When I bury my heart,
I'll bury it with a mountain of gold,
In the hopes you would dig it up.

What use is there in having more than I can spend,
When I haven't got the one I want to spend it on?

I have achieved everything I could dream of in my career and I have made it my life,
At the cost of my wife,my child,my friends.

When digging holes becomes too much,
Then I'll drink everything I earn,trying to drown out this nagging feeling that I've lost everything,
Buying the cheap way out,the fast way out.

I would sell all but one of my days on earth just to spend that one with you,
But that's not what you want,I'm not what you want.

I'm so tired of not sleeping,of not eating,
Of creating this beautiful art day in and day out,
Changing people's lives covering scars,
Helping them feel good in their bodies,
But never sharing my accomplishments with you has made me numb to the happiness I bring.

When I said forever,
I meant it,
With every fiber of my being I meant it,
I just didn't realise that 'forever' would be me waiting for you until I drown in the poison from a bottle or by the memories left behind.

If the world were to crash and burn,
But for one my heart doth yearn.
Through all the sorrow and all the strife,
I want for nothing but my wife.
I practice much yet saved for art,
My true canvas is your heart.
You are the light in my moments,
Your saving grace my attonements.
You see my dear our love is true,
You for me and I for you.

The sun the moon the stars
The shades of purple between Venus and Mars
The moments should be ours
Not hagared mental scars

The look of love upon your face
The permanence and grace
The outfits made of lace
Love grown strong as base

The fear of loss and doubt
That we could live without
The hard liquor and the stout
The disapproval shown as pout

Hello words of often rhyming syncronistic beauty
Its be a while since we spent any time together but only a minute since I last thought of you
I'm sorry I don't write you as much as I used to
Do you still check the post for my words?
I look for you everywhere
While I eat alone
While I create works of art in skin
In the bottom of that empty bottle
And even in the cold space in my bed before I sleep
But I can't find you and it breaks my heart
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Please come home to me,it's been to long.

All my love,
Creep

Do I leave early?
Do I leave late?
Do I hide in my head?
Do I tempt fate?

Am I really scared?
Am I just anxious?
Am I alive?
When nobody thanks us.

When they say they'll be there
Like you were for them
That feeling is rare
Unless I'm in REM

When all of my friends
All follow their words
I wake up,it ends
Like flight for the birds

They take off so fast
Like a stone has been thrown
And like a rock it hits
"I am on my own."

Who are you?
Self professed creatures of the night.
Starving,longing,
Beg to the moon for something right.
What can you give?
Try as you might.
There is no fear,
Much,as creatures to the night.

Genesis: a childhood of isolation and growth.

Chronicles: adventures,and lovers and friends.lives come and gone.

Psalms: the poetry spoken,written and thought.

Proverbs: the wisdom heard,learnt,taught.

Acts: the history of these things.

Followed by;-

Revelations: that we are not so different from that everlasting living text.

My dearest friends
For whom I care so much
And all my gentle lovers
Of whom I wish to touch

I must take this time
On a wasted past
A glass stands empty
A rope held fast

A true master matches his skill to the challenge.Whitt to whitt,mind to mind,emotion to emotion.
When you walk a mile one way in resistance,then i,my dear,will walk a mile the other way.until the vast expance is to far to feel.
The closer you move in the closer I will come,I will bind my heart to yours given the option.
As tides I will go in and out with you in love.
But if there is more out than in then the shore will one day no longer kiss the sea.

I wrote a poem in my dream
I was so happy with it
But apon leaving the asteral realm
I lost it

Under the flesh,creeping crawling
Within the head,voices calling
Body numb,a sense of falling
Blank dark eyes,inside he brawling

Demons penetrate all that's real
The mind screams,"why can't I heal?!"
The fear and dread,to them a meal
Between this and numbness,cannot feel

Permeate the impermeable
Set your goals,smash them all
Run your race and if you fall
Get back up and stand tall

She can cut down morning wood
With a single look
Sorry I mistook
Her for a troll that goes by the book

Normally they live under a bridge
But this one came for the goats out of and open fridge
Angry looks,forehead is more like a ridge
Got abbos trying to ward her off blowing on a didge

The river was,afraid you see
That it wasn't destined for the sea
So the sea replied wittingly
"I am you,and you are me."

