I miss you.

Your brawny arms,
and the way they'd firmly hold me.

Those honest starry eyes,
and their ability to burn holes through me.

Your flawlessly gentle lips,
and the way they felt like cashmere connecting to my own.

The warmth of your body,
in my bed.

I miss,
the ignorance of being alone.

Our legs
weaved between each others bodies as we slumber.

You,
bogarting the chill of the night.
Using your own toes
to defrost mine.

Appointing your chest the role,
To stand in as my personalized pillow.

And more than anything,
I miss waking up happy.

Your influential mind, your godly presence, and your virtuous company.
Could you please return them back to me.

I want to apologize for all
the times I walked in front
of you, all the times I could
see you about to cry, and I
could do nothing but laugh
nervously, I'm so sorry, for
lacking the compassion to
cope, to be someone good.
Will you ever forgive me
for being so selfish?

Body aches a thousand ways
Those missed sweet whispers
From your lips
Lost to the scent of heaven

Your love leaves my skin
This hand reaching air
For your touch
Only a cold life forwards
Do I dwell

Come back before
My world
Don't leave my love
Behind
Come back into warm
The cold is biting


Sighs to the rain of tears from my face
These windows to my soul
Lakes of emptiness
Full of regret
Come back to once our life

Come back
My love
Come back
I'll change
Come back
To us
It's cold outside

No words do enter to silenced thoughts
So loud this heartbeat
Now dead
My cause
It's lost
It's over
The fool I am
My body weeps  
I'm lonely am

She was dancing on the edge with a giggle
Teasing and taunting him
with the danger of all he loved to be lost
Careless
Reckless was her exsistence
and he looked on wearily
but kept his distant
Pleading
"Please let her fall I've grown so tired of this"

I breath deeply, the clock is ticking
It’s been hours, but nothing’s changed
“What’s happened to us?” You ask
But I won’t answer, because deep down I think I know

We used to laugh,
It never took us this long to get over whatever little argument
And just when I think we are finished you find some other reason to stay mad
I throw a lamp. I didn’t really mean to, I just did
You stare at me and ask again, louder
“I don’t know” my voice begins to crack because I really do know

You try to kiss me, but I push you away
I remind you of that stupid thing you did last month
You remind me of that phone call I forgot to make
It never stops. It’s no longer enough
We are no longer enough

Your green eyes start to water
I can see that you know as well
This time I ask you
“You don’t love me anymore” you whisper
I run to hug you, because I don’t want to believe it
“I think you don’t love me,” I sob.
You grab me tighter. I can’t breath
And just like that it’s time to let go.

I apologize for the lamp.
We promise to stay friends
But it hurts too much to loose love like that
So we move on, and go our separate ways.
One day I’ll see you, with the life you deserve
I’ll be able to smile and say
“I loved him once”, and I’ll know it was okay to let go.