I feel your breath

Rolling down my skin,

Like ripples in the pond.

I feel as if I'm floating

And the entire world is gone.

I feel the shivers

Racing up my spine.

Your touch is electric;

I feel divine.

Empty, echoing words
Rushing through my mind.
I love you
I hate you
There is no difference
I want you
I need you
But only for awhile

Blank souls
Colliding
Grasping for meaning
In a world of nothing
I need to feel you
I need to know you
To feel that I exist
To pretend that I am real

Your lips are my intoxication
You leave me drowning in your touch
I struggle to stay above water
To take in that much needed air
A gasping breath
A shuddering sigh
My heart races
As I slip further away

I sink into my dismal state
And give you complete control
I have no pride
I have no self-respect
I only have you.
You don't love me
But you need me
And I need that.

Loneliness is all I know.
It's pervasive
With creeping tendrils
Of despair.
It haunts my days
And disturbs my nights.
I feel the nights grow longer
And watch sleep
As it passes me by.
It slips through my fingers
Like the sands of time
Blowing away on an icy breeze.
My tears freeze before they reach the surface;
And my blood runs cold.

The emptiness engulfs my soul
It's almost enough
To make me whole.
Little silver fills the void;
She makes my blood boil,
And draws crimson emotion to the surface.
She's with me no matter what;
I see reminders of her upon my skin,
And know that I am truly alone.
I'd cry if I could,
But my tears are still frozen.
I'd stop if I could
But my pain is stronger than my will.

There's a beauty in the grotesque
That escapes so many people.
There's a terrifying freedom
In destruction.
Destruction is creation
And I've created much.
There's a horrifying beauty
In the scars upon my skin;
They remind me of what I tried to do
And what I could've been.
I've created memories
That I cannot share
You see . . .
What I've created
Is more than I can bear.

Outside looking in;
Separate,
And never whole.
My story tears my heart asunder
And sets me apart from those who love me.
I cannot let anyone in;
I cannot let anyone out.
I cling to a thread that's already been broken;
A thread that I took the scissors to a long time ago.
I'm floating away
Wishing for something stable to attach myself to.
I grasp at straws
To no avail.
I cry out
Without a sound.
My heart is breaking
And it's breaking me down.

I see beauty in the grotesque;
And that's just what you are,
My dear.
Your presence engulfs me;
The pain within you
Makes me shiver.
I taste sorrow
On your lips,
I feel an urgency
In your touch,
And I see a sadness
In your eyes
That takes a hold of me
And will not let go.

I'm drawn to you
Like a moth to a flame.
I watch the emotions
Flicker across your face
As you tell me who you are
And where you've been.
I feel your pain,
And inflict some more,
As I slowly take control.

My love for you is out of control
I cannot help but feel this way
It eats me up inside, baby
And takes my soul away.
I spiral downward again
And wonder where
I might go to.
It hurts me
To go away
From you,
My dear
Love

You crept into my soul
And wrapped your claws around my heart;
I can feel you inside me,
And it's tearing me apart.

I ache for all those things I never wanted;
I burn for things I've never known.
And, as your presence engulfs me,
I truly know what it feels like to be alone.

I sit and think of all the tragedies I've suffered,
And none of them compare to this.
I've been knocked down before,
But never by a kiss.

You hold a power over me
That no one has before.
I wonder how can I ever escape you
When all the pain you've caused makes me want you even more?

My body is on fire whenever you're near,
And the agony grows worse when you're away;
It seems you've got me, body and soul, my dear . . .
I don't know what else to say.

Keep me in your heart
And forgive me for what I’ve done
I knew from the beginning that we would part
And I’m out of places to run

You brought a smile to my face
And tears to my eyes
But those tears can’t erase
The love I hold inside

You brought light into my life
You made my world a better place
And even in the midst of all this darkness
I will never forget your face

And if we should chance to meet again
Please forgive me for what I’ve done
Your happiness means the most to me
And I’m sure it’s only just begun

I’ve done the only thing I know how
To save you from me
You’ll be happy now
And I’m finally free

Here I am again,

Caught in my pit of despair.

It all seems so familiar,

It almost feels right to be here.

I sit and watch my blood

Spill forth once more;

God, it's been so long,

But, I know I've been here before.

Looking at the scars

That litter my body,

Remembering the pain that's past;

And adding to my memories,

Because I know nothing else will last.