Fetid water
Restless slaughter
Twisted trees
A list that reads :

1,Gather up the bodies bare
2,Singe off all the excess hair
3,A little trim and stitch here and there
4,One fine coat fit to wear

Sitting his dark swamp hut
An artist down to every cut
The finest leather on the ****
Carefully pulling each hem shut

A sob and rattle from a cage
Ah,a new victim young in age
We don't know how they ended up here
But id like to make it very clear

That once you stumble into this place
No escape,reprieve or grace
This is where they always perish
So keep away all you cherish.

I'm under so much stress
They wouldn't second guess
No matter how good I dress
That I'm still a ******* mess

My mind seems quite disbard
Emotional ******
But 20 plus roses
Get a free card

And..maybe a note to say
"I love you"
Well *******
Well who knew?

I'm slowly losing my mind
Hit pause,
Break for a second
Rewind...
...I'm fine

But I'm not though
I wanna stop bro
Thoughts so hot? No
I've got to go.

Repressing the feeling
Its not so appealing
That I'm still hear breathing
This life is deceiving

Yeah I'm a state...
I'm irate...
Self masticate..
With four tinnies like a reprobate.

So who am I now?
Will I figure it out?
Will it all just be doubt?
Deep though,sat with a pout.

**I'm out

One look at you
And I fell
Clean into
The seventh circle of hell

Why did God curse me,
With the biggest ******* heart.
And the worse ******* temper.

Why did I love you,
Baby?
If I wasn’t meant to.

I already knew,
What love could do,
And I still fell for you.

Goodnight,goodbye,so long
You're not worth a line of song.

"baby,let's have ***"*
To reply,what comes next?
I want to talk deep about me and you and trust,
About marriage children,hopes and dreams and us.
To taste your skin would be bliss,
But to be entirely open?I want this.
Just me and you with no boundaries,
And because of this I'm glad you found me.

What are these memories?these dreams of tomorrow?
For what purpose do I spill this sorrow?
Why do I shed tears for something that we never got to live
Soul bore bare and for actions you should not forgive.

The blade sings
Softly caressing the contour of a throat
Ears hear a sharp rotten ring
The screams of sacrificed goat
Long passionate kisses
Leaving a river of tears
Fantastic dark visions
To spill over the body
Crawling under the skin
Warm,wet a ******
Suffer the hell its found in
To wipe and find
The read strings of a guitar
Stretched around neck side to side
So close death can't be far
The drumming and pounding
Of fists to vessle
The percussion and throbbing in knees
All that's left is the base
But foundations lay waste
The song titled
*just **** me please

Bang the drums of war!
Tonight we battle on the field of bloodsoaked heartbreak.
We take no prisoners.
We give no compassion.
The kingdom lays in ruins,fire lighting the bellowing smoke in a night sky.
The smell of blood,eyes roll back,there is no pain relief on the battleground,droves of dead bodies hard to navigate underfoot.
Cries of the dying and for the dead.

**open eyes,for it is all a war in my head

Cut still beating heart from chest
Press hard break breast
Twisted spine,emotion pine,"I'm fine" I'm lying.
Crushing bones of cadavers love,black mist of decay
**** me,**** me,**** me
Oh wait you did,reanimated corpse,staggers through world of gray,carrion picked to the last by vultures of memories that I cannot leave behind.
Dwindling soul,abandoned hope,jump ship,awash in a sea of misery.
Just drown,just drown
Sinks down,sinks down
Deeper into the black,the sharks eat their fill,I lay still.
For all the pain not a sound apart from that of broken dreams,shattering against the words " its over".

