And it's like,
you always have to be so strong for everyone else.
You're always the first one to ask if they're okay.
But sometimes, they forget to check in with you.

And it's like,
you never know who's going to leave
and who's going to really stay.
So in the end you just push them all away.

And it's like,
people think you're bulletproof.
They think their shots will do no damage.
But really, every day they cause more cracks in your broken heart.

And it's like,
I want to be okay again.
But I've fallen so far and I've become so damaged;
that this is me.
And damaged is all I will ever be.

I'm caught somewhere between the person I am,
and the person I want to be.
The hard part is,
I don't know where to run.

As you were leaving today you said
"See you tomorrow"
but in all honesty
You don't know how bad I want to just go to sleep;
and never wake up.

Another night alone.
Another night I want to give up hope.
Pain swells all day inside;
by the time I get home...
Ill do anything to feel release
My head spinds as I try to comprehend everything.
Why must everything happen at once?
Why does he have to be sick? Why did he have to breathe his last breath?
Why did that driver have to have just one more drink?
Why do I have to feel all this?
I dont want to anymore.
I cant.
Im alone, and I just want someone to hold me.