Sadness has struck me
I fought harder and harder
To get the happiness back
I weep frequently
I smile frequently
Happiness is what I want in return
Having her support me
Gave me happiness

Sadness have strikes me
I fought harder and harder
To get happiness back
I wore masks thousand times
I pretend and it hurt
Having him to take off my mask
To reveal the truth out of me
Gave me happiness

Sadness has struck me
I fought harder and harder
To get the happiness back
My heart is shattered
I grabbed a broom to gather it together
I cried
Having her glue my heart back together
Brought me into happiness once again.

Some days I feel I'm drowning
sinking way down low.
Some days I feel like giving up
and think I'd like to go.

But, looking up above me
I see a gleaming light.
I swim and kick and struggle
and push with all my might.

As I break upon the surface
I gasp and gulp for air.
I look all around me
and can't believe what's there.

Floating on the ocean
as far as I can see
lots of coloured lifejackets
waiting just for me.

As soon as I get near one
they wrap themselves around
and pull my weary body
to some safer ground.

'Where do they come from? '
I think I hear you say.
Well, they come from the people
I talk to every day.

People who understand
this journey we are on.
Whether it is short
whether it is long.

So, thank you my friends
that's all I'd like to say.
And, I hope I'll be a lifejacket for you someday!

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

In a relationship and I only see happy singles
Now I'm alone and only see happy couples
Funny how we don't appreciate the little things in life
Of course it hits when its gone

They always say it takes getting knocked down twice
to see it coming and feel ready
Yet everytime I'm in a relationship
I fall too fast and too hard
Over and Over again

I know I shouldn't complain
I've got my freedom
But everytime I see a couple
I regret every last kiss
and every first heartbreaks

I'm Not Scared Of Dying,
I'm Scared Of Dying Knowing I Haven't Lived,
Not Really.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Just Scared Of Dying Old And Alone,
Full Of Bitterness And Regret.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Scared Of Everyone Else Dying,
I Don't Want To Be Alone.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Scared Of You Dying,
You Are As Much A Part Of Me As My Very Heart And Without You
My Life Is Not Worth Living

I can never get my mind off her,
I wonder if she'd mind if i'd,
make her my own,
and never let her go,
hug her tight,
treat her right,
act all polite,
take her on a date,
make sure i'm never late,
kiss her on her lips,
talk about our kids,
Make her feel like princess,
living in a castle,
hope that is not too much hassle,
But i am so blessed,
hope i can be the best,
hold you tight,
have your breast,
on my chest,
pass the test,
NOW YOUR MINE!

Even though I seem quiet and shy
I have a strength inside of me
I have the strength to say good-bye

If a friend had always been a lie
I would be heartbroken but I realize
I have the strength to say good-bye

Even if someone precious to me dies
My soul will be crying but give me time
For I have the strength to say good-bye

When my soul is lost and I want to cry
Over time I shall heal, for I know that I
Still have the strength to say good-bye

You feel sad and lonely, you say everything is your fault, that everything is wrong.
But I will always be by your side,
Help you cross difficult obstacles because I love you a lot.
I'll make your sorrows disappear,
Bring joy to your life.
You will forget all the sadness,
Loneliness you went threw.
You will only have joyful thoughts.
I will always be there for you on your times.
And I will always love you.

I’ve morphed myself into a trance as I search for my friend
I find him in a drawer, shining silver and sharp
While lifting it I remove the safety cap
And as I draw it across me, I feel nothing
I finally get what I deserve, a slice, a cut, a tare
But it’s not enough
I pull and press the skin apart and together
I bleed
I drift
I’m not finished, I’m addicted
I go again, and again, a hundred times if that’s what it takes
I can’t feel it
What’s happened, what’s wrong, what did I do
I never wanted to be this way
And while it disgusts me I feel releaved
I no longer feel sorry for things I’m not sorry for.

