heart lost that's in confusion
reaches a conclusion and admits confesses
their delusion and steps into the sun
the rays soak embedding in pores
cleansing and bathing his dismay
in golden hues
the tears and ache begin to reduce
a reclusive event of clarity
live and let live melodies
pierce his eardrums
in silent peace the sirens at bay
freeing him from the sound of the parkway
Liberated

Sometimes we must **** who we are today


to become who we are meant to be tomorrow.

I can picture us
sitting on our porch during sunrise
Rays glistening off the morning dew
Staring into eachothers
wrinkled eyes
   Indented by a thousand shared smiles
As tears of joy run down our faces
in the realization that all of our dreams came true

I can see us
gracefully reaching the end of our days
Reminiscing as the sunsets on your beautiful face
Holding tightly onto eachothers hands
   Laughing at all the things we used to do
and the thing that gets me each and everytime
is I have no doubt you see it too

He believes in nothing
And dives into the essence to breath freely
Freezing time and relinquishing his pretensions
Gravity was far too heavy without the enhancement
The lows more extensive than the false paradise
I prey he finds his way through small sacrifice
It's the little things in life that keep us honest
He sits itching for release as he forsakes his actions
Unfortunately at times it seems impossible to break our habits
but our wills are stronger than the artificial entrapments

If only I could wipe the bitterness from my tongue
and rub the pain from my eyes
As if it were some dream
that never truly touched me
I'd find the purity I was born with

I have no palate
for the colors of the rainbow
beautiful yes
meaningless to me

The color I love most
is grey
the uncertainty within it
the lack of say

Its where wrong and right mix
in a stormy display
no need to argue
the subject is grey

I am lost in a space I cant claim
with shape shifters playing some twisted little game
and I have been pawned into the unknown
Far from any sort of counsel
With silent watchers eyeing my back
Sizing me up to see what I lack
As if I've been put to a test
I cant tell if I've been granted some sort of pass or sentence
As I cling to the fringes of my past
Holding onto the false security I never truly had
and love is lost in midst of this war
Is it myself or someone else trying to settle some score?
Is this heaven's gate or the fires of hell?
What's one without the other?
My skin bloats and swells
As the sea lightly salts my skin
Will I be eaten alive or am I learning to swim?
The question is where I'll go from here
Does the path lead to clarity or am I forever caged in confusion?

Silence
A reminder of years long since passed
gazing at the stars blazing history
counting the years
and the scar tissue

Fragile reminders of misuse
karmic justice and accidents
the uneventful days
always bring me back to this

Strength found in moments of exactitude
that only time can reveil
for the present carries on so quickly
the lesson concealed until its history

To revisit the spell of dizzy memory
is like floating on a cloud above the scene
in which you can watch it play
knowingly

The ability to change it
so far from reach
you must wait for the repeat
in the hope that now you'll
possess the eyes to see

It starts with a bubbling feeling
that fills then over flows
your cords start vibrating
your stomach knots and hurts
as you slap your knee
and threat urinating
toppled over in a joyous
social transaction
one that turns awkard to ease
and crippling pain into soulful healing
The greatest act to share with someone who cares
There's lots of magic in the little moments spent lost in uncontrolable laughter

I woke with a startle
Panicked by the short and shallow breaths I was hearing
Was it happening?Had the day I'd feared most arrived?
Her body once petite
Now a vessel
carrying something far more precious than you or I

A moment barely passed before she tapped my shoulder
and like clockwork I scrambled for a pen and pad
recording the times
Frantic by the results we drove quickly
almost missing stop signs

The labor was a success
but she was not considered blessed
For the true labor pains were soon to come

We had three days of bliss
and as if that baby boy never exists
he was torn away and
dismissed from her aching arms
and placed into a life much simplier for him
A tale for an adoptive Mother and Father

Eyes catch fire with desire for days passed
Vibrant memories cling to the lids of your closed eyes
Chasing could've
Fancy Would've
But it's all lost in time my friend
Open up to today
Behold what you're denying yourself of
Learn to love

