Drawn with a rapid heart and quickened breaths
I reached with sweaty palms
Eyes tearing
Mind out of wit
Giving into and coming out of the truth I once inhabited
To find anew like all caged rebels do when the casing no longer fits
Shell shocked my ears popped as sonic waves dropped
and I rode them down past hell hounds to find new grounds to stomp
Playing new fields and tilling old earth
Planting to birth something taller and less green
Yearning for clarity and found in small charities
Giving everything that I've got
To transcend and breath easy once again lest I rot
Off in search of who I really am
and remembering who I'm not

Tears welled and wet my cheek
As my legs gave out and I hit the concrete
I couldn't stand the over whelming defeat
I examined the stone that caught me
and it taught me

Through the crack I saw a stem
It wasn't the most graceful of flowers but it was magnificent
Somehow it found it's way through
Growing passed odds that I'd never imagined it to

I feel the sharp realities pierce straight through my wanna be day dreams
I look at you with uncertainty and strain to keep the questions from surfacing
If I could only stay in this fanciful game of believing and achieving  
But too soon my scars start seeping the deception and leave you uneasy
I want to be the girl you imagine but I am made up of lesson
I hate to be the one to show you things aren't always as they seem

A moment in your eyes could stay sketched in mind timelessly
The power your piercing gaze holds makes my mind crumble translating to stutters
of expressionless wonders
Intensity keeps a smile from forming
Feelings spike to shock and speechlessness
As layer by layer I begin unfolding until naked and completely unraveled
A surrender that kept me motionless
I want to run
I want to hide
But I'm left clinging to your sleeve heaving
As I morn the loss of the self I once fit into comfortably
I almost unwillingly dispelled the anchor that held me down
and drifted until my tired body felt the sand of safe grounds
It was your island
It was your stability
It was all recognized when you took my hand with great agility
I sat in tears letting the gold fall through my hands
Watching it glisten as my foot prints trailed along
I took time to kiss the new land I stand upon
Then looked up ambitiously with anew strength ready to explore

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It's a chase for what you'll never encase
More like hide it away in a box of guilty pleasure
Opened only to shutter at the twisted moralities of others
Yet still you get off to the warping sensation
Fears taken and bent into little pleasure pretzels
Her sickness feeds your addiction for ***** gore
No matter how far you stray you can't help but crave her flavor
It's your panic switch that she cradles
As the lines between whats wrong and right fades equal
With all her red flags soaring you have no other option but surrender
Caught up in her web you'd gladly be devoured

I knew it wouldn't be easy but they never told me it'd be this hard
I trace layers upon layers of scars
Remembering each lesson carved into beautiful trademarks
I seek not revenge but rather to transcend
and at my wits end I find time to make peace with the screams
While watching the stream ever-changing shaping the banks of
caving earth
Dispersing tiny dismantled pieces into a deep ravine
A place unseen but the depths taunting
Muffled whispers and glimmers stir and discern all visibility
The waters reflected the chaos that plagued my reckoning
As I sat tossing stones watching the ripples fade and form
My small attempts to redirect the current seemed insurmountable
The rush and persistence of endless resistance surpassed my will
Swallowing my feet in mud and dismay
Beside the stream I'd forever stay