i have been deceived betrayed stabbed in my back and now all i do is look over my shoulder making sure no one their to hurt me who can i trust i was in pain but now I'm ****** and my blood lust is surging and I'm thirsting for a fight so stay away i know i will win so don't even tempt me once you loose my trust i will never look at you the same.

oh how i wish i could escape oh how i wish i could fly oh how i wish i would just die i wish i could just walk away from the pain that suffocates me daily i know i will never amount to anything at all but i am going to attempt to pick up the pieces from which I'm scattered to be honest  i will never be the same way i once was because I've been beaten broken and bruised these ******* girls i get so aggravated that my brain swirls i can't even remember the last time i actually felt loved by anybody at all i help everyone i can but no comes to pick me up when i fall what about me........

I'm dead....... inside some place i can hide it i don't even fight it if there was a god he would save me from this despair i can't compare my pain to the throbbing in my head all the voices screaming while the ***** is swirling through me making it hard to stand i look down at my blood covered hands and the ****** knife across the room i fall down and i feel so dead trying to stand back up was a mistake so much blood i couldn't take it i just lay and die no tears no crying just sit there like a man drinking the rest of the ***** in my blood covered hand anyone to save me now nope no jade my life starts to fade so dim as if some one turned off the lights i see the flash backs from all those restless nights I'm glad I'm dead no more pain no more misery no more fake people to claim they love me

i feel like Judas from the bible expect I'm the one who is always being betrayed the one who's be played god can't You ******* hear me pray or are you just looking the other way what the hell do you want me to say i don't give a **** if your offended I'm dead and I'm walking and talking stalking my prey say something if you have something to say don't ***** out be man and stand up for whats right don't just let them win the fight

I hate you because I hate myself

as i lay here crying dying sighing ready to leave you nothing left to keep me here i hear you whispering the mental torture in my ear wanting me to hear wanting me to feel pain wanting me to die I'm sorry for disappointing but I'm gunna stay alive find someone else you can hurt because no one can endure the suffering you cause I'm suprized I'm still alive after how long i endured your pain i will be honest it drove me insane but it was easy to get through because i don't have a brain please let me leave find someone else to drown in your misery please let me be i can't love you anymore I've tried I'm sorry but u killed me and i have  died

your love is cold as my blade you just walked away letting me drown in my misery how could you see when you don't even love me oh god why can't i walk away from her I'm paralyzed open your eyes and see that she will never love you who would your a disgusting beast who lives inside of me no one could ever control you no one will ever hold you no one will ever love you like she dose she's my drug and i need a fix just her looking at me being in the same room makes me high as a kite but as the same time it sends me down crashing to the ground with a pound everyday i try to walk away but she inside my mind hiding from my judgment of right or wrong and all i can do is sigh because ik this is my fate no use in trying to escape.