There is nothing quite so painful
As watching your love leave
Words can be misleading
Your heart it will decieve

Foolishly you will invest
Everything you've got
Then one day they'll up and leave
Feelings in the melting ***

You can try so very hard
To prove that you cannot quit
But if they're set on giving up
It will count for ****

Yes I may be broken
And like wise I'm a fool
Because I gave all I have to give
Used up,dropped like a tool

So what's the sense in tears?
What's the use of pain?
It all amounts to more wasted time
And there's nothing there to gain

Yes I deeply love her
I think I'll always care
But what's the use in saying this?
When she's gone,no longer there

Oh so many sleepless nights
That still have to come to pass
Oh so many poisons
That will knock me on my ***

I couldn't give a ****
Of other fishes in the sea
All I really want in truth
Is for her to come back to me

His fire burnt to bright
While she burnt out
He dreamt of the life they'd have
While she was plagued with doubt

He thought of all the love he had
While she was growing cold
He would hold a poker face
When all she could do was fold

I am not a blanket,I am not there to comfort you.
I am the raging storm,I will weather you,I will try to break you and if you can survive being in my presence then you are a warrior.
you will be deserving of the warm sun that follows the rage of my heart and the ruthless passion of my mind.
I am a ******* hurricane.

Love is short
Tastes so sweet
To the tounge tourte
But you will eat

It touches lips
And rush an osphagus
Laidies think of hips
While men want them on top of us.

I woke up with you asleep on my legs
I cried because it would never happen again
You were there for me through all of my friends
But I knew the strength you'd never regain

I wanted you to live forever
Even if it was just me and you,regret id never
You were the comfort blanket to my heart
Yeah,the laws of nature we ripped apart

Every time you looked into my eyes
And when I think of it a piece of me dies
Because without a voice you could tell no lies
You showed me a zen path,though young so wise

I think you're the best friend I ever had
And I'm sorry I feel so bad
But we had to stop the suffering,we saw the hurt
We'll still think of you once you're in the eart'

You were so wonderful wild and free
The only thing until this point of you moving on was me
I looked at you and I could plainly see
That this is just the way it has to be

If I could fly on borrowed wings
I'd fly to whom my heart sings
I would list one thousand perfect things
And cover her with gold and crystal rings.

I caught my reflection,but it was not me,
It was an alternate reality staring back you see.
We waved at one another,mirrored interdimensional mimes,
I thought,"does this happen often & how many times?"
What if there has never been reflection,just a window to a parallel reality?
What if it isn't that at all and this is just an onset for skitzopheria and insanity?

Have you ever,
Had someone hold your head out of the gutter of your mind?
Have you ever,
Held someone so tight you want to leave it all behind?
Have you ever,
Loved someone so much you want to love you?
Have you ever,
Felt something so true?

The shadow that I am,blending seamlessly  into a black pit.
It is dark,more so than any home I have dwelled in before.
This time I will not fear,but instead embrace the crushing knowledge that I am more comfortable in misery than I ever was in happiness.
Misery leaves one with the knowing there is nothing to lose.
I am free.

I am not a boy
Nor am I a man
I am a sullen creep
From my problems I have ran

Why can I not sleep?
Why am I turning?
Why are all the trees burning?
Forest fires, crooked liars
Why am I so sullen and drained?

In the bush, it's raining
Lost man on his own
Has anyone thought to save him? (him)

The monkey is waiting in the tree
Counts to three
Hearing the sound of the fume-fuelled wagon
He leaps on the back...
Attack! Attack! Attack! (Attack! Attack!)
No old heathen, not today

The rain falls upon the acidic trees of the millennium scorn
The fire has vanished, leaving behind a trail of death for all to see
The birds & the trees, then you & me
They twitching on the floor
Twitching on the floor
They twitching on the forest floor
The yeti is waiting (The yeti is waiting)
The yeti is waiting for us (The yeti is waiting)
The yeti is waiting to take us into his home
Care for us just like one of his own

Wild bones!
Wild bones!
Wait!

The yeti no longer has a home
The trees are gone & nothing has grown
A table, a chair, an internet nightmare
When will the forest speak?
When all is dried up and way too weak

Wait for nightfall, it's so beautiful out here
Up high in a wave of oxygen love I sit
Up high on this glorified cement postcard I spit
I spit
I spit upon thee

Wait for your red skies
Wait for the red skies
Do you know how it feels to be alive?
Do you know how it feels to be alive?
Let me know, let me know how you feel...
When will the forest speak?
When the trees are dried up and way too weak?

