I'm stuck in a place with a man with no face he is the darkest fear you have inside which you try to hide but you can't fight it nothing you can do just be exposed to the dark fears that live inside of you hope hope isn't real everyday something new and painful to feel what is god supposed to heal I'm too far gone can't be saved never have been praised pointless to be saved love has no name but evol dose and its dissolving the sanity I  have left i try as hard as i can till every last breath but nothing is left

i wanna be free from the pain that imprisons me let me be i don't care anymore my life is ******* worthless less then dirt i wanna die no more crying no more lying in four days it will be the day of my birth but this time its the day of my death I'm sorry I'm sorry but i can't  hang on  I'm drowning in my misery and sadness madness insanity thats filling my brain with your Poisoness words i don't understand why i said yes and now I'm dead from decision here i go with the incision in my  wrist i hope I'm not missed life is worthless

I feel so hated and frustrated look me in the eyes and I'll rip out the lies in your voice i wish i had a choice but everyone is eating me alive all the stares and judgmental glances **** this romance that I'm in let them win because I'm done I'm  sick of failing I'm sick of everyone staring i know I'm insane please stop ******* your hurting my brain I'm in so much pain what is left for you to take away what do i say am i suppose to lie act like everything is fine **** THAT I RATHER DIE i know you don't give a **** about me so cut me up thats what i be doing up alone in my room blaring the music so you can't hear my anger filled cries.

the voices in my head tell me to walk away from the pain and misery that is suffocating me i beg i plea for them to stop torturing me let me be my silence is just another word for my pain the voices are screaming in my brain showing me my flaws making me want to put a gun between my jaws and pull the trigger i will just take another swig of the liquor to silence my pain i wish god never gave me a brain i feel like a wild beast which could never be tamed people tell me I'm insane i say you only see one part of me which is being ripped apart.

i actually believe in death do us part but her apparently not idc I'm here waisting air **** I'm ready to slit my ******* wrist she would ******* get off on watching me die sadly i sigh because she knows theirs nothing left for me here so i wither away and die this ***** is like a parasite digging her way into my mind slowly ripping the pieces of sanity i have left and that for isn't enough i wish i would have said ******* when she dumped me then wanted me back i wish i had a ******* heart attack i wish the pain would end me already let me die

why do you cheat why do you lie I'm the only one who ever treated you right and i stay up all night trying to figure out why......... why people who see me still standing next to you ask me if I'm insane or just plain stupid and i say neither i say I'm in love and i can never leave she is the only reason i can breath and idc the consequences even death i could pay that price in a second i have nothing to loose I'm sorry jade but i can't stop drinking the ***** i will stop when you stop.

my life has slipped away i wish i had more to say but i just hold it it all in and thats what killed me i am too scared to confess how i feel i don't know why though i love them but i am scared how i effect the people i care about but who am i suppose to vent to a cheating girl or a friend who tells her over and over how he loves her and i am no good and how he cares and i don't who am i suppose to turn to i have nobody i can't trust anyone be cause they go and run and gossip and i have no idea what to do anymore i don't understand why i feel like a monster when i know I'm not the one doing wrong please someone end this nightmare end it please