To think at one point I was pushing you away
oh how I wish you would have just stayed
that my smile could just make everything right
and I would have stayed with you those nights
to think at one point I thought I was better without you
oh how I wish I knew I was just being amused
that I was just young and dumb almost numb
and that I know this is truly love
to think at one point I wanted you to forget all about me
oh how I wish that I would have not been so f** mean
that I wouldn't have tried to hide
that I would have just opened my blind eyes
now I miss you and want you here this time no lies no fear
cause to think at this point all I do is cry
oh how I wish I would have just gave you my life instead of saying goodbye instead of letting your love die

If I could turn this world around I'd make it so you'd touch the ground. I'd make it so that you get what you need I'd make it so that you'd want me. I'd make you see that you are worth it..Even times when you're not exactly perfect. I'd let you really get to know me and let you dig as deep as you want to reach. Id let you know that in my mind heart soul you've grown
and through these keys I've let it be known


If I could turn this world around I'd make it so you never frown
I'd make it so your arms would heal
and your true feelings you wouldnt fear
I'd let you know how much I care and without your smile I just wouldnt bare.
I'd make it so you'd get along and not feel saddened by what in the past you've done wrong
I'd make it so that you can see the man in you that I have seen, and still do. despite the lies and through the truth,
the dark but magical Crow that's you

I praise him like a religion I study him like physics unreal how I'm so easily convinced
it's only when I'm with him
For u stumble in your suspicious actions yet I continue to chance it despite any bad feeling that passes
yet only when I'm with him
he could be untrue and willingly Ill be named his fool, for his lips so full there's not much I wouldn't do
Don't want to miss him
So I've carved his name on my skin and everything becomes worth it again...
but then I remember. ..
only when I'm with him

why do we crave it so
get frustrated and gotta let it be known
that you love the skin to skin attention
that you're just a sucker for affection
so how come we feed it and
why is it that "love" is not needed
Just body to body connection and sweet sensual affection
and how do we get this way where our body sweat and our legs shake I don't really know but I got a confession,
I think I'm in love with
affection

I've loved you since you were born even though you were a yucky boy and now I had to share my toys
I didn't really know it back then that you were my very first and would be my forever bestfriend
I guess I didn't realize that you were growing up too and that one day I would need to learn from you
so I want to thank you for every joke you've told because you're the funniest guy I know
and thanks for being so loving towards my children you mean so much more then just an uncle to them
thanks Mom and Dad for bringing me my brother. its like they knew somehow we needed each other
but above all I thank God for blessing my life with your presence there's no other way I could have of done it.

don't wanna speak, don't want to eat what's wrong with me?
hear back to weak.
don't know why I don't want to hang with friends,
guess I don't want to have to explain again.
sick of the uncertantity,
everyday unfortunately,
I have to battle with me.
back and forth, forth and back
hour by hour, not sure how to act
so please cut me some slack
making impulsive decisions,
full of anxiety filled confusion
not something I'm choosing
the more I feel connected
the more I kinda don't.
I don't know how to describe myself while im trying to cope.
hey, at least I'm not on dope.
yeah, that makes it all better.
sometimes I just miss that guaranteed go getter
but whatever,
now I'm just *******.
crazy old Cristine,
**** I even know about me

simple little words that blow my mind,
makes me crave you
"as often as I want to and all the time"
I'll tell you this
"if and when, and if, and mainly when, or mainly if" our lips touch  it's going to be
"forever and ever and ever"
" if I die you die and we would be one person"
and nothing sounds sweeter