Wasting a life on calculations
Not enough money for operations
Waste of life, statistics, plastic soldiers
Sound of sticks rubbing together
All the people gather
All the people gather

Wait for the man, he must have a plan
Show me and make me a smile I can wear
Me & you we can make up too
No use for hate if you're wearing my shoes

Be happy, be sad, be a wild rotten lamb
Don't bother me now, I'm drenched to the bone

A sound of a truck and an axe and a fall
Of a tree and a knife and a planet so small
Sick to the bone of your dour heart of stone. (stone stone stone)
Sick to the bone of your dour heart of stone!
Let me know how you feel...

Let me know how you feel
You say it's too hot so you can take off your top
A clank of a slot machine coins
Machine coins bled unclean

A beaten old lizard staggers over the road
A hand and a heart, the lake in the park
The candle won't light and the fire won't spark

I'm worn and I'm torn but I still carry on
I'm worn and I'm torn but I still carry on
The money is angry, the money has taken the...

Watching mayhem leaping from truck to truck
This is where he rejoins his friends
They feast, they drink, they talk about
How things used to be...

I still can't sleep
I still can't sleep
I still can't sleep

A million minds and a million voices
A million thoughts, and only one choice
The need to find peace

Perfect curves
Perfect face
Perfect mind
Imperfections,not a trace

Perfect smile
Perfect eyes
Perfect voice
That tells no lies

I love you more
Than words can say
Please be my wife?
If you may

She found me on a bench
I was falling apart
She asked "what's wrong?"
"its just my heart"
"Oh **** dude!"
"Do you have a condition?"
"well,kinda,I'm on a suicide mission"
"I got an idea"
"Instead of the ****"
"You hope on your board"
"And bomb a fat hill?"
Of course I agreed
And with the new friend I had made
She rode beside me
And the hill? It was slayed
So bicycle girl
With your long red hair
This ones for you
Thankyou for being there

The thought of fathering another life
Has got me smiling
I know the impending strife
Mother of first child will be whiling

I mean if I can't buy a pack of cards
Without being told I have to pay her tax and rent
I know she'll go full hulk
In an angry rageful vent

I press hard,just to get close.
For one night would you **** me harder than life has?
Leave me a bruised and shaking mess?
Wrap your hands around my throat,make me choke,like all the time I spend inhaling cigarette smoke and dope.
Erase all the shadows and doubt in my mind,be kind and help me escape the hell that I've made for myself.
I want to remember what forgetting feels like.
I want you breathing heavy and making me feel like I'm enough and not just some passing phase.I know you dig pierced and tattooed skinny white guys,but you'll change your mind when you see what I hide inside.
So tonight,**** me until I forget,
Help me escape.
Just for one night.

I'm going to say "goodnight" now,
Is that alright?!
I am very tired,
Please,let me turn off the light?!
I don't want to argue,
In my head,there's a fight.
I don't even feel human
Held together with ducttape and aryldite.

Why does having a child make one fear for all life on earth?
Are our offspring plugs to the "great what is"
A shift in perspective
Allowing us to care for all life.
The dark side of this glorious awakening is...
...we had to have something too precious to lose to see it.

Don't go across the street
But go down it
When you rip the meat
You can't clown it

All I want
Is what's for the best
Got nowt to flwant
It just a test

I'm out this life
I'm out for gawd
Thank creator for my wife
And my dawgs

Each
And everyone of is my mans
But I won't won't hang around
Unless you show a ****

** goodbye

I can feel it
Inside my chest
Hard pressed
I detest this feeling
Its like a vest
Wrapped around my being
What I'm seeing
I am fleeing
Ain't no freeing
It hurts
Like seeing a loved one in pain
I'm insane
But this want to damage
I can't contain
Its in my brain
Each slice of reality
Cuts worst than the last
Its in the past
But it happened so fast
From going,incredible
To incredulous
What about us?
The question I ask
Its not a task
All the memories bottled up
Like a flask
What if its real?
What if its true?
What's the point?
When I'm disposable to you?

I'm thorbing,hard
She's soaking wet
Intertwined arms a scared
Lest we forget

The sweat in sheets
Lovers spent bed
Pleasantly purchase each
Memory in head

It costs,but time
And a little fluid
After I drink my wine
Room is humid

If you love it
Know that it'll wear you down
If it's one sided
It'll leave you face painted like a clown
If breaks your heart
Cry a river in which you drown
No matter what it is
It always comes under class of,noun