Things seen,cannot be unseen Things said,cannot be unsaid Stitch by stitch it comes undone Just like the stuffed toy flung into a box to be forgotten I'll undo my own stitches from now on
They say,time heals all wounds But aging also makes you weak and frail Falling apart,lost and alone Enjoy each moment before Chronos makes a fool of you As he does us all
Break the ideal of life across my spine Break my back and leave me a physical ******* Let my mind be,sully yourself on my physique Just let my mind be,nothing is sacred Its all erroneous, eroding our atomic fabric Energy displaced,trapped in mortal phase You live and die but once But you stay dead **forever
My method of existence is somewhere between drunken rambling & existential crisis The later obvious to most has lower cash value but heavier mental prices Id very much like to have the average mediocre view Then again I like to reflect on the deep thoughts I've been through So I'll guess this life suits me and makes me what I am Not a vane numb shell, but the kind of being that give a ****
I am going to hack a wound so deep it could end me I'll do it in a place where none can see Just incase it doesn't cease me to be But I'll try **** hard to be set free
It's getting to that point more & more Where existing in this life is just a chore I wish I could turn to my friends and not make them sore Not die inside right to the core Life has become day to day and what for? The anxiety to pierce my head and bore Like scars on my arms that for years I wore But deep down I know I'm not free until I walk out that door I'm losing my own personal war Against demons that have left my mind poor Just destruction,angst and scenes of gore That's why I chose to put it all down in lore
Tormented,I could no longer bide Rips in the flesh,I peer inside With lesions of despair so wide That from it I cannot not hide
Deep wretched feeling burrows my soul Tears into the depths,I've set my goal Clawing out guts as I make each hole Sweet pain of torture shall take its toll
Today is the day inside I wish to die Though we don't always see eye to eye You must be sure I have my reasons why So good day to you feelings and goodbye
From the sadness blast an eruption Of self destruction Pulse quickens,hands tremble Logic begins to disassemble Reflection resembles a wild dog starving I begin carving
Deeper Deeper
Bring me the reaper Drag me out of this misery and plant me in a grave Free me from the ******* to emotion,I'm a slave Fiery whips of self hatred across my back Mind screaming
Attack Attack Attack
Until it fades to black And I wake up from this being And constant visions seeing Nowhere to run always fleeing
Drink Cut Drink Cut
But I don't die Leaving myself a ****** drunken mess Serving only as a warning to others That this is the wrong path
Get inspired or intimidated Metal outlook is reciprocated You don't wanna lose when you could have made it You know the game and played it Sucesess that you coulda tasted If you move on from getting extra faded Dreams and actions should be amalgamated Through all the doubt and fear to be waded
Today is the day I sail away But I must say Thankyou for letting me play
I have not a regret And with these words you may not forget In online code it is set If you want me this is your best bet
I loved you all so very much But the pain is so strong I can't deal with its touch Like a rabbit I'll be free from the hutch The quick way out,drop clutch
Kind hearts are so beautiful I'd do anything for you please stay Leave me with good memories Love me forever
My minds a bit messy Everythings better with you
Sometimes I worry I'm not good enough Laughter between us makes it better Ordinary people will never understand us Will you grow old with me Lifes been so much better with you around You're my everything
Id like to say a thousand things But I know to well what trouble brings My heart is heavy sorrow clings You cannot fly with broken wings
For my son no way to measure love No breadth or length or height above Its controlling I dislike and I've grown sick of Destroying trust,closeness and things thereof
Time spent between anxiety and elation Permanently tied to anger of their creation destroy my life to cause frustration But you have no chance of my retaliation
When my life turned to darkness Hell is leaving the light on When sweet love fades to black Know that I didn't choose to be gone And baby if you hear me Know that you're my one Oh,baby please hear me Because you aren't second to anyone
even though I'm feeling rough I can't ever have enough And its pretty tough Loving you I can walk away I need you're loving every day This ain't a game to play I know you move in a different way.
But I'll still be loving you oooOOOoooOOO loving you
The answer was there all along But the urge to keep looking was too great I cannot settle while there is adventure to be had Take my hand,let's find a new tomorrow
I put a message in a bottle and set it out to sea On the paper was inscribed "shipwrecked,could die,help me!" I waited there for days,the only thing I could Then I got a bottle back,message read "well,that's not good!"
Sometimes nobody gets the message and replies without comprehending what's been said.
There is a fine line between heaven and hell The line is so blurred I can no longer tell Much like the angels,from grace one third fell A fortune as such is perplexing,oh well
The sorrows black hole as love turns to hate Scrambling frantically emotions negate Lift up the heart for the wish to elate It clearly takes two of pure love to equate
We set out into a raging storm On an adventure that would leave me torn
We walked a while in rain and gale But we walked fast enough not to fail We stopped at shops to get a few tins As we moved quick enough to get extra mins On to the station there after Your shoes were soaked but still on train was laughter We reached the city for which we were aiming Bath Spa if you'd like it naming Direction to hotel we had no clue Google maps I'd like to thank you We journeyed through the city centre Until the old streets did we enter Shops with furniture covered in dust Is desolate shop in that place a must? I remember you wanted to find £2 shoes But you couldn't find them so to Morrison's to buy some ***** Then we carried on the hotel trek It was long,what the heck But we got there after a good while I thought it'd only be about a mile We booked in and entered room You made coffee and *** to lighten the gloom We ate shusi and drank some more Then we ******,the headboard was poor We stuffed a pillow between it and wall After all who want the people next door to call We did it harder and faster like we never had And for he first time no tears which wasn't bad We felt more in love than we had before Had a shower with an open door A few quick lines and we headed out A good time to be had no doubt There were cut outs of kanye and Kim A dingy bar with lights real dim We had some shots and got used to the place Then on dancefloor a dude grabbed you waist and kissed your face You told me a bloke grabbed your *** at the bar I already knew this had gone too far When they open the bottom door My jaw was going to hit the floor You were grinding with other guys I could hardly believe my eyes Then a guy kissed you on the lips By now my heart was full of rips In the end you wanted to leave I agreed as I wear my heart on sleeve We got a little way from club You collapsed in front of pub I carried you all the way back I could not wait to hit the sack You convulsed eyes rolled back in head I prayed you'd not end up dead I knew then someone had slipped something in you drink For your life I had to think I held you in the shower temperature regulated Begging you to stay with me while I self hated But it seemed to work And I sat there thinking the guy who did this is a **** I cried and cried and asked God "why?" I couldn't bare to see you die I stayed up watching you until you woke When you did,no memory...no ******* joke When you asked what occurred No recall of anything referred We washed again,then homeward bound I was so upset but didn't make a sound I spent that day without saying much To this memory i'd rather not clutch I should have taken better care of her I wish I could forget it,have no memory just a blur
The pounding of my head,only silenced by the pounding of my heart. I wish it would stop beating,the ache has become so unbearable. I will still it by any means necessary. Thoughts race across my mind,I've been left behind. There is no reprieve. Gather yourself for the last day,make peace with those I wronged.
The love of money Trumps the love of peace Why love your neighbour When you can ****,pillage and fleece Force them into poverty Make a country decease So I'm waiting for the day That it'll finally cease In a house of cards That can no longer increase We can own our lives Rather than rent on a lease
It's safe to say,"keep your hand on a piece", When the tyrants catch ahold they won't want to release.