The first time my heart was broken,
I thought I was through.
I swore I’d never love again,
until I found you.
You are the one who makes me complete,
the one I think about everyday.
Every time I’m near you,
I start falling in more than one way.
You may not know this,
but you’ve always had my heart.
I just wanted you to know,
that I’ve loved you from the start.
You make my heart beat faster,
with every breath I take.
I know I’m in love with you,
Trust me, this is not fake.
The first time I fell in love,
She ripped my heart in two.
Forgive me if I seem scared,
I just don’t want to lose you.
The first time my heart was broken,
I thought I was through.
I swore I’d never love again,
until I found you…

As I peered into the eyes of the man who I knew to be my dad:
I saw nothing;
No honor, no strength,
No humanity, no compassion,
Nothing but a black hole,
created by lies,
broken promises,
and everlasting deception.
But as I took one last look... I realized,
that just because a man is given the title of a dad doesn’t make him one

This beautiful Angel a goddess deemed friend,
Words sweeter than Crimson could ever be,
Flow from the mouth of this angel to me,
Her soul she writes in attempt to free the past,
caged in by thoughts she hasn't anywhere to go,
Thoughts whisper their words to her,
she writes them upon paper,
with Crimson inked by blood.

She's stained the minds of readers,
Her poetry fills with ink, it cuts and bleeds,
This friendship something more,
This angel shall be the light within a world I deemed dark,
This shadows been illuminated,
I can finally see past what I thought to be present.
My arm yet distant shall reach out to you,
consoling every hurt, reversing the empty,
My angel..... this friendship was always meant to be.

To that strong women i've met
To that beautiful gal who knows what she wants
To that brave soul who inspires me to be a better person

I wont ever mock you, mistreat you or leave you
I wont ever abandon you, give up on you or upset you
Leave you heartbroken, leave you disheartened or given up on

I wont ridicule you but i will encourage you
I cant abandon you but i will stand by you
Every step of the way i will be there to take the good and the bad

Encourage you while your down and give you that push when you need it
Give you what you need when you need it.
Hand you what you want when you desire it.

The Pain I Have Grown To Know,
Grown To Love.

I Always Look Forward To This Pain,
It Tell's Me I Feel,
That I'm Real.

This Pain Bring's Me Closer To You,
You Don't Know,
I Wish I Could Tell You,
But You Wouldn't Understand.

See I Only Feel This Pain Around You.

It's Those Deep Blue Eye's,
That Beautiful Flowing Hair,
Your Amazing Figure,
Your Amazing Voice,
So Soothing And Evoking,
Your Personality,
So Cool And Caring,
Yet Fun And Provocative

Your Everything Any Mortal Being Could Ever Ask For,
But So Understated,
Your Smile Lighten's A Room,
But You All way's Seem Worried.

I Wish I Could Tell You The Way I Feel,
But It Is Not My Place,
I Shall Just Play The Waiting Game,
Maybe You Will Notice Me.

It’s only been a few days but I’m losing my life
I can’t cope without you, I turn to my knife
You’re bringing me down, but you make me high
You make me laugh and then you make me cry

I’ve tried to forget, but I’m addicted to you
Sometimes I neglect, the things I should do
I know you pain me and I need to get out
But the hold you have is making me doubt

Can I get through this, can I be free
What will it take, to get me to leave
When will I realise it’s making me down
Can I be strong when you’re not around

You’re just a bad drug that I’ve let in my heart
I’ve got to get through this and keep us apart
I need to regain some control and belief
Give me a month and I’ll feel the relief

The days seem so long but more so the nights
My misery stops me being able to fight
I used to be tough, I used to have fun
I used to be happy, just look what you’ve done

You stripped all my joy and left me in pain
I don’t think I’ll ever be the same way again
I feel so depressed, don’t know what to do
I know what I want but I can’t have you

death life
love hate
what's the difference
they all end the same way
people live then they die
people love then they hate
people smile then they they cry
its like reading a book only backwards
it just never makes any sense
death life
love hate
what's the difference
they all end in the same way

