I want to see what it's like to be good.
do you breathe easier?
Can you go through your day
without regrets?
Do you sleep better at night?
Is life easier? Is it better?
I wouldn't know what it's like to be good.
In order to be good,
you have to do things right
Something I'm miserable at, doing things right.
All my tests have A's but there is no homework.
another failed class.
I made her smile today, my mother screamed.
another fight.
A bright morning, and a dark night.
just another dose of black.
Just one more slash.
just one more drop of blood.
Just another sleepless night.
I'm afraid that while my life is mine,
I'll never be good.

Life is more
  Than who you are
     and
        The trival lives
           That people lead
              You are way more
         Than what they say
              Don't be scared
                 Of who
             You should be
         Remember,
    No one said
It would be easy

Wallow in thy self-begotten woe.
You've earned it; you've wrought it upon thyself.

Bask in thy self-inflicted confusion.
You've earned it; you've brought it upon thyself.

Cringe in thy self-loathing angst.
You've earned it; you've sought it of thyself.

Pessimist? Maybe,
but I've had my fill
of swearing by
Benefit of the Doubt.