Sometimes I feel this heavy weight in my heart
slowly
     dragging
                me
                         down

because I'm stuck in the past
and all the memories keep haunting me
as if it wanted to take possesion in me

One day, it will take over
and I'll break down because I know nothing can be as qualified
to fix such complicated and messy things
like myself.

Stupidity is thinking you'll care a tiny speck about me when I care a whole lot about you

I wonder if my friends know
When I laugh it hurts.

I wonder if my friends know
The world i live in is as black as the midnight sky we used to dance under

I wonder if my friends know
After I come home I hold myself from falling apart,
crumbling inside myself as I fall asleep.

I wonder if my friends know

I'm trying to hold on
To the heart I had

I'm trying to hold on
To the rich soul
That held me in the times
I was lost

I'm afraid they are breaking away,
Slowly and slowly
Who am I?

the game of chase we used to play,
it was fun while
it lasted.

it lasted years and years.

we don't see each other anymore
when you walked in that door
i felt like i was home again

i know when we talk
you feel the lust, that excitement
from the games we played

i thought time could
remove our history, our jokes, our connection
but everytime we meet it grows stronger

i wonder when this game will end,
i wonder if you'll ever be mine.

I'd like to know, how much pain does it take to **** someone?

Why the **** am I torturing myself?