You Hurt Her,
Your Hurt My Girl.
I'm Going To **** You,
Rip You Limb From Limb.
What Had She Done,
She Loved You,
She Care's For You.
I'm Not Standing For This,
You Have Just Made Your Last Mistake.
She Still Protect's You,
But That's Not Enough,
I'm Going To Find You,
I'm Going To End You.
She's Mine Now And There's Nothing You Can Do.
She Wont Have To Fear Again,
Nothing Can Touch Her Now,
No One Can Harm Her Again.
I Will Protect Her Till My Last Breath.
She Is All I Have Ever Wanted.
More Than I Ever Needed.
But You Tried To Ruin It,
You Tried To Ruin Her,
Now I'm Going To Ruin You,
I'm Going To Destroy Every Fibre Of Your Being.
No More Fear,
No More Hate,
No More Resentment.
I Am Complete,
She Is Safe,
And We Are Both Happy.

the anger subsides
the rage fades away
the hate no longer matters
the pain becomes comforting
the blood holds my attention
my mind wonders
leaving reality behind
cut by cut
I am set free

I never expted that I would fall in love with you
before we could ever see how we would be together
before I really had enough time to tell you how I feel
our time has come to an end before it started
I put off telling you that I love you and want to be with you forever
but since you tried to help a freind our time has been cut short
I keep telling myself its not to late to tell you but im not
the one who can deside that now so tell me is it to late
to tell you that I Love You

Not sure where this track is taking me,
My life was set but my train's been derailed.
You were supposed to ease the pain but without just cause you caused more than necessary,
You were supposed to be my safety net but you were more like electrified cheese wire.

I’m falling down
Down down I go.
When will it stop,
I want to know!

Into the darkness
And into depression
I hate my love life
But it's my obsession

When it comes to love
I’m obsessed
When it comes to emotions
I’m possessed

Why can’t i find
The right one for me?
Where on earth
Can they be?

I’m looking for someone
Who will treat me right.
I’m looking for someone
Who will hold me tight
Every day
And every night

Every time we embrace,
I go to that faraway place.
When we walk hand in hand,
I'm in never, never land

I never knew what life meant,
Never knew where it would take me or what I would do.
Know I know that one persons opinion of you can end it,
Who'd have thought that your words would be the thing that made me realise.
You've been my final release,
you were the dozer that destroyed the walls of deception.
All I know is there was a box of pills and a few cans of cider,
they are the only friends that I have to accompany me on this lonely and cold night.
It's time to sleep now,
My lullaby is over and my head is dropping.
I may have destroyed you for which I am sorry,
But know now that you shall never have to suffer me again.

I glance in your direction
You look up to meet my gaze
We hold it for a moment
But I break what seemed to last for days
In fear you knew of my affection

I don't know HOW I looked away
But I did, even though I got lost in your eyes so blue
At any other time to look away would have seemed impossible
I guess I thought you would have seen-
What my eyes seemed to say

Yet I still seem to turn from you
But with a small smile on my face
As I think 'did you like me? -
Even in this case?
Did you have these feelings too?

Sometimes I feel alive
sometimes I feel dead
sometimes my heart hurts
sometimes it's all in my head

Sometimes I feel lonely
sometimes I need my space
sometimes there are no problems
sometimes I've got too much to face

Sometimes things go right
sometimes things go wrong
sometimes I fit right in
sometimes I just don't belong

Sometimes I want to laugh
sometimes I want to cry
sometimes I want to live
sometimes I want to die

Sometimes I want to face life
sometimes I want to be gone from sight
sometimes I want to run
sometimes I want to fight

Sometimes I want to sing
sometimes I want to shout
sometimes I know the asnwer
sometimes I'm in doubt

Sometimes I'm happy
sometimes I'm sad
sometimes I'm scared
sometimes I'm mad

Sometimes I want to win
sometimes I want to lose
sometimes I listen to music
sometimes I watch the news

Sometimes I make decisions
sometimes I'm told what to do
sometimes I find life hard
sometimes so do you..

