I lie awake at night wishing I held you tighter
kissed you longer
and loved you better
I still remember the first time I fell asleep next to you
the first time you held my arm to your chest as we were drifting off
I remember the soft kisses on my face when you thought I was asleep
I remember the feeling of your weight on my chest as I held you close
I remember how your head fit below my chin whenever I pull you closer
Those moments were everything I ever dreamed of
And I thought I would finally have it forever
But in between those soft moments were hard truths
You went in with baggages full of disappointments
I went in full of insecurities and second-guessing
I had to live up to righting the wrongs of people who hurt you
Because, I guess, that's the only way I could keep you
It wasn't right, but I tried
I failed and you saw that I would never succeed
Thank you for cutting the tie
Thank you for letting me go
Because I wouldn't have walked away myself
Someday, we'll be okay
Someday, you won't carry those baggages around with you anymore
Someday I'll find someone I can have a fresh start with
And maybe someday, we'll see each other
And we'll be thankful for the lives we chose for ourselves