You see my sweet tears as they fall from my eyes.
You hear the shaking in my voice as I lie.
You know my words are empty of all truth.
You beg for honesty so you beg me for proof.
I obviously can't give you the simple thing you ask.
I lie to you because it is a very important task.
I must not tell you how I really feel.
I will be perfectly honest, it makes my mind reel.
How I wish that I ment it when I said I didn't care!
How I wish it wasn't my heart trapped in this snare!
How I beg and plead for you to simply let my heart go...
How I wish to tell you, all that you wish to know.
Sometimes I dream of you and I together.
Sometimes I fantasize that we will last beyond forever.
Sometimes I find myself crying until I fall asleep.
It is because of the truth. the reality, that I weep.
We can't go on for much too long...
Your heart is bound to sing another song.
Your smile can't hide the thoughts in your mind.
Your thoughts would hurt but you are much to kind
To speak them aloud, to let them leave your head.
You care for my feelings but you wonder if you should leave instead.
That's why I tell you that I don't love you.
That's why I do everything that I do.
You WILL leave me soon enough.
As always thought my heart was tough
But, I know that if things continue
I wont't be able to stand to lose you.
So instead I'm setting you free.
So instead I'm not letting you return to me.
So instead I will live out my life alone.
So instead my heart with pain will grow.

Our past was so big
filled with so many dreams
how can you just forget that
your nothing like it seems.

Was what we were
just a big lie
did you mean anything you said
or did you really mean goodbye?

It was so long ago
why can't i forget
I hate myself for loving you
never again will we be legit.

You hurt me so much
you don't even know
when will you grow up
and stop putting on a show.

There isn't any trust
between you and me
nothing to build on
we never were meant to be.

All of our memories
I want to be gone
Why can't I just erase you
from dusk til' dawn.

I hope one day
you realize what you miss
you won't ever again
find such a sweet kiss.

You say we're friends
but im done for good
cuz you don't treat friends
the way that you should.

My heart is mending
the one you decided to break
I never thought in a million years
you'd turn out to be a fake.

You took me for granted
you didn't think twice
you gambled with my heart
like you were rolling dice.

I'm moving on
and ill be strong
one day you'll realize
just how much you were wrong.

I want him but I can't have him.
He's so sweet and nice.
When I am around him I feel complete.
He makes me smile, laugh, he's there when I need him or when I need anything.
He helps me to get through everything in the past and in my way in the present.
He's a guy that everybody wishes to have.
A guy that would be there for you, he won't lie to you, he's honest, kind sweet, funny, and special.
I want him but I can't have him.
I'l just have to have him as a friend right now
I wish I could be the most special thing that will ever happen in his life.
And that he wants to be with me forever and love me like everybody deserve's to loved.
I want to have him But I can't.
I want to be his partner.
I want to be the one that holds his hand everywhere we go and even around his friends.
And for them to point at me and say he's the one.
Ans be there for him when he needs someone, to cheer him up when he's sad or mad.
And be there for him when he is right or wrong.
The person that would hold him tight, and love him.
Just to be there for him and love him like no other has loved him.
Just to be there for him until the last day of our lifes.
I just want to be his man.
I want him but I can't have him.

What is this feeling I have?
I seem to love you
But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you
Or maybe just without anyone
I think about you all the time
But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice
And I would die to hear your laugh
But is this love
Or merely lust?

I don't know how to say this,
The word's walking through my mind.
I can't put pen to paper,
The sentence I can't find,
For the feeling's deep inside my heart.
I pray to god above,
For the right words to tell you,
How much I have fallen in love

I Try To Be Happy...
But Depression Is Now My Best Friend.
My Only Friend.

Your weakness gets to me
makes me want to rip
your heart from your chest
and trample on it
You are a coward
A fool to your own truth
a puppet on a string
being dangled
by your faithful followers
You never listen
Do you see my eyes glisten?
Can you see my angry soul? ,
my hungry mouth?
Do you feel the earthquake
in my heart as it bleeds out on the ground?
Do you even care?
Sometimes I wish you were never there
I hate you but I love you still
And I'm guessing I forever will
It takes a cruel soul to ignore
The meaning of the open door

My mind recall's the essence of your touch
Although I try to forget , I see you when I close my eyes
Your warmth and gentleness have engulfed my soul,
They illuminate even the darkest shadows of my being.

The forbidden love I have for you will not die,
Neither time nor man can stop my heart from beating,
My lips speaking your name.

Do not turn from me
For if I can be nothing more to you..
I desire just one breath that you take
To feel you completely, to be in your heart for one moment.

Perhaps one day you will treasure me
Hold me, Never leave me
Proving to me that my love is not in vain.

who will gift
love from heart
to be received

as gifts
in return
for gifts

received
love embraces
receptive souls

love embraces
beating hearts
sharing minds

You say we tried
Now we must say goodbye.
Tell me, what’s you definition of trying?
Goodbye, goodbye my dear friend
My feelings for you will never end...

Your final words are knives;
The knives you stick in my back.
Now my only antidote is crack,
As I slowly die inside,
I lay beside
The corpse of what use to be.
Now that you are free,
Stay away from me.

Well I'm sorry but I am who I am,
And most of all,
I'm sorry, I'm not sorry.