You Hurt Her,
Your Hurt My Girl.
I'm Going To **** You,
Rip You Limb From Limb.
What Had She Done,
She Loved You,
She Care's For You.
I'm Not Standing For This,
You Have Just Made Your Last Mistake.
She Still Protect's You,
But That's Not Enough,
I'm Going To Find You,
I'm Going To End You.
She's Mine Now And There's Nothing You Can Do.
She Wont Have To Fear Again,
Nothing Can Touch Her Now,
No One Can Harm Her Again.
I Will Protect Her Till My Last Breath.
She Is All I Have Ever Wanted.
More Than I Ever Needed.
But You Tried To Ruin It,
You Tried To Ruin Her,
Now I'm Going To Ruin You,
I'm Going To Destroy Every Fibre Of Your Being.
No More Fear,
No More Hate,
No More Resentment.
I Am Complete,
She Is Safe,
And We Are Both Happy.

There are things we need to see,
Like newborn life and ice cream dreams,
All the things that ought to be free,
All the glory of love unconditionally redeems.

There is warmth we need to touch,
Like sunlight streaking through the clouds,
When our obscurity is too much,
The grace of love will beat all odds.

There are scents that take us back,
To campfire smoke and Christmas tree needles,
They remind us of all we lack,
And how surrounded with love we beat our evils.

There are words we long to hear,
When the noise of the world cries without care,
When our monsters have mastered our fear,
A verse of love the world must share.

Don't know where to go,
Every way seems to be closed

Don’t know what & who is right
Every word seems to be wrong

Caring is a crime or love is a fault?
All feelings seems to be gone…

Smile, laughters all has disappeard
Left alone, with some unknown fears

Can't help it out, what's going on
Just wondering, why its taking too long? !

Some unsaid words, whispering in my mind
Leaving my face, more to be frown

Let me die or rescue me now
Let unsaid words, said, before

I'll be victim of another dawn….

lost in thought
lost in love
lost in death
lost without love
lost lost lost
im always lost
lost in with the love im with
lost in this world
lost in the way of life
lost in the way we are
lost in the way of crooks
lost lost lost
why is everbody lost
in this world im lost

in lifeless death there awaits nothing
yet in deathless life many possibilities dwell
deaths sharp kiss has befallen you
you have eternity, lest tragedy approaches you, to explore
changing will never a worry
kiss the shadows for they are your friends now
flee from sight at roosters crow
love comes from veins contents in warm spurts
thrive in the nights ever beautiful glow

I Was Once Told That I Had No Choice,
My Life Was On A Set Track.
I Didn't Believe This At The Time,
I Got Told The Same Thing Again Today,
I Still Don't Believe It.
For I Have The Very Powerful Word's Of A Very Talented Person,
They Are Almost Part Of Me And I Live By Them Day By Day.
Once I Accepted These Word's,
Accepted That My Life Will Be What I Want It To Be,
I New My Life Was Worth Living.

Now I Have Accepted The Fact That Nothing Is Impossible,
I Can Now Live My Life,
The Way It Should Be,
The Way I Want
After All It Is Not About How Hard You Can Get Hit,
It's About How Hard You Can Get Hit And Keep Moving Forward.

If You Let Someone Change You,
You Are Never Going To Win,
You Are Never Going To Get Anywhere In Life,
Because Let's Face It,
Life Isn't Fair.
So If One Person Can Change You,
Then Life Is Going To Get You On Your Knee's Begging.

Your Fate Is What You Make It,
So Don't Be Scared,
Never Back Down,
Never Change.

Who is he?
The question I ask myself every day.
Am I the sweet, bubbly person, who
Makes people laugh and have fun?
But no, I am not.
I hate being the centre of attention,
But I do it any way to at least be noticed.
Am I the lonely guy,
Who hates life and wishes for death every day?
But no, I am not.
I like to live and experience new things
And maybe at one time I hated life
But then I decided that I will make it
What I want it to be.
So If I am not these things,
Who am I?
I don’t know the answer.
For so long I have pretended to be funny,
To be smart, to be perfect
And in all my pretending,
I have lost myself, if I was even myself to begin with.

