She stands
unafraid
she's been waiting
she falls
in her mind
picturing her family
standing above a hole
in which she lies
she backs up
hot tears
falls to the ground
she is fine
she wishes
she was back home
in her mother's arms
but her pain is hidden
she
comes home from
work
"hello"
I love you
I love you too
I'm not dying
maybe

nobody knows
i hurt
nobody knows
I stare in the mirror
nobody knows
I think I'm hot
nobody knows
I love Zelda
nobody knows
I'm a ******* nerd
hehe
nobody knows
I watch ****** doo
and I'm a sophomore
in high school
nobody knows
while I seem happy
that I am depressed
nobody knows
I lie awake
til 3 crying
nobody knows
I wanna die
even though I love life
nobody knew but
now you do

I sat
****** diner
I burst into tears
they smiled
I arose and pushed
the gentle ceramic
shattering to the floor
tea spilled about
i prefer my flask
anyways
I don't care
they can clean it up
walked across the floor
my feet now bleed
I shove on my shoes
they'll be fine without me
they don't exist
at that booth I was alone
I will not pay
my car is a beater
I slam the door
I shove the engine
I can't take this no more
I drive to the coast
it's a clear night
the moon is just rising
I wish I was happy
the people that smile are in my head
they make fun of me
for my insecurity
anxiety
I'm shaking
tears soak my shirt and my face
eyes stinging
mascara running
what is it for
there is no beauty
I reach the ocean
I leave my car
I scale the dunes
I sit by the waves
I don't wanna go back

She is sweet
she is hurting
we all love her
she feels hate
she is a friend
she sings
she smiles
she is beautiful
she is depressed
i know
I can see it in her eyes
which she rarely shows
because she is crying
spitting to the smoke
of her camels
pack after wasted pack
I feel her pain
if I am mistaken
she may shoot me in the head
**** haters
id rather be dead

Inhale
Cough
Light headed
Smoke rising
Gazing grey
tobacco poison

pour
sink down
cringe
dizzy
daze
alcohol poison

Deep inside my body
mind
soul
flying in no particular direction
connection to mah native roots
feeling strong and part of a group
we stand strong
we shall always rise
holding hands in
eagle strong
pride
Braids
and bead
and basket weaves
children dancing
fireside
elder tales
ancient wisdom
brought to mind
healing
adult time
children rest
we fly with the eagles
minds somewhere else
drink the tea
come of age
burn the sage
Palo Santos
feather
catch your dreams
you are awakened
carry these roots
elder speaks
circle of powerful
people
humans on the outside
souls inside we reach

Trailhead is far
the map is ruined
where do I go
I walk straight through
the forest is thick
falling down
scratching
blood
hurt
lost.