We lay together lost in fantasy
Restless gazing upon different ceilings
Giggling in the remembrance of word plays through long days
Where we still manage to provoke smiles in the midst of our dull lonely ways
Your voice vibrates through a long distanced line
that we both dream of crossing some time
And though time may be a troubling thing
we push on with love and curiosity
Your voice rings sweet melodies to my imaginative tendencies
**** this longing
It's time you cross over and claim your belongings

You deserve so much more than what you settled for
I cant even begin to understand why you accept
the beatings and curses
Any man who is capable of such things
is no man
and I cant wait to hear how he fairs behind bars

Sometimes it is just better to
remember to forget
No matter how many times
you drift back and allow
what ifs or should've or would've
to enter the cycles of your mind
the record will remain scratched and skipping
your past is only a reality in which you know
and you've lived
It does not exsist
No matter how many times you sprint
at the suns rays
the light will never carry you back
to change things
only a ghost defines themselves
according to yesterday
you are who you make yourself to be today
the goal is to enjoy it
inspite of what gets in the way
the greatest challenge to face
yet the simplest

Your eyes speak a thousand words
of love,lust, and acceptance
I allow myself to be vulnerable
as you reach my soul and caress it

You kiss my forehead so tenderly
the sweetest gesture I've ever known
every touch brings harmony
every word consoles

Sensations rise and fall
as I melt into serenity
I watch your breath quicken
exciting me uncontrolably

I wish I could stay in this moment forever
with you
entwined as one enjoying our youth
I am yours now and forever

The truest love I've ever known

I love you even though we've never met
for sharing these moments with me
and relating to my lines

Even though we've never met
I feel so close sometimes
My fellow reader I cherish you
and I hope all your dreams come true

Because by reading and enjoying
my work
You are fufilling mine

Swept off my feet by merely a broom
I sought romance
only to find a mess miscued
As I lay there in the dust of ruined dreams
I pondered all the little bunnies that went unseen

Contrary to what is believed
To double think
Undress your mind to it's vulnerability
Outside the realm of possibility
Where one can see
Tickled grey
with inconclusive concepts
Frayed practice
Impulse bandits
turning the axles
Mirror me neuron
Mirror me

Twisting around my neck
My weakness
Cutting oxygen to my wit
I fall face first into your grip

Only if for a night
Just one more delight and spite
So obsolete I ignite
Dancing like a puppet in flames

Collecting regret while painting roses
Red were my cheeks when I met the mirror
Reduced to a pile of ash
Remaining faceless

I watched the horizon swallow the last rays of light
Its curve like a woman's hip
Nothing left but the stars,moon,and distant drums
To the beat my body succumbed
The pulse consumed and enraptured me
The tide came in and urged my feet
how could a lady deny such mystery
as the blackened waters submerged my body
I became weightless and free
drifting off into tranquility
Silver shimmered as far as the eye could see
and I lost all fear of drowning

Understanding means little with no voice to relate
and no action to cater to the thought
To sit beside you in silence is sheer meaningless
A proximinal neglect that is in desperate need of reflection
The universe is tearing us apart as we wonder aimlessly with no intention
This silence is pure sadness because it represents the death of our last ambition
These times have a way of putting out flames but only in the case in which you allow it to happen

For a few minutes I fall into an infinite moment,
one in which I will relive timelessly and cherish until I am dormant.
Enchanted by the charm of bees and floral in the Florida Keys,
a day that will affect my dreams.
Beauty laps my mind with sun kisses and butterfly wings
while palms sway and sing in a gentle breeze,
I am home.
Floating in endless weightless movement,
never settling my soul.

Oh illusion can be so glorious
Love one of the greatest of all
He is everything EVERYTHING
was my world...
illuding me into a world of wonders
you ***** I'm not oblivious!
...I think the washer is broken.