Man rules the top of the food chain but who rules beside man?
Who rules besides man that is both smart and strong?
Who besides man best friend would stick with him till the end?
Who does man talk to when no one else will listen?
Upon listening who shows comfort with face licks and whimpers?
Upon mans pain runs and signals for help?
Hunting, who does man protect with his life?
Upon injury who does man mend up and help?
Who gives good treats and love to one another?
Why do some men use them to fight, can they not fight there own battles?
Though most are kind, why some are mean to man's best friend?
Use the so selfish who gets a best friends trust?
Dogs have very long memories though ours is longer.
Man will be there for pup when he is more then ready to give in.

To see all the wonders of this world
You must stay permanently in love,
With the firmament, the rocks and stars;
The ocean's rhythmic tidal caressings.

Don't let another day go by
Without paying homage to love,
Though it savage the heart, and give up your secrets
Counting each loss as the gain, of new vision..

You give to me hope
And help me to cope
When life pulls me down
You bring me around

You teach me to care
And help me to share
You make me honest
With kindness the best

From you I learned love
With grace from above
It's for you I live
And I want to give

You are the reason
That fills each season
When I hear love I think of you
You are my world and best friend too

I love you because you are so kind, thoughtful and caring
I love you because you are so pleasant, lovely and sharing

Sometimes i feel like Ive lost you,
sometimes like we've never met,
at times i find myself remembering,
the things i know i should forget,
sometimes i sit back and wonder,
why I'm still around,
but i know theres gotta be something,
thats lost but will be found,

A confused heart,
cant love for sure,
a confused love,
is something that we endure,
a confused girl,
who's stuck in a state of hate,
cant love a confused boy,
who's apology came too late......

The sun was shining bright
As I look from left to right
Then it was you I saw
Waking me from unbecoming thaw

To me you're a princess
Just missing a crown
Like a star that twinkles
I'm waiting to fall down

A moment not expected
Pulled my mind from being tormented
Seeing your smile once again
Took my heart from being ashen

I felt awesome after seeing you Once Again...
...I wish you knew how I missed you before then...

Memories flashing in my head
From now till
The moment we both said
Sadly how i wish those times were here
Back then seem to be when
You used to really care

Alone with my heart
sadden thoughts in the dark
No help
No one to shine the light
No one even to help me
Through the night

I could use a smile thats bright
To warm my heart
And not sit it on ice
And this ice,
Its cold
Thats why this pain
Is too hard to hold
Thats why when
I come home
Theres no love
Its just cold

What i wanted was simple
I just need you to be honest
And play your role
Why did someone else
Have to tell your story
I had the front seat
Believe you me
There was no glory

Like water
I'm evaporating
After the rains

Life is of essence to me so dear.
Today I must live and tomorrow not fear.
For if I live my life with the fullest intent
Then tomorrow will bring joy as a day well spent.

The quality of life to each individual
Is what he makes it unless he dwindles
For the most out of life comes from time well spent
As the days on our calendar of life are extent.

If I live today like tomorrow won't come
And make out of life the most joyous of fun
Then if I can live for just one more day
The time that I've spent has not crept away.

So to my fellow philosophers
Who live to love life,
Let not it be said I've loved once or twice
For I'll live my life as I see fit
and from the loves that I'll live in life
I'll be well spent.

I am a friend
There and listening

I am a lion
Loyal and strong

I am a writer
Observing everything

I am shy
Silent and gone

I am a reader
Learning and searching

I am a ghost
Disappearing without a word

I am a lover
Loving not fighting

I am a fighter
Standing up for what I believe in

I am an artist
Creating

I am me
Proud and loving

When he gave me a smile,
Cupid struck me from a mile.
I walked with rush,
So he wouldn't see me blush.


When I saw him stare,
I acted as if I didn't care.
Though my heart was pounding like Hell,
I tried my best to hide it, so he couldn't tell.