Play me a tragic melody;

Sing a song of sorrow.

Draw me in with your sad stories,

And hold me there with the promise of tomorrow.



You have my heart in the palm of your hand;

My soul is yours as well.

I have yet to understand

How it is that I fell.



So in love with you,

Yet, so afraid

Of all the things you could do

With that bewitching serenade.



You promised me a tomorrow

And I'm still waiting for that day.

But, time is something I cannot borrow,

And I don't know if I should stay.



Tomorrow never comes;

I'm trapped in an endless day.

My poor heart succumbs,

And I am here to stay.

Creeping tendrils of despair

Slither in my brain

Taking away what little joy

You've given to me.

I feel your grasp grow stronger

Around my bruised and broken heart

I fear you're going to shatter

What little I have left.

I dare not breath

Lest your grip should tighten

And destroy what little remains

Of my happiness.



You don't want me

Yet you hold me so tightly

You don't need me

Yet you always come back



You don't love me . . .You don't love me.



You are my darkness

And you are my light

You will save me

And **** me further still.

You are my prison

As well as my key

I just I was what you wanted me to be



I love you

And I hate you

I suppose they're both the same

I'll take the pain

Because it brings me joy

And I'll give you joy

Because it brings me pain



Neither one of us

Will get off this ride

My heart is yours

And you know it

You'll break it

And I'll let you

Because I don't have the strength

To let you go

You're right next to me,

But I'm all alone;

You fill me up,

But you never make me whole.

I lie in bed

With your arms around me,

All the while knowing

You're dreaming of someone else.

I'd pretend to cry

If I wasn't already playing make-believe;

I let myself drift off to sleep,

Imagining that you care



I dream of what I'll never have

And wonder why that is.

I cling to the dream,

Pretending that it's real.

But when I wake

And look at you,

I feel the dream crash

All around me;

And remorse is all I feel.

I turn and face the wall,

Pretending you're not there;

And drift off to sleep again



Nothing was ever real . . . 

My pulse is racing

I can feel your heart beating faster

And faster

As you come closer

And closer

Into my world.

I feel your breath upon my neck

And shiver

As it caresses my skin.



I place my fingers on your chest

And whisper bittersweet words in your ear

As I press my lips to your throat,

And sigh as you pull me near.

Right now I need you.

And right now you need me.

I'm inching closer to your world.



And all of a sudden

Our worlds collide together.

We both go off with a bang.

We're never going to fall in love.

But we'll still go out in style.



A dark and ****** night

A frantic, fast-paced kiss

Our eyes lock as our bodies meld

And we can see a glint of anger,

And passion, and hurt

Deep in each others souls.

I only know you

And you only know me.

There is nothing but the sound of our breathing

Getting faster and faster

As I bring you to the edge.



Your nails scrape across my skin

And my teeth sink into your neck

The pain fuels my passion

And makes me forget;

I cry out in delighted agony

As your hand collides

So violently

With my sensitive flesh.



You fill my void,

And make me feel complete

But, nothing can stay forever.

And soon we separate.

And yet, still I know

Our worlds will come together again

As they always do.

But for right now,

I must simply wait.

Until you need me too.



And when our worlds collide again

It'll feel like we're in love.

And I know that it's just a cruel lie;

But still I cling to you . . .

Because I've always wanted to go out,

In style.

Can I feed off your soul for just a little longer?

Can I drag you down into my pool of despair?

The feeling of oblivion will last that much longer;

And it makes me feel like you care.

Let me drain you of love and hope;

Mine has already gone away.

I’m finding it more difficult to cope

With each passing day.



My love for you is far from fleeting,

But it is a destructive force;

And it’s been taking a toll since our first meeting,

Leaving your heart bitter and coarse.

Walk away from me and I’ll love you all the more,

Come closer and I’ll **** you further still.

You have nothing to gain from our rapport

But maybe you just come back for the thrill.

Dancing with you in an empty room,

Thinking of blood and love.

Will this be good?

I already know it will be sad.

But will it be good?



Reading you

Is as impossible

As reading the wind;

You shift and you change

Without a moment’s notice.

You bring me somewhere I’ve never been

And always bring me back to the start.

There is no yesterday

And no tomorrow;

Only now exists.

Treasure it.



Dancing with you

In an empty room.

Holding you close;

Hoping for the best.

My heart cracks a little

But it shall not be put to rest.