I sign my name to each tragedy that streams incessantly
I pour the lines with traces of blood
Crimson hues staining my paper
I sign my name to the work reflecting my shame
My guilt
My unproductiveness
And try to gaze more deeply into the abyss that is my mind
I try to dispense the trash that heaps and swells to great heights
Framing the walls I do not dare to climb
For the fear of falling
I sign my name with red velvet petals that wither too quickily
In such short time
Displaying my pain as if it held beauty
As if it were a crime

Drawn with a rapid heart and quickened breaths
I reached with sweaty palms
Eyes tearing
Mind out of wit
Giving into and coming out of the truth I once inhabited
To find anew like all caged rebels do when the casing no longer fits
Shell shocked my ears popped as sonic waves dropped
and I rode them down past hell hounds to find new grounds to stomp
Playing new fields and tilling old earth
Planting to birth something taller and less green
Yearning for clarity and found in small charities
Giving everything that I've got
To transcend and breath easy once again lest I rot
Off in search of who I really am
and remembering who I'm not

Lately everything has been speaking to me
it started with the vines along my fence intertwining
I thought of all the paths it took to grow
up to the power line
and all the pieces reaching nothing
and left hanging
dieing
a reflection of the decisions and paths we take
some sending us higher
some leading us astray
never finding our way

The ocean spoke to me next
waving at me so inviting
telling me theres so much more to a surface
another world unexplored worth trying
dangerous and enticing
yet gentle and leaving me weightless
like a new infatuation or the love I'm currently riding

Then I saw the bee
working constantly
carrying the flowers seed
designed to fufill the flowers need
and make sweet honey
perfect for my tea
I realized everything has a purpose
including you and me

Then I saw an old man
at the end of his days
He was a brilliant writer
and would be remembered beyond
his grave
I realized that we are never finished
legends live on and never diminish

Finally I saw the stars
burning bright
millions of them held in the sky
and past them is an infinite space
and I am part of such a small
miraculous place and the world
is my oyster and I am one
of many pearls from the many walks of life
of all these beautiful boys and girls
and the feeling that engulfed me was eternity

Young minds are like sponges
soaking in every sound and action
The hands that grasp their little hands
grasp the future

I cant bring myself to understand
how someone could look into those
innocent eyes and teach them hate

New eyes polluted by their father's
gun and rage

A song dreamed up from us humans
That I am most sorry for and displeased

Praise the lord and pass the ammunition!

I am experiencing writers block.Does anyone have any ideas or a topic they'd like to share?Comments and suggestions will be highly appreciated!

I am letting the telephone ring
unsure if its you
and if it was what I'd say or do
I silence the tone
A part of me does not want to know
but then again I need to
I wish you'd just leave me alone
I've remained haunted by this ghost

I watch the clock as the hours pass
on relentlessly
another night wide awake
as my mind begs for the relief of sleep
unable to think clearly

I watch him and I wonder what
dreams flicker behind his lids
his chest at such a steady rate
I inch closer hoping his peace
would somehow enter me

Atleast one of us can escape to
the beauty of a subconscious plane
where the pain and the worry ceases
and the day ends mercifully

I am so scared of what tomorrow may bring
I am holding onto the night for security
but time unbiasedly keeps dragging me
to a day of answers or more anxiety

He says no matter what he'll stay with me
in a way this brings comfort to me
but it's something I find hard to believe
considering he's always dreamt of having a family

You can find me behind a tinted window
This stained glass protects my weakness
Unrecognizable
I could be anyone
You'll never know me now
and I enjoy the strange in strangers
As my heart drifts so far from my form
I unleash my mind and dabble in art forms
There was a time when I'd hope to share it with you
but we can't hold on to things that aren't true

Fear deepens and plays
on insecurities
like the shrill of a violin
it leaves your heart on edge
taking and blackening bits of the soul
contentment such a far fetched goal

Its just a smile or a one liner
The stranger who holds the door
It's waking up to a kiss or being sprayed by
a cool mist on a hot summer's day
It's watching the sunrise or the moon eclipse
The baby passing you in a stroller on your way
As insignificant as it may seem
these are the things
that make it worth starting my day

There he sat
right across from me
under my roof
uninvited
His presence alone triggered a rage
that before him was never known
His words slithered from his lips
Far from anything genuine
hanging in the air heavily
incessantly striking and pressing me
and I flinched at the notion he's been here for years
I saw him before through my families tears
It's surely the game that I oppose
but when you can put a name to it
this illusion grows
that you could take the life from it...