When he approached and said hi,
I turned around and said goodbye.
But before I could take a step away,
He grabbed my hand and asked me to stay.



And from a lips that doesn't lie,
I thought I was going to die,
When he confessed his love.
The LOVE I longed to HAVE.

Love between friends is
So hard to live with because
You can't be yourself no matter
How hard you try so you cry yourself
To sleep by the pain of loving a friend.
Love between friends is the unwise thing
To do because in the end you'll break yours
And his heart into a million pieces and the
Friendship will be over within minutes.

So alone and incomplete,
without the touch of your hand.
I can almost taste defeat,
without your love.
My breathing slows,
knowing you dont think of me.
My skin grows cold,
thinking what you said last to me.
My heartbeat finally stops,
when I remember your face.

You know that feeling you get when you're empty and drained all out,
you have no one,
you constantly feel worthless and useless,
you don't know how to make anyone happy,
or how to make them proud,
so the only way to feel something else is through the pain you cut.

The Music Has Stopped,
The Mist Starts To Settle,
It's Becoming A Thick Fog,
I'm Trapped,
Trapped In The Back Of My Very Own Mind,
I've Been Trapped In The State Of Thought.
I Can't See A Thing,
My Gaze Starts To Settle On A Vague Shadow,
I Move To Grab It But It's To Far,
My Feet Are Still But I Will Them On,
They Are Stuck In What Feels Like A Bed Of Tar.
This Is It,
This Is My Breakdown,
You Stopped The Music,
You Took My Sight,
You Took My Strength.
All I'm Left With Is Thought.

You see my sweet tears as they fall from my eyes.
You hear the shaking in my voice as I lie.
You know my words are empty of all truth.
You beg for honesty so you beg me for proof.
I obviously can't give you the simple thing you ask.
I lie to you because it is a very important task.
I must not tell you how I really feel.
I will be perfectly honest, it makes my mind reel.
How I wish that I ment it when I said I didn't care!
How I wish it wasn't my heart trapped in this snare!
How I beg and plead for you to simply let my heart go...
How I wish to tell you, all that you wish to know.
Sometimes I dream of you and I together.
Sometimes I fantasize that we will last beyond forever.
Sometimes I find myself crying until I fall asleep.
It is because of the truth. the reality, that I weep.
We can't go on for much too long...
Your heart is bound to sing another song.
Your smile can't hide the thoughts in your mind.
Your thoughts would hurt but you are much to kind
To speak them aloud, to let them leave your head.
You care for my feelings but you wonder if you should leave instead.
That's why I tell you that I don't love you.
That's why I do everything that I do.
You WILL leave me soon enough.
As always thought my heart was tough
But, I know that if things continue
I wont't be able to stand to lose you.
So instead I'm setting you free.
So instead I'm not letting you return to me.
So instead I will live out my life alone.
So instead my heart with pain will grow.

Our past was so big
filled with so many dreams
how can you just forget that
your nothing like it seems.

Was what we were
just a big lie
did you mean anything you said
or did you really mean goodbye?

It was so long ago
why can't i forget
I hate myself for loving you
never again will we be legit.

You hurt me so much
you don't even know
when will you grow up
and stop putting on a show.

There isn't any trust
between you and me
nothing to build on
we never were meant to be.

All of our memories
I want to be gone
Why can't I just erase you
from dusk til' dawn.

I hope one day
you realize what you miss
you won't ever again
find such a sweet kiss.

You say we're friends
but im done for good
cuz you don't treat friends
the way that you should.

My heart is mending
the one you decided to break
I never thought in a million years
you'd turn out to be a fake.

You took me for granted
you didn't think twice
you gambled with my heart
like you were rolling dice.

I'm moving on
and ill be strong
one day you'll realize
just how much you were wrong.

I don't know how to say this,
The word's walking through my mind.
I can't put pen to paper,
The sentence I can't find,
For the feeling's deep inside my heart.
I pray to god above,
For the right words to tell you,
How much I have fallen in love