You can find me behind a tinted window
This stained glass protects my weakness
Unrecognizable
I could be anyone
You'll never know me now
and I enjoy the strange in strangers
As my heart drifts so far from my form
I unleash my mind and dabble in art forms
There was a time when I'd hope to share it with you
but we can't hold on to things that aren't true

When your woos left you with woes
Your repercussions echoed extreme
Armed by the past
You placed your bet on the guilty
But I am no prisoner of my yesterdays
and I'll bid up because I wont be blamed
It brings me no joy
This irrelevant fight
This endless gamble
This darkened knight
Even if I won you still wont be mine
Which is why we're both screaming in the first place

My eyes glazed as we sat beneath the warm glow
of a street light
In the very spot we used to kiss each other goodnight
I listened to the water flowing beneath the bridge
and thought of the days when we were just kids
In that moment my heart caved in

I remembered my arms in the sleeves of your leather coat
When we were in it together is when I loved it the most
I could never be too close and wished on you from afar
Through my eyes you were the Northern Star

Those days had some kind of magic
An irresistible charm that still sways me on
As I waltz back into days that are now gone
but the tears have yet to stop
I fear what it could mean if my mask falls off

The nights seem to last longer...
I watch the minutes crawl upon the ceiling
As I replay every word exchanged
From your tired lips unto my walls
Splatters of colorful paint decorate every brick placed
and you can almost trace the misunderstandings
If you examine the situation close enough
The fear comes from wanting
The pain is cradled in longing
and I wonder how I ended up falling
Pointless thoughts that keep my mind soaring
So far from reason's reach
and it's been too long this night
That day has breached

The wind chimes played an awful tune
Off beat and so quick to assume
Consuming what's left of a peaceful night
Disturbing it with pitches too low or too high
Laughable to believe and fed to the dead
Whose lives seem better when misled
So may the birds tweet and let the dogs bark
I cant control the wind nor wish to win hearts

Eyes catch fire with desire for days passed
Vibrant memories cling to the lids of your closed eyes
Chasing could've
Fancy Would've
But it's all lost in time my friend
Open up to today
Behold what you're denying yourself of
Learn to love

Panic kept my heart and adrenaline pumping
I told myself to never look back but the temptation was overcoming
When the realization hit that I had come so far
and could no longer see the start
beads of sweat shaped my brow
A physical confession of complete and utter fear
A psycological obstacle that rang loudly in my ears

I gazed at the steps willing my eyes to see the end
Itching for hope or someway to transcend
But reguardless of the vigorous time spent climbing
Into the heavens the staircase kept winding

My mind begged to cave
Desperate for an escape
From limb to limb my muscles twitching,tired,and shaken
I couldnt help the tears from flowing incessantly
While I searched longingly for some kind of reason or deep meaning to drive me

I dropped religion along the way
I pushed through the treachery of tongues leading
I threw my backpack over the rail so my possessions
couldnt weigh on me
I fought the false antedotes
I stopped blaming others
I grew to great heights yet still I wound up seated and flustered

Uncertainty haunted me
Leaving my head in my hands
In a world of illusion the next step is always difficult to determine
I looked back up to my challenge
Questioning the means
and learned that with enough curiousity
anything can be achieved